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Barbara: After leaving my glorious refuge in Paris, I arrived in Trondheim, Norway to visit my dear friend and long-time student of the Party, Heike. We got to talking about what had happened to me on my six-week hiatus. Being alone in a foreign country where I knew no one and not in daily communication with friends and family back home gave me the opportunity to examine my life in a way I had not expected.
As the weeks past, I felt the definitions of who I was and what I was supposed to be diminish, and I was left with what is referred to in Buddhism as the “empty cup.” This term is derived from a famous conversation between the scholar Tokusan and Zen Master Ryutan. Apparently Tokusan had come to Ryutan to learn about Zen. During their discussion, Ryutan re-filled Tokusan’s teacup until it was overflowing, explaining, “You are like this cup; you are full of ideas. You come and ask for teaching, but your cup is full; I can’t put anything in. Before I can teach you, you’ll have to empty your cup.”
Examining my life from the emptiness of Paris—void of familiar conversations and interactions—provided an unexpected perspective. From this vantage point, my actions and decisions looked much different than when I was back in the states, busy with obligations, filled with definitions of who I am and demands of who I’m supposed to be. From this Parisienne emptiness, I saw with new eyes.
As a composer, I came to Paris to write music. And yet, I was empty of anything to sing about. Despite being a prolific writer, I could not think of one thing I wanted to articulate. I found myself so devoid of inspiration to create on those levels that I ended up spending most of my time just walking the streets of Paris, observing the daily world.
This in and of itself was not a bad thing; I loved every moment of those long walks through the city I love. But in regards to my identity, I was reminded of a phrase Einstein used early on in our group channeling to describe what it felt like to lose our old identity before the new emerged: “Who am I anymore then anyway?”
Heike admitted to having a similar experience, so we decided to ask Einstein and the Party to shine some light. Once again, my friends provided insight, compassion, and hope. I am eternally grateful.
December 8, 2017
0:00:00.0 We command that only the most divine light shine down upon you at this time and the greatest good be present here.
Once again, it is a brilliant honor to be addressing you this morning in Trondheim, Norway, with Barbara and Heike. Today we have a lot that we want to cover.
You have been, between the two of you, generating questions for your human minds that are being impelled by the bigger soul part of you. So while you sit at the kitchen table talking and thinking, there is an expansive side of you that of course sits where we are in the circle of souls here with the Party. This ability that you have to not only be here with us but be creating your physical body to be the projector and the perceiver of the physical world puts you in quite an advantageous position. Much of what you have been talking about are things that all of us here in the non-physical world have been discussing and working on as well.
We want to begin with what your questions about identity have promoted: the idea that identity is the manifestation of the unique mathematics that you have come here to project and perceive. While we do not have physical bodies, we still have the identity of those bodies. Einstein—the thoughts, feelings, senses, memories, and a holographic form of the DNA space-time body that he lived in during his lifetime in the early twentieth century—without that identity, there is a return to the oneness.
The oneness is so enormous that you cannot articulate the specific identity of it. It’s something like the idea that you can’t really describe God. You can experience it. You can try to form definitions that are limited, but you can never articulate or describe or identify the whole of God without just saying “the oneness” or what have you. Identity is essential to the experience of human life.
What you’re going through right now in this life, here in 2017, is an expansion and a redefinition of the identity of who you are. What we’ve been teaching and training for all of the years that we’ve been working with Barbara and with you, Heike, and with everyone else who’s listening and considering our words, is a redefinition of who you identify as. What you’re seeing in your culture today is that people are being stripped of the finite definitions that they have acquired through their lifetimes and that they relate to.
Some of these definitions have come with you in the form of mathematical formulas. So that you cannot redefine your DNA in the sense of what is forming as your body. You can certainly redefine your gender in what you relate to as far as gender issues. You can redefine who are you in relationship to relationships and in relationship to yourself.
But part of what the challenge is right now is to understand what is the intrinsic root of the definition of who you are that cannot be changed, that is immutable in this life, and what can be changed. If you were to go into another life where perhaps you were in a mystery school, one of the Toltec sorcerers, or some of the other indigenous tribes that let go of the physical world, then you might be able to experiment with the immutable. But we’re talking about the culture that you’re living in, that you’ve grown up in. Short of leaving everything behind and going deep into the Amazon jungle to live with the wizards and the sorcerers with the hallucinogenic of learning how to really let go of the physical world, it’s important that you understand that there are mutable and immutable identities.
That’s the challenge right now. The development, the evolution of human consciousness, is about expanding awareness while you’re in a physical DNA space-time body that is immutable. You cannot redefine your body. It’s there, it’s doing what it’s doing. You can refine your relationship to it, but you cannot—short of death, when you completely redefine your energy—change those scientific DNA space-time facts about the physical vehicle which is projecting and perceiving the universe.
But as you change your relationship to it. You can have a metamorphosis without changing those immutable facts. In other words, you are a woman, you were born in this year, you grew up with these parents, you had these experiences. All of these facts are in this life immutable. That doesn’t mean that you’re trapped in the influences of those things. It means that to a certain degree, they are unchangeable, but to a different degree, within the context of that form, there’s a lot that can be changed.
Some people are born with certain genetic dispositions: they have a certain number of genes in their physical bodies that predisposes them to cancer or other diseases. So while you can’t destroy or change the structure of what those genes are being perceived and experienced in, you can indeed change some of that genetic structure. If you’re predisposed to cancer because of a certain genetic makeup, you can influence what that genetic makeup is. People don’t know how; they have not yet learned. But this was a lot of the study that we have promoted about regeneration and physical healing. This is the experimental time for people like yourselves to remove the identity that certain parts of you are immutable and to change that into, “We can transform this into taking what this vessel is at its core and making it into something else, into a healthy body.”
Part of the challenge is that some humans come here in order to balance all of the experiences of concurrent lives. This time, 2017, on the planet is a time of the evolution of human consciousness in such a way that you’re integrating these other lives. You’re feeling the thoughts, feelings, senses, and memories of other physical DNA space-time bodies that exist in different Lenses around the planet.
