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Let’s explore a channel specifically about life and death. Not just because so many have lost people recently but we’re coming to a time of collective consciousness where people want to know how to bridge that gap in a practical way—that gap of life and death. Many people don’t think about it much—death—including myself. We live as if we are not going to die. But when we live mindfully of death, to partly prepare for it, then we also intensify the experience of life itself, which becomes more precious when you face that finality.
Last week, I had the luxury of spending seven days doing nothing but sitting in a chair and looking at the Pacific Ocean. My friend and I traveled to Rosarito, Mexico and made the executive decision to do as little as possible on our vacation.
Truth be told, I didn’t exactly do “nothing.” I finished reading one book and started another. We also walked to the local restaurant twice a day to eat. But other than that, the days were spent gazing out of the water sweeping into shore and concentrating on the vast blue of the open sky. It was heavenly. I did not feel at all guilty. In fact, I reveled in the luxury of having so much time to relax and take care of myself.
We started talking about disease (my friend is a doctor) and how much of disease originates in unprocessed and irrational feelings of guilt. I told her about some aches and pains I’d been having. I called them “moveable pain,” sometimes in my shoulder, sometimes in my rib, other times on the left side and then on the right. She suggested I explore what suppressed guilt might be at work in creating this pain.
As I settled into my meditation, I was surprised to find an old familiar memory immediately surfacing, one that involved a trauma I experienced as a pre-schooler with my father. He was screaming at me that, had it not been for me, he could have lived a happy life.
My father’s treatment of me as a child obviously shaped my worldview. The guilt that I was responsible for my father’s unhappiness carried over into all my relationships. It inspired co-dependency, drug addiction, self-sabotage, and unhappiness. My father wanted to make me feel I had done something wrong in order to make himself feel better about his unhappy life.
Through the years, by coming to know myself and using Conflict REVOLUTION to learn self-care, I’ve beaten the addictions, cultivated healthy relationships, and found my happiness. I know today that I was not guilty of anything back then and I’ve learned how to care for that inner child. So I was surprised to see this memory resurface. Was I still affected by this incident? Even in all my healing, was it buried so deep that instead of facing it consciously it had to manifest as my “moveable pain?”
As soon as I asked myself those questions, the scene from childhood jumped to the present and all the chaos of the current political situation here in the US. Lately I made the decision not to get swept away in this chaos, but I often find myself thinking that I have to “do more” otherwise I will be “part of the problem.”
I was surprised to think that those two images might be related—my father’s hurtful behavior and the current politic climate. And yet, what I see emerging in our culture today are people demonstrating the same lack of compassion and kindness that my father displayed. More war, more violence, more school shootings, more bullying. It’s as if society is being controlled by people as sick and lost as my father was when I was a kid.
It suddenly made sense to me that my well-meaning thoughts of wanting to make a positive contribution to change this culture would get tied up in that old guilt. And yet, I’ve come so far! I would not have thought I was still subject to its unseen influence. But, if it had not been buried, it would not have had to manifest as physical pain.
We decided to once again turn to Einstein for some insights about this embedded guilt. He explained how our modern culture is built on guilt, thereby making it nearly impossible to escape. But he also assured us that with mindfulness, compassion, and self-care, we can make new decisions grounded in self-love, for the good of all.
After a week at the beach, staring at the ocean, feeling and breathing my guilt, and reprogramming my thoughts, my pain is gone. Change may not always happen that quickly, and the pain may not be gone for good, but I am excited about moving forward being mindful of my decisions, feeling and breathing, and continuing to replace the voices of culture with those of love and compassion.
Below are notes from our session:
February 19, 2018
We command that only the most divine light shine down upon you at this time and the greatest good be present here.
It’s always a pleasure and an honor to welcome you to the circle. To begin with, we want to speak about what is going on in the world on February 19, 2018 in an energetic sense.
You as a human in 2018 are experiencing the powerful unification of humanity. Humanity is one body. There is no separation at the Source. That is the truth of your oneness. You are here to create unity within yourself, to the best of your ability, by waking up to the truth of your oneness.
The ultimate unification is when all the billions of people currently on the planet wake up to the truth of their collective oneness.
Right now your physical bodies are being overloaded by too much information. The truth of your oneness is too much information for your human mind to process. But in that challenge comes the growth and expansion you need. Being challenged to take in more and more information deepens your capacity to adapt to the truth of your oneness. Humanity is just now beginning to understand this level of reality, to understand how energy works, how physical matter is manifest through the perception of the human, and the importance of the intention of that human upon the organization of the physical world.
You are the leaders of change, choosing to instigate it first in yourself to then affect culture. This is the ultimate challenge right now. For those of you who have volunteered and were chosen to come here at this time to be the agents of change, you are working to free yourself from the separation that you feel as your mind is concentrating so purposefully in the Lens to create the seamless experience of a separate physical reality.
The evolution of human consciousness right now is in an extremely chaotic place, by design. It’s not a mistake. It’s not that the systems are failing. It’s that in order for you to achieve this oneness, you have to have transparency. And transparency brings with it a great deal of information that has to be processed.
Let’s talk about you as an individual alone: here you sit, you have your physical body, your thoughts, feelings, senses, memories, perceptions. You go to sleep, you wake up, you have days and nights: you are living this life. That is the Lens on the map. Even though your human mind is having this life in the Lens, there is a huge operating system that is invisible to your human mind that is allowing you to have these experiences.
As a human, you are slowly but surely removing the blocks from your human mind so you can take in all the rest of this information—and it’s so much information. So much so that people burn out and die because they don’t have the physical strength to process that much energy. It’s like getting electrocuted, so much energy surging into your body that it blows the circuits. That’s what’s happening right now.
People should be actively, consciously seeking to understand what’s going on in their own energy field and working to take these steps, one step at a time, to ensure that they don’t burn out in this expansion. Self-care is a valuable tool during chaotic times.