Barbara was speaking of her Irish life [as Lisle]. The string that is spinning in Lisle’s life is intersecting in the Source in her compilation of consciousness and coming up the string that’s spinning as Barbara. So the immutable space-time DNA body of Barbara is embodying the life, thoughts, feelings, and senses of the non-physical part of Lisle. If [Barbara] were to remove herself from culture and study in such a way, “time travel” could be possible. If she could send her consciousness back into the Source and up that string, she could have an experience, an awareness, of being Lisle in Ireland in 900, in that space-time body, because it’s there and it’s having that human experience. It’s living over and over and over and over, birth, life, death, birth, life, death.
The idea of the expansion and the evolution of human consciousness is to become aware of all these other lives and then consequently of the fact that you are just one organism. All of that is heavy on the small human minds of Barbara or Heike. It taxes human perception to have to let go of the identity of Barbara and reconfigure the awareness and the identity of Lisle.
There are psychological blocks to that, which is why when the Mayans and the Toltecs experimented with this, they took hallucinogenic drugs which broke down their attachment to this particular life and allowed their awareness then to reconfigure in shapeshifting. [The same is true] in mystery schools and St. Germain. Being able to shift awareness into other physical forms doesn’t mean destroying the identity of those Toltecs or St. Germain. It just means that the awareness was focused on a different identity while this identity was still intact.
To do that is a very evolved state wherein you are no longer blinded as a human to what happens before you’re born and after you die. You’re aware of a much bigger system, and your identity includes that life and also others. The overall identity is of a much bigger being with much different power in the physical body than culture will admit to in 2017.
That’s one of the challenges of this evolution. How do humans understand this so they can let go, so their awareness can shift and expand into a bigger awareness? Because there’s an intrinsic fear of death, the fear that if you let go of your physical body, you’ll be dead. And while there is some truth to that, there is also the truth that when you go to sleep at night, you let go of your physical body. You turn your awareness completely off from the physical world. You’re in the non-physical, and your consciousness is more like smoke during sleep. Sometimes it coagulates into a dream memory that you wake up with. But there’s a lot of activity going on in sleep, a lot of expansion of consciousness that goes on because you aren’t focused on the awareness of being in that particular body. But is that physical body still there while you’re sleeping? Yes.
The work that we’ve been doing with you is all about this kind of change, of letting go. What you’re seeing in yourselves and in the world around you is that people are being challenged with this in baby steps. You begin with your awareness-raising when you get to a certain point in your life and you start to reflect back on your childhood—what you were taught, what you believed—and as you live life, as you experience it, you have a different relationship to that past. You can forgive things that were unforgivable. You can turn tragedy into triumph. You can transmogrify your whole life in that way, and in a way, that is changing the identity of who you are.
But these are baby steps in a bigger metaphysical transformation of human consciousness where you aren’t fooled by birth and death, where you pull in the memory of other lives, where you come with the memory and the awareness of the non-physical parts of you. Some of this is apparent with the Dalai Lama. The way the Dalai Lama is discovered is to take those toys from life after life after life and see which little human being recognizes and remembers those things. This culture and others have this, but they’re not mainstream Western culture.
You have to remember that Western culture is one of the least spiritual cultures to ever have graced the planet. You have volunteered, chosen to come here to be the missing link between this big truth that you know in your body and your heart exists and the smallness of what this culture is.
Human defining of what culture is about is much different than spiritual defining. For example, Barbara was speaking about her father, that before they came into this life, they made a contract that they would help each other learn particular lessons. It wasn’t that they contracted [for her] to be abused and tortured and [him] alienated then from his children. It was, “We’re going to give you a chance to rise above these things, to expand your consciousness, your awareness, and thus evolve in a way that you would otherwise not be able to.” That’s the whole point of human experience in the physical world: it’s a platform to evolve. It gives you these rigorous lessons in order to expand your consciousness.
So while defined in terms of human culture, sexual abuse is a terrible thing—it’s damaging, it robbed her of a normal life as you define it—in the context of the soul and the definitions of why you came here in the first place, it’s a perfect platform to work out this expansion of human consciousness. As we started out saying, you there with the physical bodies, you’re the gods. You’re the ones who have the opportunity to do this right now.
In the example of Barbara’s experience with her father, she was able to use that platform to liberate herself from the confines of the physical human definitions of what went on. She could have gone to her grave with the definition that, “I was sexually abused as a child and therefore I wasn’t able to have a normal life,” or she could redefine it as, “Look at the gifts,” and also then soul-search and use the processes we have given her to look in the mirror to see where those experiences were embedded in a definition in her head and then change the definition in the Intellect that would then free her energy to expand and experience a greater good.
That’s what it’s all about: to create a greater good. The end result is that you want to have an organism—a oneness, a unity of this organism—that understands that its multiple parts are all part of one organism so that you’re working for the good of the whole. In order to do that, you have to be put in situations that aren’t for the good of the whole, to transcend them and to grow while you’re in a physical body.
But here you are, sitting in the circle of souls—the part of you that’s already dead, that’s been studying with us anyway in the non-physical—and you can understand this. You can see it clearly. You can look at why you went down [into physical life]. It’s as if you aren’t separated from the reality of what happens in between lives, but it exists simultaneously with the life that you’re in: the idea that you have duality in this life, you have separation in the Lens. It’s not that you’re totally separate from God or separate from each other, it’s that you’re experiencing a reality that has separation so that you can see yourself, so you can see multiple facets of yourself. You’re looking at a part of yourself when you see Barbara, when you see your ex-husband, when you see everyone on the street.
How are you as a human mind going to cope with the psychological challenge to your human thinking that says, “We have to have separation. This is not me, this is not me, this is not me”? Those are truths, too. Barbara is not you sitting in the chair where you’re sitting. At your roots, you’re part of the bigger mechanism. These are the challenges, the steps of evolution that we are promoting.
What you’re seeing in the world today is a falling-away of pretense so that you can no longer have a façade that you are this finite definition, when behind it there are so many other contradictory definitions. Many of you who are listening to this have gone through a personal journey where you thought you had to be a particular person to be accepted in culture, and then things started to happen to you that evoked an emotional response that you could not control, try as you would to keep that smaller box going. The emotional responses pushed you into redefining yourself. “I’m a good person.” “I’m not mad.” And then huge anger comes forward. Maybe you’re standing in a room shouting, “I’m not mad!” and thus illustrating to you that, “OK, I’m saying I’m not mad, but here’s all this anger.” Now you’re beginning to redefine.