Don’t measure your progress by what you see going on in the Lens of your culture right now. If you did that, you would think you were making no progress at all. Don’t dismiss the events of your world, but put them in perspective with a much bigger picture.
Think about the people in your immediate world and about how many you feel you could have this conversation with. That should clearly illustrate what you’re up against in culture right now. You’re like salmon swimming upstream, pushing against the flow of people who are panicking, who don’t understand, who are projecting their judgments and defining their world against this 2018 culture. You’re doing it, too, whether you know it or not. It’s just a natural reaction of your human mind in 2018. But it’s not the whole truth.
This time when the veils are lifting is a very tumultuous and disruptive time. It was never going to be easy. But this is what is needed in order for human consciousness to expand past its limited capacity. By nature, human beings on their own will not push themselves to produce this kind of change. Disruption and conflict are needed to break down those walls and to build up the experiences one step at a time of what this big operating system really is. That’s why your physical body and your mental and emotional health need to go slowly, one step at a time. You don’t want the whole power plant surging into your wall socket.
Riding the Wave
Know that your human intellect is held prisoner in that culture of the Lens. Your job is to find a way out of that prison—not an easy task. It’s not just bliss and joy. Those things are there. But it’s the entire spectrum of human emotions that is being called to be integrated into what we would call power.
So yes, enjoy those times of bliss. Enjoy those times of joy. But know where you are on the journey. Know that the way will rise and fall. Know that you will reach a plateau and then you’ll drop again and then you’ll come up a little higher and then you’ll drop again and you’ll come up a little higher.
That’s why you should not think you are backpedaling when you re-experience some trauma from your past. It’s that your human psyche and your human operating system are so vast and so complex that there’s always going to be more emotions coming up, whether it’s emotions from this life or from the many layers of other lives that are also spinning on your string.
Let’s say you reincarnate into 2150 AD at a time after human consciousness has made the evolutionary step and culture is now based on compassion, unity and sustainability.
Even though that’s not where culture is right now in 2018, concentrate on creating within you the energy of that person in 2150. Simulate as much as you can what that person might be like, how they might think, feel and sense being brought up in the culture that teaches children how to take care of themselves and the world, for the good of all. Imagine the voice of that culture in your intellect supporting and self-loving, free of judgment, attachments and able to live in the truth of the oneness.
By bringing this person into your imagination, you’re using the future to help push the change along. But you’re also creating a conflict with the voices of culture in 2018 that often tell you that you are not worthy of such things. You get hopeless, as war and fighting rage on around you. Now you can feel even more out of time, more misunderstood and more hopeless.
Guilt is a thought process married to an emotional state that then drives the decision-making process. Guilt messages you on a primordial level what is expected of you within your culture and involves making you feel as if you have done something wrong in order to induce you to do something to meet that cultural expectation.
Guilt is a wholly culture-generated perception based on the expectation that you must perform in a way that culture wants. If you had been born 3000 years ago in the southwest of the U.S., which was an indigenous Anasazi migratory route, your voices of culture would have been tuned much more to the earth.
There were always personal voices of culture within family units, but the community culture was magical, sustainable and based on taking care of everyone within the community, including Earth herself. Earth was Mother, the garden that provided everything they needed to survive and thrive with families in a community. The voices of culture drove them to respect and care for the Earth so that the next seven generations would also have an Earth to survive and thrive on.
The culture of 2018 for the most part is far removed from this. Today’s voices of culture have guilt permeating them: in order to have value, you must do something, you must perform, you must achieve, you must accomplish, you must be doing something all the time. It has nothing to do with what the earth wants you to do.
Back in the Anasazi culture, your worth was not based on achievement and performance. Worth was about living in accordance to the laws of nature and taking care of each other. You were born to live in harmony among the plants and animals of the earth. You were born worthy.
2018 is the polar opposite. You are so driven to do these performances that you aren’t even aware of what drives you to do them. Guilt is an inescapable position. Not because you haven’t done enough or learned enough or that you need to do more. It’s that your current culture is driven by it. Your current culture for the most part has lost touch with the earth, lost heart, and consequently is destroying itself. For without the earth, you have no home.
So what is one to do in the face of such potential imprisonment? Is there really no escape from these voices?
Become the Change
Your mission is to not wait for the voices of culture around you to change, but to change yourself from within. This means that very carefully and meticulously, through every single experience you have, you mindfully come to understand what your relationship is to this guilt and how it manifests in your life. This inquiry will then allow evolution to work through you, showing you creative solutions to change those inner voices of culture into ones that love, respect and sustain the infrastructure of your energy.
It’s not like there’s a manual that you can follow that everyone else followed the last time they went through this change, because there was no last time. And chaos is a natural part of this change.
What do you do? It will help you to understand that there’s not a deficit happening in you because you feel guilt. On becoming aware that you feel guilt, you can decide to make a change in your life, and let that change lead you forward. You become a creature of evolution by holding the truth—that you have guilt—and asking Intuition how to guide you through this process of changing from within.
We can tell you ad infinitum, so much of this is about releasing emotion. In 2018 every human is suddenly aware of the incredible spectrum of emotion that is possible to feel. People are becoming transparent to themselves, and most people don’t know what to do with all that deep feeling. You have a natural tendency to suppress emotions or project them onto others. There must be a change in individuals and how they relate to, define, and process their own emotion. The need to know how to do this and put it into practice will never end. It’s part of the operating system.
If you are making decisions out of guilt and what you think the world wants of you, it means you’re still not being transparent with yourself. Open up and examine your guilt. Observe it as the witness to your life. See what it’s doing and constantly let intuition in to tell you how to change it.
The observation of what that guilt is will help you now to transform it, one step at a time. As you observe yourself, you can exist in a state where you can feel Intuition driving you to do something, and at the same time, you can hear the voices of culture telling you why you shouldn’t and why you can’t. These voices exist side by side. It’s not necessarily that you have to do away with these voices of guilt before you can make a change. It’s that you train yourself to use Intellect to make a decision based on what Intuition is telling you. You make a conscious choice to not act on the voices of guilt, which are of ego, but to act on the voices of Intuition, which are of Compassion.
Everyone experiences this. The voices in your head say you should do that, but your Intuition is saying, “Do this.” When you act on Intuition, you reach a place that is best for the entire system, not just best for what ego wants from moment to moment. We can tell you that almost every time you follow voices of guilt, you won’t get to that place that is best for you. You’ll get somewhere, but it won’t be that place that’s aligned to your Intuition and working for the good of the whole. And you can live there. You are capable of living a life that is dominated by the voices of culture and guilt and driven by them to the end of your life. But you risk living in constant conflict, illness, being unfulfilled and creating more separation from yourself by doing so.
You’ve come here to do something different. Every time you break away from the voices of culture and guilt and let Intuition influence you to make that decision that comes from compassion, you tick down those voices of culture just a bit. Ultimately, we would like to erase the voices of guilt.
In the 2150 operating system, your Intellect is as broad and open as the blue sky and that’s how you face the world every day. In that state, with your mind wide open and blue as that beautiful sky, there’s plenty of room to hear the impelling of Intuition telling you to take the next most advantageous step in whatever the situation is. That’s what you’re working for: a condition in your energy that looks like that: a big, open mind listening for the impelling of Intuition and then making a conscious decision to take that step.
Every single situation you find yourself in gives you a platform to practice this. Every conflict gives you the opportunity to look at what’s going on on a deeper level, find it, change it, and take a step forward to become aware of and living with the oneness of the entire operating system.
Do some meditation exercises where you pull in that person who lives in 2150 who already has a beautiful, open intellect, or go back 3,000 years and pull in that life, where every night you sat out under an incredible huge sky in prayer and you lived within the context of the natural world. Let those two strings of energy that are flowing through you now also come to life within you in 2018.
You can do this by either throwing yourself into culture, or by removing yourself from it. It doesn’t matter. Of course, it’s always a little bit easier when you’re not bombarded with people telling you things all the time to your face. But that can be an empowering platform, too: to observe what’s going on with you, then to let the trigger come up, then release more emotion, and then adjust your actions. It’s like training for a sport, say, soccer; you can practice by yourself, but you learn a lot when you get into the game and play against someone.
We think that 2018 is going to be a surprise year for those of you doing this work. As the world gets more insane, you will want to get more centered. You don’t want to get dragged along on the cultural expectation that all is lost and get lost in all the negative definitions of what’s going on. You don’t want to get swept away with the panic and the judgment and fear that swirling around in culture. You want to use all that chaos to remind yourself even more that now is the time to strengthen your resolve, to expand your own awareness of what’s going on, to pull in this bigger truth during the times when you’re experiencing guilt and when culture is telling you you’re wrong.
We feel it’s important to be connected to what’s going on in the world. But be aware there’s an addiction happening right now: you feel like you have to know what’s going on in the world. And that’s OK—but you don’t. You need to know what’s going on inside you. You need to be in touch with your energy. You need to be cultivating your witness and to make decisions based on what is best for the good of the whole operating system.
We urge you to experiment with all kinds of different ways that you can do that. If you need to cut yourself off from culture for a while, do that. If you need to throw yourself in and become involved in something that really means something to you, do that. Every single person, every single activity, every single path you take is giving you a platform to help the entire human species evolve. That is your job right now. That is your mission right now.
You’ve come here to do this impossible tasks of finding your oneness, of integrating your many lives, of finding your own power, to let emotion flow, to change your thinking process all while facing this increasingly chaotic world.
Don’t let the chaos of the world be an indication of your worth. It is an indication of the change, but not of your worth. Align the thought process of worth and value to the bigger picture. Look at what your current culture is doing to you. This is no easy task. It’s not an easy time to be alive. But it is a worthwhile time to be here, because you can make such a change.
Examine your guilt and the deep emotions around it in a new way, with a new relationship to it. Step by step, with mindfulness of your own energy and oneness, let yourself clear away the voices of culture that say, “You should, you have to.” Let those voices fade away as you open up that big sky that is your mind. Cement that witness to be mindful of who you are and what you’re doing. Breathe. Constantly be breathing emotion. The less you intellectualize your feelings, the more you can move them and release them from their abscess. Then listen closely for Intuition and then act on it. That, in 2018, will reward you with some new direction, and consequently some new manifestations.
Always come back to the fact that it’s a miracle that you are here at all in your physical body, that you have found people of like mind to help support you and feed back to you as you go through these enormous and impossible consciousness-expanding steps in your life. Go one step at a time. Don’t be discouraged. Know that, one step at a time, everything that you’re doing is assisting in the evolution of human consciousness in a big way.
We’re studying what is happening with you, always. In this Party, there are always souls coming and going, adding, observing, supporting. In fact, the Party has gotten quite big, and you are very, very much appreciated and loved by all of us. Thank you for your participation.
We’ll close the channel by reiterating that the world is in a place of great, great transformation. Try not to be fooled into aligning your thinking to what culture says. Open your mind to that large, beautiful sky. Let emotion be the primordial soup of creation, the tapping of your power. Embrace it all. Breathe it all. See it moving on the big string that is you. Listen for that beautiful voice within you. And then, of course, watch and be amazed.
Good morning. It is Sunday, April 23rd, 2017. I am Barbara With. We are here with the Party. Partyof12.com is where you can find all things Einsteinian from beyond the grave, news from the Party of 12, and of course information about Conflict REVOLUTION, our imagined Einstein’s miraculous process for world peace, one person at a time, starting with you—or me. I’ll start with me, and you can start with you.