Then you have anger and you’re wondering what to do with it. Will you let it dominate your definition process? Try to repress it?
The healthy answer is to allow this emotion to flow and then discover who you are, what you’re going to do with that energy. In that way you begin to discover that you have a domain that you have power over and here’s what it is. What is your power? What does that mean? You have a fire hose of anger coming out, a powerful thing. It isn’t so much to shut down the hose as to how to develop the strength of the muscles in your arms to point that hose at the fire, in a safe direction so it can flow freely and the energy can be unblocked. Then you started to refine how you’ll deal with it now you’ve accepted that you have anger. How will you deal with it in a healthy way? Now your Intellect is working in conjunction with this deep Emotion that’s transforming you and you’re forming a new identity.
This new identity is constantly being redefined even in an example of the individual life—that some of it is immutable and some of it is mutable—and to figure out which is which. Here you are at this age, and you’re still a woman with this nose and these arms and this thinking process. But within that context, you’re so much more than that. You begin to transcend the definitions you had 25 years ago. You begin to expand that so that you increase your ability to handle more and more information, more and more energy. As you begin to recognize that the thoughts, feelings, memories of others lives are coming through embodied in this life, now you can make different choices about how you’re going to deal with that, react to that, process that for the good of the whole, the good of your whole system.
In Barbara’s case, telling story of Lisle illustrates the painstaking work of understanding what this meant and how to heal from suicide, how to transform in this body the thoughts, feelings, senses, and memories of a different life and take them as your own as thoughts, feelings, senses, memories of this life, to put them in your domain in this life. Now you have multiple personalities.
Unlike what psychology or psychiatry might tell you about multiple personality, it’s a normal state, a state of expansion of human consciousness that everyone is going through. They just don’t have the tools, the understanding, the definitions to know how to deal with that. Just like when you were younger and you didn’t know that all the experiences you had as a child were affecting how you were thinking and feeling and perceiving the world. You had to learn, step by step, who you were, what it was, make correlations, make changes, make different definitions, forgive, heal—all of those things to get to where you are now. This is what the whole world is going through.
You can’t do that unless you know transparently who you are—the good, the bad, the ugly. For a lot of people, accepting the “bad”—the negative, the evil part of self—is very, very difficult. There’s a great deal of denial that there is a whole huge holistic identity that encompasses the worst evil and the highest divinity that can possibly be embodied in a human being. You have the Hitlers and the Jesuses within each and every human being. The idea is that your consciousness expands past just this human DNA space-time body to encompass the reality of all that so that you can have the consciousness to unify that field.
This is a lot of what the work we’ve been doing has been about: teaching a human being how to process the worst evil that comes through, the most unaccepted emotion as defined by culture, and how to embrace it in order to integrate it all into one powerful energy.
When as a human you’re defining yourself in such a small way—that you have to be a good person, that this is bad energy and this is negative feelings—and you can’t let those come through and you’re in this small box, you experience an array of different emotions that then get defined as such. When anger comes up, there’s a reaction, a lot of times shutting it down or projecting it on someone else. “They caused me to feel this way.” But when you start to expand and experience anger, depression, sadness—all of the negative parts of yourself—as undefined, without any judgment, that it’s all just energy and you’re going to move it without letting it stop and without defining it and without acting on it, now you are creating a powerful unified field with that energy, and all this emotion becomes your power.
This is what’s so important about the work we’ve been doing: to help humans one at a time to understand how to access that whole spectrum of personal power and redefine it. So that now when anger comes up, there’s a knee-jerk reaction to step back and start to breathe. And that’s different than 25 years ago, when anger would come up and you would pound your fists or blame your father or blame yourself or get trapped in the thinking process. Now it comes up, and those of you who have been studying with us for so long can take that individual spectrum of your power that you’ve defined as anger and channel it into attaching itself to a thought that is regenerative.
That’s counterintuitive to what culture tells you can be done, but it’s truly what gives you your power: to either just move it or to use it to fuel the manifestation of positive, powerful, regenerative thought. In that way, when your anger comes up, you step back, you start to feel and breathe it and own it and love it. Then you attach it to the thought of, “I’m going to find a solution for the good of all,” for whatever the scenario is that triggers the anger that you’re dealing with. You’ve been given the platform which you are working from to expand your consciousness. That’s what all of these human dramas are about. They’re platforms for you to actively expand your consciousness.
Much like Barbara was talking about with relationships—it’s one thing to sit in a room and think about what you want in a relationship, and it’s another thing to be in a relationship with someone working in a live, active platform. Both are necessary, but they’re different experiences with different outcomes. We’ve often used the analogy that you can go to a library, get out all the books you want about how to fly a plane. You can even set up a little control panel on the table in the library and imagine, but it’s still not the same as going out to the tarmac and getting into the plane and flying. That’s a lot more dangerous. This is pretty safe, in the library. You can imagine being in danger, but you’re not. In the plane, your physical body is being put in the position where you could fall out of the sky. The plane could go down, and you might lose your life.
This world of experiences that you’re having is the platform for this change. Even though when you look at the whole operating system, when you come out to the heavens and look down, you see the Lens—Barbara and Heike are sitting together in Trondheim in 2017 in a specific latitude and longitude in these space-time bodies. You still see the Lens over here over where Lisle is having her Irish experience. You see other lives where you’ve been, where Barbara’s been. You see it all more as an organism, as a molecule with multiple parts to it. Now you’re redefining your entire identity. It doesn’t change the DNA space-time bodies of Barbara or Heike, but it changes the DNA space-time bodies of Barbara and Heike’s understanding and definition of the much more total you, the much bigger picture of who you are.