Today we are broadcasting from Denver, Colorado. I have several things I want to talk about before we get to our special guest today, my friend Leslie Stewart, a psychic channel and author of Trust and Allow the Process of Life, In-Joy! This is a book of knowledge that she has published from her talks with Orion, her collective voice of guidance. We’ll hear how she became a channel, and then I want to access her thoughts on some ideas about joy. I named this “The Politics of Joy,” because I myself am often a skeptic. When I get in my worst conditions, I am skeptical about joy, especially in these increasingly dangerous times. I think we can shed some light on how we can move through for our highest good.
I’ll also update about last month’s show. We had some very interesting revs, and I particularly have been having a wild ride through one that I named “Miscommunications and Assumptions.” As I predicted at the time, this revolution is going to be with me for a very long time. It’s quite similar to the revolution I had in 2002, where my sound bite was, “She is a liar,” which turned into “I am a liar,” which turned into sort of a mantra. We can so easily lie to ourselves, and we can so easily believe those lies. “Miscommunications and Assumptions” has already changed my life, and I’ll share about how I am making different decisions and how it is leading to very compassionate outcomes.
Earlier this week, Debbie sent me a link to a video of some old footage of Albert Einstein. It was so wonderful to see that video. (It’s posted on Partyof12.com.) We’ll listen to it, because I want you all to hear his voice. I don’t know what year they were recorded, but I encourage you to watch that video. I don’t know why it affected me, it’s not like I haven’t been channeling Einstein all these years, and I love Einstein, but when she sent that to me, what struck me so was his voice. The message is also important, but this is his voice:
“We should strive not to use violence in fighting for our cause, but by non-participation in anything we believe is evil. We are concerned not merely with the technical problem of securing and maintaining peace, but also with the important tasks of education and enlightenment. Without such freedom, there would have been no Shakespeare, no Goethe, no Newton, no Faraday, no Pasteur, and no Lister. [Science has provided the possibility of liberation for human beings from hard labor.] When the ideas of humanity are war and conquest, those tools become as dangerous as a razor in the hands of a child of three. We must not condemn man’s inventiveness and patient conquest of the forces of nature because they are being used wrongly. The fate of humanity is entirely dependent upon its moral development.”
“The fate of humanity is entirely dependent upon its moral development.” I brought this forward today first of all because when I started channeling in 1987, the voice that came through me had a very heavy, very particular, peculiar accent. Try as I would, I could never duplicate it when I wasn’t channeling. In 1994, after hearing a woman on television speak with the same accent, I found out that she was [speaking in] Yiddish. So OK, there’s one more reveal of Einstein. But that was several years before he stepped out and identified himself, in 1998.
So hearing this voice the other day was like that old voice. Since then, all of you who have been listening to me channel will agree that the voice has changed, it’s very much a collective of different voices. My voice is sometimes stronger; it’s not quite the same. But I got nostalgic when I heard that. And more importantly, listening to his voice from the past and hearing the things he said back then gave me chills, because these ideas we are working with here with our imagined Einstein are certainly a continuation of his words in life, his mission in life. That video brought home that he’s still a visionary. The last time I had a book signing here in Denver, a young woman, perhaps 20, came up, and said, “I love Albert Einstein!” He is enduring through the ages. Yesterday someone said, “I heard that video on Facebook.” So he’s getting around on his own, and I’m happy, because there’s so much that we can bring forward to help with the fate of humanity and its moral development.
Before I get into talking about “Miscommunications and Assumptions,” I want to let you know that I have been sneaking off and being on the radio. I found a blog that allowed me to apply, so to speak, to be a guest on radio shows. It was quite an extensive application. They sent it out to the nine categories that I picked, and I immediately began to get invitations to be on radio shows. I have done three or four; some have aired, some have not. I’ll get my website up to date. The one that is the most curious that I want us as our little group to follow specifically is Mack Maloney’s Military X-Files. It’s not just Mack Maloney but also his two co-hosts Juan-Juan and Commander Cobra. They broadcast on military networks online. They just picked up the Inception Radio Network in the UK that reaches about half a million people—a big reach.
These guys are hilarious. Mack is a published author, with many futuristic science fiction-fantasy books about saving the world. He also has a book entitled UFOs During Wartime, which I downloaded and have been reading. I’m fascinated by the research that has been done on sightings of UFOs during wartime and why they come at wartime. (I’ll post links.) I’ve been binge-listening to get up to date, because they’ve asked me to be a regular guest on the show. I’ve been on twice so far. One of the things they’ve been talking about is that Juan-Juan and Commander Cobra apparently have some conflict, and they need some help. So I’m looking forward to seeing what can be done when I next am on the show about exploring their conflict. I secretly think their conflict is quite dramatic, for the radio, but it’s interesting to have a triad of men.
And they talk like girls. They do. Now, they’re all men, and they’re military guys, so they don’t want their identities to be revealed because they are still in the military. I am in a small quandary about ending up—I know it’s no accident that I ended up here, but here we are with the war makers. They’re lovely, wonderful people. But they are the ones who pull the triggers. So that will be an interesting conversation for the future as we move forward.
I want to give you an update about “Miscommunications and Assumptions.” If you remember, I had had a conflict—and it doesn’t even matter what all the details are—where my sound bite was, “She is not communicating well, and she is making assumptions.” So of course I revolved that around to “I make assumptions,” and I immediately set to work to see where I make assumptions. It was a daunting observation because the world is based on assumptions. Once I started watching myself, I learned two very important things: I make assumptions all of the time, and mostly they’re wrong.
I had my conflict and got my revolution and started watching in Charleston, and then I went to New Orleans to meet one of my dearest friends, an integrity activist. She’s just lovely. I know she sometimes gets a little dramatic, so I thought, “I’ll go to New Orleans, I’ll get my own room.” We met the first night, and it was wonderful. We hadn’t seen each other in several years. We went on the ghost tour. She’s a ghost tour operator. We planned our next day. Her boyfriend had to go in the hospital and get some day surgery, but after that she was going to take me to a graveyard.
I texted her in the morning, and I never heard back. She never returned any of my texts. I had decided that, well, you never know. My mind started to say, “Maybe she’s codependent. Maybe she’s avoiding me”—all assumptions. I decided that this was important enough to be some kind of demonstration that I was not going to make assumptions. I had a beautiful day. I had to get up early the next day to go to the airport. And I never heard from her. She never answered any of my texts.
I got to Corpus, and I thought, “I’ll try her on Facebook.” She told me she had called me and texted me several times and was so sorry we couldn’t connect. This began a very intense observation process of me not making assumptions, because clearly there were no calls on my phone.
I opened myself up to the universe and said, “Show me what’s really going on. I’m not going to assume one thing.” And as I went about my day, in a typical ConRev fashion, where we ask to universe to show us, I started to get images. One was of her and me standing in the street in New Orleans and me showing her a text I had texted to her last summer when her phone was stolen that said, “Do you know whose phone you stole? We’re a bunch of witches! We’re going to cast spells!”
In the discovery process, it came to me: did I block her? Her phone had been stolen, and I had just written that text. Sure enough, I had had her blocked since August! That was a huge hit on my part of all the assumptions I had made for six months about my friend who never calls me back, who never texts me, does she not like me any more? The next part was that I was having trouble getting hold of my friend in Charleston with whom I’d had the conflict with the original sound bite about assumptions. I had called her, left a message, I wanted to highlight her on the show, and I never heard back from her. She finally emailed me and said, “My friend never got her reading link.” I said, “I’ve been calling her.” I gave her the number I called, and there was her voice, but it was a different number. It was confusing.
I assumed—I assumed!—that I had been hacked. I scrubbed my phone, and when I restored it, there were six months of messages from my friend in New Orleans. Six months! Text, messages! Every month, October, November, December. I was at Standing Rock. She was calling. I never returned her calls. What must she have assumed?
The moral of the story is to really pay attention to the assumptions we make. When we go into thinking, “I’m not going to have any assumptions, I’m just going to let the universe show me what the answer is before I confirm it,” you know when the truth is there. There was the truth. I had blocked her for months! A very powerful rev that will be with me forever. Now I say, “I’m pretty sure that—” “Oh! Am I making an assumption?” And it’s really changing my life. It’s changing how I respond to people. You know how you get when you assume that someone doesn’t like you, you get a little edgy? It’s reducing all of that and making my relationships and working through other conflicts I have much easier. It’s so much easier to get to the outcome that’s for the good of all.
So be careful what you assume!
To introduce Leslie, I want to tell you one more story.
I heard it on This American Life, called “In Defense of Ignorance.” If you know This American Life, you know that they take a topic and expand upon it in three or four acts with different substories. The substory was that the reporter, Lulu Wang, of Chinese descent, had found out that her 80-year-old grandmother, who lives in China, was diagnosed with stage four lung cancer. Apparently she only had three months to live. Lulu’s great-aunt, who lived below her grandmother and took care of her, made the decision not to tell Grandma the diagnosis. Lula was very upset with this. She felt like this was deception and that people should know and should be told so that they could get their affairs in order. But the great-aunt was very clear. “We are not telling her.” No one in the family was allowed to tell her.
They decided to hold a party for the whole huge extended family, to come to China and see Grandma Neenee for the last time. Neeneee’s first-born son had just gotten married in Japan. He had been planning to come to China in a year and have a big party to celebrate his marriage, so he moved that up a year. That was the excuse that they were giving for keeping this from Neenee. And not just keeping it, but the whole family’s coming, and they have to pretend that she doesn’t have only three months to live and that this is really a happy party to celebrate her son’s marriage.
Lulu flies over to the party. (You can listen to the whole episode.( It’s truly fascinating how the family dealt with having to be at this party pretending to be happy looking at Mom or Grandma and knowing she was going to pass away in just a few months.
The long and the short of it was, the Chinese have a belief called “chongxi,” meaning “to rinse out joy,” the belief that you can wash away pain and suffering with joy. During the course of this trip, Lulu discovers that Neenee had had a mastectomy and had been wearing a prosthetic breast, and she never told anybody, because she didn’t want to burden them with the worry. That was the whole idea behind the lie they were telling her: that they weren’t going to burden her, especially if she was sick, with the worry. If it was to happen, it would. To give away the end of the story, Neenee’s still alive, three years later. Apparently at her last checkup, she got the same diagnosis, and her sister, Lulu’s great-aunt, decided to tell her that had she lost the findings, but they were the same as last time.
I’m glad we have a doctor in the audience, because my philosophy has always been that if you don’t tell me that I’m sick and then define what will happen, I have a better chance of manifesting a different outcome. Hearing this story was enlightening. It was all about the idea of “chongxi,” that joy can wash away misfortune.
This is probably a good time to introduce my friend Leslie Stewart, who is in Ohio today. We’ll talk about her book, which I had the honor of helping her with. Good morning, Leslie! Welcome to our show!
Leslie: Good morning, Barbara, how are you?
Barbara: I’m excellent.
Leslie: I love the story you just spoke of. In many ways, that’s how I’ve lived my life, through what some people would say is ignoring diagnosis, ignoring the outcome of something that could be tragic. I reframe it, put it in my framework where I believe that what is best for myself is looking at things in a positive manner. If someone gives me a diagnosis of something, I process it and I let it go through me, and then I say, “But this doesn’t have to own me.” I’m putting ownership and responsibility on myself as to how I see myself processing all of it.