Even though these are concurrent lives within the Lenses, there is a sequential passing-through of space and time that you go through. Human history from the beginning of the emergence of humans all those many years ago on the planet to now has been a sequential year-after-year-after-year progress. And it will continue on in that way so that when you look down from the Observer at the planet and you see all the Lenses, there are Lenses where you have DNA space-time bodies in the year 2032, in the year 2100. Those are affected by the sequential earth history progress through time and space in the physical world—but you’re not trapped in them. This period of time on the planet is about humans having the veil fall, seeing the totality of who they are and having to find a way to redefine it. And much as is true in evolution, sometimes the fish that throws itself up onto the land to adapt to breathing the air instead of breathing with gills doesn’t make it in that particular Lens. But they come back to the eternal awareness. After Barbara’s body is gone and you’re back up here in the Observer, you can still see that Lens of where that life was. The thoughts, feelings, senses, and memories are there, but your expanded awareness is in the non-physical, nonlinear, eternal part of consciousness that is expanding and expanding.
This is all very difficult sometimes for us to articulate because of the complexity of the vision and the ability that you have to absorb all of that. If there are people who could, it would be the two of you, and the others who are listening later, who grasp some of what we’re saying. The most important part is to remember that your individual life is the platform for that expanded awareness. The more that you live in that truth and look at your life and have a relationship to your physical world that is about the bigger picture, the more you are expanding your awareness and detaching from the identity that culture wants to you have of the smaller box of limitations, the finite world. You’re infusing into that a new definition of expansion and of limitless possibility. That is the most important part: for humans to understand that this platform of your life is the opportunity to be a part of this change.
Once you let go of your fear of death—and again, not just sitting in the library thinking, but being in the physical world but not of it, not trapped by it, having that experience, acknowledging the part of you that exists outside the Lens, communicating in this way—you’re part of the evolution of the entire human species. But you’ll see and you are seeing that not all humans are at this point capable of hearing, of breathing air rather than breathing through the water. They may not get to that place in this life. That’s the nature of evolution.
But for you who can, that is the important part. The next time a person passes away attached to the physical world, attached to the smaller identity, dies, expands, and goes through the memory training program, that person wakes up and says, “Oh, right, I remember, I went down to have this experience, to learn and expand, and I got this far, so let’s go again. Let’s have another go at it.” You do the same until there is a seamlessness in that, like the Dalai Lama, where you’re born and you remember, “Here I am in this platform. Here I am to do it.” That’s when you really get change.
That’s what you’re seeing in the children of today. They’re coming in with an awareness not quite so obscured, waking up to a natural reality of expansiveness and thereby changing culture, rather than being trapped in the culture like you have felt in your lives. All of this is a beautiful, beautiful dance of great cooperation. We are so privileged to be able to articulate it to you in this way. Before we open for conversation or questions, we want to say that every experience—good or bad, or if someone is being greedy and negative, if people are not aware of their power—every experience is an opportunity for you to reframe your own physical experience.
For example, right now on a worldwide level, the veil is being removed. You’re seeing greed and humans wanting to harm other humans. You’re seeing evil playing out in human beings where people are making decisions for the good of the few at the expense of the many. This is a good thing. This is a positive, powerful part of the expansion of human consciousness.
Culture will define it as the end of the world, but you don’t have to buy into what that means, because the end of the finite, limited world of powerlessness, yes, it is the end of that. Every one of those “evil” humans, you can rest assured, is going through the same process you are. You might be blessed (or whatever word you want to use) with the idea that you have a greater consciousness, that you’re making decisions for the good of the whole, that you want to be a part of that change, as opposed to people who want to destroy the planet, destroy the world, have things for themselves. But when you step outside the Lens, they too, when they’re dead, will wake up with the consequence of their decisions. And they, too, will have to come to terms, when they don’t have a physical body, with what all that accumulation of decision-making mathematics has done to their energy and how they can bring balance to that. “OK, let’s go in again.” Now we have to have another life, one where those who were greedy experience being the ones who were being stolen from or destroyed. That’s their mission.
All you need to do is focus on your decision-making power and how you use it and how you’re contributing to the good of the whole and what mathematics you’re putting into your life. If you’re working for the good of the whole to expand your consciousness to benefit the planet for whatever reason, you have a positive impact on the planet, whether you’re actively working to save children or help abused women—whatever the activities are that you are working in to benefit the whole in every way that you can, starting with yourself. Now you’re contributing to your personal expansion, to your personal evolution, and to the greater evolution of human consciousness. And that’s all you really have to know.
Every day is your platform to dedicate yourself to work for the good of the whole, starting with the whole of yourself. Start with having a healthy relationship to the whole spectrum of your emotion, which then becomes your power. Work to listen to the Intuition that will impel you in any given situation what decision to make to work for the good of the whole. Work to have control of that intellectual energy that’s defining and redefining. Working these three dimensions together so that they align, so that the Emotion is moving through and Intuition is impelling because you’re letting all the Emotion come through, and Intellect is doing the bidding of Intuition as you perceive what’s going on in the physical world. Make decisions for the good of the whole.
Your body becomes healthier, your mind becomes more settled, your Intuition becomes stronger, and you attract others to you and teach others by example and become a shining light and inspiration. You affect the mathematics of your bigger energy, of the wave that is you. That in turn affects the lives of others in ways of experiencing other potential. It helps move the entire planet into the manifestation of what the outcome is, which is to have a physical world that is reflective of the good of the whole. You’re returning to the Eden idea, that the planet is in fact heaven, and even in the worst of activities on the planet, it’s a platform to move this forward.
We are so pleased and honored, as we say constantly, that we have this platform, that we can speak so clearly and succinctly to humans who are listening and applying what they hear. We feel now we’re making a difference.
Some of the individual mathematics that we carried into Afterlife from our decision-making processes are being transferred as well. So yes, even Hitler, in this Afterlife, is being given a platform to transform the greater human consciousness as well as the individual energy. It’s quite a miraculous experience, we would say, for all of us.
Are there any questions or conversations you would like to have?
0:51:53.6 Heike: Sometimes I have difficulty relating to people who are not breathing the air, not being fish, who don’t try to throw themselves on land. Sometimes I lose patience with them and sometimes with myself at not being patient enough with them. I would like some insight into how to relate to different people and also to my own state of mind at any given time to accept them better, to accept myself better exactly where I am. Sometimes I think I should be in a different dimension already. Other people who talk to me are angry and captured in their emotions. I try to understand them better, but sometimes I’m not able to, I cannot relate to them in the way I would like to. Do you have any insight there?