Barbara: That is so insightful. I have to say that when I was working on your book with you, I was getting a little frustrated because I’ve been working on conflict, and it’s almost the opposite, where when you have to go into a conflict you don’t want to be ignorant of certain things. But from what I see in your writing and from listening to your channeling from the website and reading your Facebook posts, you are always very positive. Orion always seems to be in joy. I’m so enamored of that.
0:22:38.1 Leslie: Yes. Orion teaches that above and beyond all else, always be true to yourself. If you’re being true to yourself, no matter what that is, whatever is true for you, make that your M.O. If I’m being true to myself and being positive is being true to myself, then so be it. If you’re one who is involved with other things outside of self, whether it be politics, medicine, whatever it is, being true to yourself in that realm of your experience is what’s important. And it doesn’t matter to me or to anyone else how you deal with it as long as you feel that it is coming from your heart space, from who you believe to be you. That is the message that Orion’s always giving out. Be true to yourself. However you come into that, own it and be it.
Barbara: That would answer the next question I had! (laughs) You must be psychic! Lately, I would say since we’ve been doing this Re-boot, I have experienced more real joy than I’ve had maybe ever. There are some days when I am so happy, it’s like I’m ADHD with happiness. It’s not because of an external circumstance, because there certainly still are all the external circumstances that are threatening the world that Einstein is concerned about. But like you said, it comes because I am being true to myself. I didn’t frame it that way, but it was about being so darn happy because I am true to myself. I live a life in which I strive to be. It changes your relationship to everything, good or bad, that’s happening outside of you.
Leslie: It really does. Oftentimes I can find myself getting caught up in what’s happening on the outside. Then I have to bring myself back into that space and ask, “What do I want here? I am reacting to something outside of myself. How will I deal with this?” I can either get into being wrapped up and caught up in all of that negativity outside of myself, or I can bring myself back into that space where I believe I can find the truth within me, the truth of reconnection, however I want to reconnect, to that which gives me joy.
0:26:17.8 Leslie: Oftentimes I’ll find myself reconnecting with nature, because nature always brings me back into a space of joy, whether it be taking a beautiful walk and enjoying the beautiful blooms and the trees and the flowers, listening to water lap up against a shore—whatever it is that can bring me back into that place where I can find peace and joy. That’s where I go. Then I cannot allow all of the stuff going on outside of myself to interfere with that joyful place. Sometimes it does take practice to get there.
Barbara: How would you define “joy”?
Leslie: Being at peace with wherever you are and whatever gets you that joy, whatever gives you happiness, whatever gives you that peace or tranquility. It’s an individual thing. Everyone has their own concept and belief about what joy is. For me, it’s a place where I find complete and utter elation, ecstasy, bliss. That’s what it is for me.
Barbara: Do you ever experience what I would metaphorically call “survivor’s guilt”? Not you personally as much as the question I have about being joyful. In the activist community, in which I was very, very engaged for several years, we had a saying. We were running ourselves ragged, making ourselves sick, trying to fight the rise of fascism within our government. It was exhausting and depleting and depressing. None of us got much sleep. The saying was, “Sleep is for those with rights.” I am still a bit conflicted. I have not found a place completely where I can say, “Oh, yes, I’m so happy to be finding my bliss,” as I know that other people are suffering.
0:28:58.9 Leslie: I understand what you’re talking about, because I am very empathetic as well as far as what’s going on in the world, all the things that most people call injustices. But the more that you find that you’re pushing against something, the more you’re saying, “This is not right, I have to fight,” it’ll just make it bigger and bigger rather than stepping away from it and saying, “It’s going to work out. It really is going to unfold.” Those who are interested in the fight, in bringing justice to the forefront, and I do applaud those who are doing what they believe is being true to themselves, for myself, I find that if I’m pushing against something, it puts you into a place where you’re not feeling very good about you or anything around you or what’s going on in the world. It all seems to unfair.
Leslie: How do I, a person living here on the planet who sees all this going on, accept that I don’t have to be a part of that which is fighting, but I can be the one who is being peace, living peace, trusting that if I live and breathe and know in my heart of hearts that if I feel that peace is the answer, if joy is the answer, if being happy, being full of all of those things that I know are at the core of each and every person on the planet, that if I can see that every person really is wanting to be in touch with that place of joy, with that place of peace, however they can come to terms with that and feel it and know that it is truly at the core of their being, that how ever they want to participate with life, it is their choice?
0:31:35.3 Leslie: For me, when I find myself getting caught up in any sort of politics or anything that I believe is an injustice, it depletes my energy and makes me feel alone and lost and angry. Those are things that I don’t want to allow into my being because I want to feel alive and happy. If I’m doing that, if I’m being true to myself, I have to reframe those things that I feel are injustices and know that in each individual at the core of the self, there is indeed that place of peace. So I have to say to myself, “To be peaceful I must live peace. To be joyful, I must live joy.” And so on.
Barbara: So you’re saying that it’s almost our duty—again metaphorically—if we want to influence the rest of the world, saying, the bombing in Syria, which was heartbreaking, and bombing anywhere breaks my heart, even though I have high metaphysical ideals, it’s hard for me to think, “Those people are choosing to have their children killed by chemical weapons.” But like you said, the bigger challenge of what my belief system is on a bigger scale means that it’s almost my duty to be that peace, to hold that peaceful space, to not buy into as horrible as I’m sure that experience is so that they can maybe have a chance that supports them spiritually or energetically much more than if I get into the fray and I’m judging. It doesn’t mean I can’t feel their pain or have empathy for them, but it’s much more powerful if we can stay in our peace and in our joy and hold that space and make our energetic space that way. That makes sense to me.
0:34:07.1 Barbara: I have a question I’m asking for my sister who isn’t here and didn’t ask me to ask it, but I wonder about—she lost her only son and only child to a brutal murder. I have been with her helping and we’ve been talking to him from beyond the grave and she’s been rebuilding her life. That was in 2012, so it’s been five years. Through that time she has questioned, “How do you find joy and happiness and meaning in life when something so terribly tragic takes place?”
Leslie: Indeed. And she through you she already knows that he is with her and he is now being more at peace than what he was when he was living on the earth plane. He is now more being peace and enjoying peace. There was a part of him that had a lot of confusion with life. He was a happy-go-lucky guy, but there was still some confusion as to how he wanted to participate in changing the world, changing his own reality. To change his reality, he did change it in a drastic way, and it brought a lot of attention to his being. In bringing that attention to who he is and who he continues to be now is much different than where he was before. Now he is a pioneer in a way of how he brought about lots of change within the whole family dynamic, people talking more, having open conversation about people being murdered, about the crimes.
0:36:31.8 Leslie: It brought a lot of attention also in a positive way where people can see that even through his experience of bring that attention and that spotlight on how he lived his life, it is indeed changing people along his path, even still, even now. There is lots more openness and communication than there was before. He is bringing lots of wonderful things to the forefront through that experience.
Barbara: It’s very, very true. Our entire family dynamic changed greatly to be much more loving and compassionate—not that we still don’t, we four sisters, have our squabbles. She has changed and is still changing. Again, it seems to get back to, it challenges our belief system of life, which is maybe why she was telling me a while back that she’s searching for the meaning of life. I kept thinking, isn’t it what we make it? Isn’t it what—we get to decide what our life means, so that’s very true. I’m excited about moving forward with hopefully more healing.
Barbara: In your book, you cover a lot of different topics. Tell us how you came to be a psychic channel.
Leslie: I remember at a very early age having very extreme dreams. Oftentimes I would wake up and wonder, “Who were the people in that dream? Why was it so intense? How does it affect who I am right now?” That started me on this search of reincarnation and Ruth Montgomery and Edgar Cayce. It snowballed from there. It opened up many doors and many things that felt that they were true to me. As I was doing my self-discovery work, I was sitting in a beautiful little hotel in Cocoa Beach, Florida, near the Cape, and Ken, my spiritual partner, and I were reading Ask and It Is Given by Esther Hicks. She translates for Abraham. Ken asked me, “What would you like to do? What is it you see yourself doing?” I said, “I really would enjoy getting this message out to more people, by allowing myself to translate for a collective consciousness.”
Leslie: Being near the Cape, I launched my own rocket of desire that day, in 2005. I started meditating and journaling more frequently. I got automatic writing, and in that writing, as we all know, we need labels for things, so I asked them, “Who am I speaking to?” They said to me, “We are Orion.” I really didn’t know anything about Orion except that it was a beautiful constellation and I always enjoyed looking at the constellations as a young child. They said they were Orion. Over time, I felt such peace. When they’re with me, as they are right now, they are always giving me love and peace. Whenever anyone has any sort of reading or a session with Orion, when they walk away, they always say, “They exude love and peace.” That, I think, is a part of who Leslie is, and Leslie and Orion are interconnected, of course, as everyone is interconnected with their soul selves.
0:41:33.5 Leslie: Everyone has the potential to connect and have that intuitive ability. It’s just a matter of paying attention, listening to your inner guidance, that intuition that is always with you. A lot of times we just poo-poo it. We say, “I’m not sure why I’m thinking this or why I should do this, but what the hell? I’m just going to do it.” I go with it. That’s paying attention. Oftentimes you’ll find yourself synchronized with things that you are thinking about and want an answer to, and suddenly it seemingly just appears, but it’s you being guided by your own intuition. I think everyone has that potential and the ability to do that.
Barbara: Do you find your channeling to be more seamless consciousness than trance channel? I feel like they’ve been talking through you all morning.
Leslie: They have, yes.
Barbara: (laughs) Not to call them out on their shenanigans, but there they are. As you were describing them, I’m seeing a circle of souls gathered around, and I literally saw stars in a circle, as if the heavens had come down to create this circle with stars and that love emanating from it. It’s a very peaceful, loving, supportive energy that you bring.
0:43:33.9 Barbara: Because you’ve been channeling in giving us these answers, could we ask Orion—the question I’d like to ask is, of course, global. You may have answered it. When Einstein was on his deathbed, he and Bertrand Russell were working on their last manifesto. It was all about a plea for nations to find new ways to resolve their conflicts other than fighting. I believe this work of mine, of ours, has sprung from that. As I look at days going by and North Korea threatening with thermonuclear war and crazy Donald Trump—and believe me, I don’t blame him, because this is a system of war that has been ingrained probably since this civilization has come forward—as we look forward, can they give us some advice about how to approach these very real possibilities?
Leslie: It is a difficult situation for most people to get a handle on how we can deal with all of the warmongering that is going on throughout the planet. How do I as an individual become more inner-directed and stay in a place where I believe that I live in a safe universe? If I’m believing that I’m living in a safe universe, that in my reality, in my realm of understanding of my reality, how do I express and live in a place where I can continue to live in peace and joy and harmony? That again comes down to living it, being it, trusting that as I live my life with those beliefs, if I can live the life of peace and harmony and continue with spreading that to each individual at a time, whether it be just being in a store, smiling at someone, having a short conversation with someone, that person then goes to another person, they’re in a better place, feeling a little bit better about themselves, feeling a little kick in their heart, feeling that, “Life isn’t so bad. Life isn’t horrible.” That continues to snowball like the ripples in a pond. As you throw a stone into the pond, the ripples continue to grow and expand. So do love, joy, happiness. It has to start with each individual.