Party: Yes, several things. One is that in a world of seven billion people, that’s a lot of fish. While you must acknowledge that this is one being with seven billion aspects. You don’t have to try to satisfy/evolve/influence all seven billion. There’s a reason why your world is finite: so that you can cope with, deal with this platform you’ve been given.
Within that finite platform, a subset of seven billion—and that isn’t even accurate because of other lives and parallel and concurrent lives, but you get the idea—first of all it’s process. You throwing yourself into your human life and letting yourself experience the joy of victory and the agony of defeat is part of the process. When you get impatient and judgmental—“Look at these people, they’re so close-minded!”—and you’re having that momentary definition and thought process, it’s all part of the passion of what’s driving evolution forward. It wasn’t ever intended that you come into the world and sit like Buddha on a mountain, not having any experience like that. All of it is important to your develop and your self-awareness.
Those people who are triggering you, people you might be defining as less or judging them—especially those people are giving you an opportunity to see yourself. It’s that infinity symbol that goes around. It’s making a pass, gaining a little more self-awareness, coming back around, bringing with you a little more self-awareness, coming back around, looking at the mirror of those triggers, looking at yourself, finding where you are defining yourself, judging yourself that way, changing your thinking process a bit, releasing more of that negative, uncomfortable emotion. It’s all these little tiny baby steps in the evolution of who you are.
Step back in a comfortable time, when there’s no one specific triggering you, and see the bigger picture. See the infinity symbol of energy that’s going on within you passing through space-time. Look back on 20 years ago, when you were so much different, and now today, where you’ve changed so much, where you’ve let go so much of trying to get into other people’s energy and judge them and define them in such a way. It still happens, because it’s still the platform.
It’s also reflective of the rest of culture. If you lived in a culture, say, thousands of years ago—an indigenous culture where there was peace and harmony with the planet, with the earth, there was healthy eating, close to nature, there weren’t modern distractions—living in that culture, what you’re describing would have been considered mental illness.
But you’re in a culture that is the complete opposite, the least spiritual culture there is, that breathes the kind of behavior that makes it normal. How many people do this? How many people project? How many people aren’t self-aware? How many people are not making decisions for the good of the whole of their lives, are making decisions for the good of the few, using their intellectual energy at the expense of their emotional energy? That’s normal now, that’s what people do. That’s what you see in other people, and that’s what frustrates you, that you know what it should be. They come to trigger you to show you, “Here’s one more platform for me, one more step I’m given.”
This is a difficult, difficult culture to live in. The indigenous one, where magic was a way of life, where nature was the ruling God, that’s the sanity of humans in conjunct with nature and with the planet, with earth, water, air—the things that are the basic human survival. This culture is so complicated. You have to give yourself the long view. But you also have to give yourself the acknowledgment that you’ve come here to be human, to throw yourself into it, to make mistakes, to have experiences, to grow yourself, and you’re doing it. It’s that pattern, the same pattern, but every time you come around, you’re a little more expanded, until there’s an expansion that cannot be denied. Does that make sense?
1:00:51.5 Party: We’re going to close this channel by saying that in 2017, there’s a lot of opportunity for culture today in this part of the change to rob you of the truth of your expansive miraculous nature. It is one of the least spiritual cultures, if not the least spiritual culture, that’s even been on the earth plane.
You can either allow yourself to be trapped by that short-term, fearful, finite human definition of what’s going on, or you can expand yourself, throw yourself up onto the land and start to suck in the air that’s changing your operating system, that’s changing the operating system of the children of the future, and take the long view. Take steps to love yourself, to love your worst thoughts, transforming them, not rejecting them, not judging them, to love the most difficult emotion, not suppressing it, not denying it. Expand into defining yourself as the whole of everything, from the very worst to the very best, and know that it’s process.
From our seat on the bus, those of you who are working with us and listening to us, this interaction is miraculous, is it not, that we can have through Barbara—the voices in which we can speak to you through your hearing, your own voices coming into your life of higher consciousness of your own Party, of God, whatever you want to call it, and then acting on it? It is such a beautiful process.
You see, we aren’t trapped in the fear of what’s going to happen to the physical world like you are. We see the expansion of human consciousness. We see the veil dropping and humans rising to the occasion. And we are watching and being very much amazed. And it’s with great gratitude that we say, Namaste.
0:00:00.0 Barbara: Well, good morning, afternoon, or evening. It is November 19th, 2017. This is Barbara With, with the Party of 12, guided by Albert Einstein. You who are here with us, listening, either live or downloaded, know that I started this year doing this series I’ve called a Re-Boot Camp, one a month, designed to bring in other perspectives on the information that we’ve been studying for so long. I had special guests, people talking. And then summer came, and my life, as it is wont to do in summer, got very busy with other things, and I haven’t produced one since then.
I’ve been on a nice journey myself. I hope you all have been, shall we say, finding your path. I had a wonderful summer tour with my friends Fredy Argir and Bill Smithfor about three weeks, playing music together. We’re old friends. We used to play back in the ’70s and we reunited on this tour. One of our members, Lonny Knight, passed away before the tour could take place, so Fred and I went on and did it. It was a really remarkable experience to play 12 shows in 16 days in about eight different cities again, as a musician who’s been on the road before—I started out as a musician.
Now today, I’m here in Paris, where I’ve come for about six weeks on what I call a pilgrimage of creativity. I have an apartment with a piano and time enough to settle into Paris and develop more of a local feel. So far the experience of being in Paris is wonderful, beyond what I ever could have imagined. I’m in love here. I will come back and do this again. I’m in love with Paris.
But while I’ve been here, my friends back home on the Bad River Indian reservation in Ashland have had a bad time. I live on Madeline Island in northern Wisconsin and Lake Superior. The Bad River Indian Reservation, and Red Cliff—the Lake Superior band of Chippewa have a big presence in my community, and I’m very much a part of their lives. My friends’ nephew, grandson, son—a 14-year-old boy was shot to death by the police.
This was and is another event that I’m talking about when I say I think the world’s gone insane and it’s because we have a mental disorder. The Intellect is raging out of control right now. The imbalances that we experience personally and then the imbalances in the world have left us so that we don’t know what to think. What do we think any more? It doesn’t surprise you, does it, to hear me say this, after everything that’s gone on this year? Natural disasters, school shootings, hate marches—the world seems to have gone completely insane.
I decided for this Re-Boot that I wouldn’t plan anything. I wouldn’t have a guest because I wanted to hear from Einstein. I have to admit that after I fell down the stairs and tackled some postoperative narcotic psychosis, as I called it, I wondered if I had become brain-damaged. But it turned out I was de-toxing from all of the deadly drugs that they gave me during the operation. During that time I wondered how channeling would be after the traumatic and shocking experience of falling down about 20 stairs and breaking my wrist.
I can tell you, for me, it’s taken it to another level, the whole experience, a deeper level for me. For those of you who have had a before-and-after experience, you can attest to how it keeps getting more articulate and more precise and more inspiring.
I did a reading for a woman a couple of days ago. She said, “Do you get stuff out of this, too?” I said, “I get connected to what the truth is. Every time I do a reading, I get to go into that place of the non-physical and be connected to what the really big story is. When I come back to the Lens, I can be a little more detached and thus a little more effective and a little more able to enjoy life even when it’s not enjoyable.”
After Jason Pero, 14 years old, died, I wrote a story about it. So instead of writing music, I went back to my journalism. You can find it at the WisconsinCitizens Media Coop. I wrote the story of his murder and the epidemic of murders and why there’s an epidemic of police murders, about what the structure of the law is that is allowing this to continue to take place. But on the bigger level, what are we going to do?
Those are unanswerable questions at this point, on November 19th, 2017, except that I’ve watched my community come together and not be hampered by racism. The county board has called a special meeting to be held at the reservation, big enough so everyone can speak. We’re going to come together as a community and make a change.
Regardless of if there will be justice in the political system, this gets back to what I’m looking forward to hearing today from the Party about the state of the world. Because I know in my brain, I know intellectually that my job is to live in the world but not of it. That doesn’t mean I don’t care about people, or I won’t take action or take steps to help my neighbors, or stand up for justice.
It means that when I know why I’m here and I know what my purpose is—to love, that’s the bottom line, to learn what that means—the whole world is a platform for me to put that into play. Then I’m more effective in having a meaningful, fulfilling life, despite the fact that the world might be coming to an end.
If you add that to what we’re doing— we are experimenting with the manifestation of creation with the intent to use our love filters for our own energy, to shape and intend that we’ll be the change. That’s why we’re here. I don’t think any of us came here to be punished for another life, any of that. What we’re here for is to use all of these circumstances to turn ourselves into love.
In that sense, with Jason’s unfortunate killing, knowing what I know became something much different from thinking that I have to go in there and demand that that police officer be held accountable for what he did. I don’t have to use a lot of energy and emotion trying to manipulate the Lens. I can step back and take a breath and say, “What can I use my energy for to make sure the good of the whole is achieved here?” I was able to do that with this event [by writing the story].
I know the family. It’s a horrible, horrible thing. I used all of that deep emotion to focus on writing a piece that was about educating people and asking the right questions, rather than roiling up in a terrible situation that has many sides to it.
Just the fact that I could do that in those circumstances was a sign to me of the work that we’ve been doing—and I say “we” because I can’t do this work without you all. And I do it alone, you do it alone, but we need each other to continue to remind ourselves of why we’re here in this crazy world right now.
As I mentioned in my blog the other day, my family has had two murders, my cousin Amy in 2006 and my nephew Howie in 2012, that forced me to examine my belief system, to ask myself what I believe about eternal life, about forgiveness. “Here are the deaths. What will you do, and how will you do it?” Applying Conflict REVOLUTION intentionally to each of them, I believe, especially with my nephew’s murder, that we made miracles. My sister has fully participated in that, and it has indeed created miracles.
So with all of this experimentation we’re doing, I’m hoping that those of you who are listening and thinking about what the unified field theory and Conflict REVOLUTION mean and how you use it in your life, at the very least you can know as you learn that it is effective. I will say, without a doubt, that every single time I do it, I get an outcome that is bigger than I could have done myself, going at it in the Lens, trying to prove justice needs to be done. I can do it better and have an outcome that’s bigger than I could have ever imagined.
Today I want Einstein to talk to us about the practicality of this. Many of you have been listening to this information and using it in your life like lab rats. I want to inspire you to never forget that it’s the baby steps. Your mind can’t logically draw correlations between how you taking care of yourself will help world peace. [It’s because] you are then becoming the one who is loving yourself. If Intuition is telling you to slow down, when you follow it, you are then the one who becomes the vehicle for love of self. It seems like such a little thing, and we you get carried away with all the details of our lives.
I know that you, Robin, are very busy right now, there’s so much going on. But when we slow down to the baby step, the next most advantageous step, we have the knowledge that by doing that little thing, taking care of that, taking care of your life, that you’ll effect an outcome or be guided somewhere that you couldn’t do by yourself.
For me, I think my life is living proof of it. You don’t have to prove it to anyone, but every day, when I feel and breathe, when I let myself listen to Intuition and do what it says without fighting it, I am able to create outcomes of much greater good all the way around. Why wouldn’t that ripple out into the rest of the world, why wouldn’t the people in the supermarket line, the librarian, everybody we come into contact with get to experience living love?
I’d like us to begin today with a guided visualization.
Close your eyes. Turn your focus inward. Take a few deep breaths. Let’s go into the vision that we are all out in the heavens looking down on the beautiful, beautiful planet earth. Linda’s somewhere around LA, Sharon’s in Minneapolis (we’re pointing on the map) Barbara’s way over there in Paris, Robin’s way over there in Washington state, Carmen’s in Romania, David is in Australia, Heike is in Norway, a bunch of people all over the world.
We’re looking down and we’re seeing the Lens that we are each creating. Robin, I can see you sitting in your kitchen or in a comfortable room of your house. But from here, up in the heavens, I can’t see anything but the planet. In these two places we begin to get accustomed to the fact that we are much bigger than our DNA space-time human body having the physical experience. Our energy and our operating system are so much bigger than we know.
One reason we begin with this visualization of being in many different places at once is to get you in touch with those places energetically in the DNA space-time body that is sitting there in the Lens. We want your physical body to also be connected to this ethereal perspective up here in the heavens as the Observer, looking down on the planet, the big, big, biggest picture.