0:47:01.2 Leslie: If I’m going to live my life that way, I must believe that me being here on the planet at this time must mean something. If that means something to me, what do I want it to mean to me? What we want to share with everyone is that it starts with the individual. As it starts with the individual, it continues to grow and expand. It influences the world as a whole. The more of you who are with this teaching, with this belief that I as a human being on the planet right now, living my life, how do I want to live it? How do I want to express myself as this being right now?
Leslie: Being here, right now, all of you listening in as well, how do you want to express yourselves? How do you want to live your life? In fear? In a place where you’re allowing outside circumstances to interfere with your peace of mind? You can do that, if that gets you what makes you feel good. But we believe that there are more of you out there who want to see the world as coming together as a world that believes in diversity, that believes that there is indeed a powerful place where we can all join our hands and circle around and know that as we continue to grow and expand with our love and the acceptance of all, it does indeed conquer those things that feel like they are invading our peace.
Leslie: So rather than pushing and fighting, we see that it’s our expression and our wanting for all of you to be the best that you can be and to allow yourselves to continue with expressing and enjoying one another and enjoying each and every individual as an individual and knowing that in that individuality there are differences, and that is what makes the world go around. It’s all of everyone being an individual and allowing them to have their individuality and to not fight and to not argue, but to be understanding and really wanting to understand how other individuals see their lives, and to allow them to live it the way they want to. It doesn’t mean it has to interfere with the well-being of yourself.
0:50:23.1 Barbara: As you were talking, Orion, much like my nephew’s murder, I would not wish that kind of suffering on any human. I would not wish the suffering of North Korea dropping an atomic bomb on anyone. However, because it did happen, because he was murdered, as you so accurately described, love came from it. We could be—and I don’t speak for my sister, but anyone in that situation could be very resentful for the rest of one’s life for having your child taken from you. Is it possible that that’s similar to the macrocosm of all of these terrifying threats and possibilities that are pushing us more into understanding how important it is to love one another?
Leslie: Yes, indeed. That is why it is happening right now on the planet: for everyone to get that there are differences and there are many things that are going on outside of yourself that seem to be troubling and disturbing. But it doesn’t have to interfere with my own well-being. How do I continue with loving and living life when all of this destruction and war and hatred go on outside of myself? That is, again, bringing yourself back into, “What do I want? How do I want to see my reality? What is my pool looking like, my ripples of my life? How are they spreading out? What do I see those ripples? Where do I see those ripples going?” As you see the ripples of your life spreading forward, how do you want that to be? Love, self-acceptance, nurturing of self. There are so many people who are in need of nurturing, of self-nurturing, self-love, and nurturing each other. It is something that has been missing from quite some time in many people’s lives. Now more than ever, it’s important for you all to be more understanding and more nurturing and loving.
0:53:22.5 Barbara: Yes. I’m getting inspired by this conversation, because having been through deep activism and giving up my life for this resistance of a cause and then stepping back into this new service, for me, not that my channeling or my work is new, but I realized that what we’re doing, you and I and all of us who are practicing Conflict REVOLUTION and Cassandra bringing these ideas into her practice as a doctor and Debbie bringing them to the children, that these ripples you’re talking about extend very far. I thank you for those answers, because it reaffirms and says in a new way to me that we can only do so much in a day. I don’t mean to limit our energy, but it’s true. I can’t stop what happens in North Korea by going directly at it. I couldn’t stop what was happening in the Wisconsin legislature by going directly at it. Once I backed off and started to do all those things that you were talking about—self-nurturing, self-love, detaching from the struggle—then things started to manifest differently, in individuals coming together, not institutions.
Barbara: So while we couldn’t, for example, stop the mining bill, we could inspire thousands and thousands of people who live in our area to start to stand up and voice and make a difference and stand up for the water. It was quite a learning experience. I’m very grateful for you coming this morning and sharing your talents and your gifts and this information. I’m jazzed now to get out in the day! I’m going to go to the grocery store and be nice to people! (laughs) It sounds so silly, but it’s so fulfilling, to be kind and gentle.
Leslie: And thank you so much. It’s been a pleasure to be with you. We look forward to meeting up with you in the grocery store today.
Barbara: (laughs) And I’m excited, because I’ve asked your spiritual partner Ken to come on next month and talk about the blessings of autism and Alzheimer’s, the gifts, his book, and explore how your work and mine interface with people who are dealing with these kinds of amazing conditions in their physical bodies. But before we go, hold on, I see Debbie has a question.
Debbie: I don’t have a question, I just wanted to reiterate how inspirational and freeing you’ve been. Thank you for sharing your message so beautifully of being peace, being what we want to see outside of ourselves. That’s a huge message for us to have in our hearts. I want to thank you. And thank you, Barbara, you, too, are always an inspiration.
Barbara: Oh, thank you, Debbie, you, too! Debbie has worked very hard on Conflict REVOLUTION and was in fact a coach to me through some of my hardest times. I’m always grateful to see you here. Everyone else, thank you so much. We will be posting this on the website within the week and sharing it with you. So please have a nice day. And all you’ll have to do is watch and be amazed. Namaste.
Join us as we welcome author and psychic Leslie Stewart, who channels the collective known as Orion. We will be talking about her book, Trust and Allow the Process of Life, In-Joy and exploring the nature of joy, free will, and how to get out of the way and trust the flow.
Orion is a non-physical collective consciousness that speaks through Leslie. Instead of focusing on predictions, Orion instructs us on how we can create the life of our choice. Although Orion can provide us with future probabilities, they also give us insight on how our current beliefs and feelings have attracted past events.
And more importantly, Orion provides us with tools and inspiration that enable clients to transform their consciousness. By assisting us in understanding the law of attraction, they help us to raise our vibration—thus allowing us to attract more favorable events and experiences into our lives. Their tutelage can help to enhance our awareness and growth, and assist us in understanding the multidimensional beings that we are and reclaiming our authentic power.