So there’s the planet. Then there’s the physical world of the Lens. Then there’s the last piece of this holy trinity of Human Intention, which is the Source. That is in the middle of Mother Earth, the very center of the planet, where all humankind erupts from.
So here we are, out in the heavens. We see ourselves down there on the planet. We get into the planet, we feel and anchor into the center of the earth. And we feel a wave that is our identity, flowing from the source, from the center of the planet, flowing up through the earth, bursting out through the edge of the earth to create your physical body, which is then the projector and the perceiver of the entire universe.
Isn’t that amazing? Despite what’s going on in the Lens, despite all the terrible things we’re describing going on on the planet, isn’t that amazing? Creation of human life, the gravitational wave bursting forth, your physical body is projecting the universe and then it’s perceiving it back—the entire universe. All the energy is slowed down, everything separates so you can perceive separation, perceive the physical world.
To me, that alone is beyond description—even though we just tried to describe it! It’s like how there are really no words for God, because it’s too big. And when we start knowing ourselves this deeply, by the time we get to the Lens, yes, there’s a lot going on in the Lens. But it’s just a passing-through point. It is the manifestation of the creation, but it’s just a passing-through point for that wave that’s going on into the heavens, picking up into the earth’s electromagnetic field, going back down the North Pole, back down to the center, as it spins and spins at the speed of light squared. And the Lens is what slows that wave down and separates out everything else, creates your DNA body, puts you in that space-time, in that latitude and longitude.
I’ve noticed, being in Paris, that when I go to Google Maps, they don’t give you an address any more. They give you latitude and longitude. All of this is the mathematics. And that right there, what we just described, that vision of the spinning string and the human Intention, as we call it, the Observer in the heavens, the Lens of the physical world, the Source in the center of the planet, that is the operating system of human consciousness. What you program into it is what you’ll manifest in the Lens.
All of this can help us have a different perspective of what is going on in the Lens. And it means the difference between feeling like a victim to this physical world—“Oh, why, oh, why was I born at this time? Oh, my God, how can these horrible things be happening to us? Let’s blame the Republicans, the Democrats, the rich, the poor! It’s all going to hell in a hand basket.”
OK, I get that. I’m there. But when we can back up and remember our mission—world peace, one person at a time, starting with me—to become the love that will guide human consciousness into the next step of evolution, [then] we all have so much more power.
0:20:11.9 We will command that only the most divine light shine down upon you at this time and the greatest good be present here.
The Party: We are so honored to welcome you to this circle, all of you who are listening all over the world at different times, in different spaces, in different bodies. We have convened a collection of souls, shall we say, that at this time brings not a new message so much as an uplifted and supportive message.
All of the work that we are doing—those of us who don’t have bodies, who still have consciousness, who still have access to thoughts, feelings, senses, memories—we are working at a new level of consciousness ourselves. We, too, after all of this time and all of this work, have gotten to a place where our clarity is even greater, where our understanding of how to inspire has come a very long way in our mission.
Just to back up a bit, when we talk about our “mission,” the Party of 12 and Albert Einstein—who’d have thunk it (laughs)—we are talking about a very specific decision that we made in Afterlife as a group to work for the good of the whole, to bring information that we have learned in our lives as physical beings and now in the Afterlife as a new kind of consciousness, a new kind of power. We can’t talk to you at this point about our lesson, because it’s at a level that you as humans wouldn’t comprehend. And not because you’re idiots, but because you’re focused on something completely different.
So suffice it to say that we come to you today with an even greater understanding that your intentions, yes, indeed, have a huge impact upon the manifestation of your world. Your world is incredibly complex, and you as humans have had to dummy down what you understand of energy in order to have a human experience. You’re putting these multiple dimensions into a much smaller space that the Lens affords you.
You have a life-and-death focus on that Lens while you’re having a physical body. That doesn’t detract from your ability to expand your awareness of your non-physical self. In fact, it gives you a platform from which to work for you to expand your own consciousness, to understand in the course of one day in your physical body that when you wake up from the dead and your body opens its eyes and begins its projecting and perceiving experience, you have 24 hours in that day to have a new relationship to yourself in any number of ways. That new relationship over time in the physical body, one day at a time, is what changes the manifestation.
If you’re talking about something personal in your life—a conflict you’ve had with a neighbor or some puzzling situation in your life that you’re worried about—those are the moments when you have the power to take control of that energy and effect change on the smallest of steps.
You all know what we’re talking about. You know yourselves well enough to know when you’re in that place of feeling like you’re out of control—maybe anxiety has taken over, or there’s so much going on in the world that you can’t even begin to address how to resolve the conflict because it’s overwhelming—one tragedy after another, too much emotion coming, all of those things.
When you’re not in that state, when you’re in a comfortable, safe place, you can say, “You know, if in that moment I could change my thought process while the heavy emotion was coming through, whatever that anxiety was …,” you know that you could change the outcome of your life.
Not that you always have control—you haven’t trained yourself yet in how to take the control that is yours to take. But it is yours to control. Your thoughts are yours to control. You have that right and that power.
Whether you exercise it or not, this is one of the greatest moments of change that you could have—when overwhelming emotion is surging through you and you’re triggered by something that could very much be real. It isn’t like you’re imagining it. Seeing another mass shooting, you’ve gotten to a place where you’re numb because you cannot take in any more of that emotion.
We say, if you can take in that emotion and interject a new intellectual message as it’s coming through live, we know you can change that. What we don’t know is if you can do it in that moment. That is one of the most insane, out-of-control conditions that a human can be in, when you’re panicking, when you have anxiety or depression that manifests perhaps the other way in keeping you heavy and down and incapacitated rather than agitated—it’s all the same thing.
Despite what we’re going to talk about later on in this dissertation in your relationship to the state of the world today, more than ever we know that if you can get yourself there in the moment of that powerful surge of emotion and wrestle the Intellect back to being something of a superconscious nature rather than, “Oh, my God, the whole world’s coming to an end!”—you can remind yourselves that these are the moments you came here for: to feel and breathe, to move human consciousness into this next step of becoming the manifestation of the love that’s at our root. The world is so far from that now, it seems, doesn’t it?
This is why when you do it, you are building pieces of DNA that change the future of human consciousness. You’ll never see that when you’re looking at the world and at all the horrible things going on in the Lens and it’s causing you to go numb or to be conflicted or to want to run away. You can see it if you stop and remind yourself of your mission here and hold that space with your breath while you’re envisioning humankind turning that corner. You’re not just envisioning it. You’re becoming the change in that moment, when you take that breath. And that’s part of what moves the adaptation of human consciousness forward, like a missing link.
But your mind wants to complicate things. Your mind and your Intellect want to take control of the entire system. We want to suggest that as you deal with these situations, which are very real in the Lens, that you look metaphorically at all of those evil characters that are emerging: the people who have turned greedy, who are lying to you, who are stealing and destroying. Look at those people from your Source. They, too, are part of your gravitational wave that is being projected and perceived by you. They also represent a part of your Intellect that wants to grab control and define things as hopeless or helpless or to judge things or to blame someone or to blame yourself. And these thoughts of yours are part of the collective Intellect of human consciousness right now.
While you cannot control everyone’s thoughts, you can control your own. You can learn what they are, what they’re telling you. You can do an experiment. Once you learn those voices in your head—the thoughts that are greedy and want to destroy your truth, which is that you are a miracle having this experience, that you are powerful beyond measure—we are teaching you hopefully the power of your intention.
We are very honored and happy that Barbara has worked with us for all of this time and concur with the idea that every time you do this experiment and take control of your intention, that you muster up the power to make a change in your life. The change can happen overnight. It can happen right there. But you must think in longer terms. You must think personally that you’re here at this time unifying a whole lot of other [past] lives, learning a great deal more information than you ever thought you wanted to know, and dealing with things that you never dreamt you would be faced with dealing with.
You are in this world to do this, to be that change. What do you need to do to get a grasp of what your intention will be?
One thing we want to suggest is that you do an experiment with yourself. When you get up in the morning, after you say, “Thank you for another miraculous day of having a body that’s projecting and perceiving the entire universe”—that’s a miracle right there. That’s the first thing.
Then, as you set your intention, be tiny. Don’t try to change your whole life in one day. Focus on one step or another. We would say the first one is about that intention. Any time you feel you’re going into a situation where you don’t have control and you don’t know how it will work out and you’re triggered with uncomfortable emotion, find whatever it is that will be a little slap in your own face. Wake up! Remember:
I am a powerful person. I am a miracle just standing here. And I can change this. I can influence this. I intend to influence whatever this situation is that I’m afraid of for the good of the whole. And yes, I might fall down, I might make mistakes, I might stumble. Surely I’ll be feeling a lot of emotion. Guide me, Intuition, so that I am taking steps for the good of the whole here.
Sometimes you won’t know. You won’t be able to say, “Oh, well, here, this is for the good of the whole.” You have to trust what you are being impelled to do from deep in your heart—not from your thinking process. You need to listen to that Intuition that is deep within you, rising up always, every moment, part of that string that’s spinning at the speed of light squared, telling you that next most advantageous step for the good of the whole of creation—the whole universe that you are projecting and perceiving. That voice is within you. No one can take it away from you. You can drown it out and not know what it is, but it’s there, and it’s working. This is your chance.
So you fully intend that you will use this incredible power of love that is your birthright. You can’t escape it. It’s what you’re made of: Compassion, the fifth fundamental force of the universe. You will take this, and for whatever time you have left on this planet as that person in that DNA space-time body, you will become this change and you’ll fully intend to find out, to learn, to discover what that means in every moment.
With the holidays coming up, we think this is a perfect opportunity for you to experiment with triggers and change, self-change, self-revelation. How loving can you be, first and foremost, to yourself? That’s the question.
Are you going to let voices in your head that belittle you, judge you, demean you bring you down? Because you can and you will. But there’s a bigger force now as you also become a witness to what that Intellect is doing and make conscientious decisions to change what those thoughts are while you are feeling the feelings.
You can do it if you’re just happy, sitting around thinking about it, you can change thinking. But the front line is when that discomforting emotion surges through that you don’t want to feel and then those thoughts are triggered. You can go numb and not listen to your thinking, and you might find yourself perpetuating the pain, the fear, the anxiety that you’re trying to release from.
These ideas are not revolutionary. You hear them in other places. This is not something only we have said. You hear these concepts in many other avenues of teaching and learning. But only you can know you. Only you will be the one who can clearly say what will get you to change your perspective, to deal with your thoughts and emotions differently. Only you can do that. That’s the ultimate power that you’ve been given, and that’s why you’re here at this time, in this world.
As difficult as the state of the world is right now, the other side that we see is that human consciousness is indeed making a huge leap forward. Because of having to deal with all the conflicts in the world through the ages, because of people now wanting to find completely new and revolutionary ways to approach the world, to make this world the place you want your children and your grandchildren, seven generations, to be born into.
And it’s working: the babies being born today come with so much greater sensibility than you could ever have imagined. That doesn’t mean you must stop doing your experimentation of how you can be love, but maybe it can inspire you to keep going with it when you look upon the faces of the new children coming into the world.
It’s a very joyful time! You’re seeing souls coming willingly to the planet. “Take me! I can do it! I can become love.” They’re not afraid. They know what they’re getting into on a soul level, and they’re happy to be there.
Every generation is helping to take that step. The ancestors are also participating in pushing this evolution forward. Remember, this is all about adaptation. Human consciousness and energy are about adapting to what is manifest.
That’s your life, too, in a nutshell. You get up every day. You put one foot in front of the other. You think you have a plan—“I’ll go to work at 10:00. I’ll do this at noon. I’ll do this at 4:00.” But you have a whole day that rises up for you to discover what your relationship is to it, how you’ll make decisions, how you’ll approach it, and what your relationship with you will look like as the basis for the projection that you see the world as.
We are thoroughly grateful on all levels that you are listening, that you are coming together, that you’re pushing yourselves to learn more than anyone can teach you but yourself. This is an exciting and inspiring time for us in the evolution of human consciousness, and you have, forever, our thanks.
Are there any questions or conversations?
Barbara: This is Barbara. (laughs) I know I’ve never done this before, where I’ve just jumped out of the channel and had a question, but stranger things have happened in the world.
I love all that you say, and I know that it’s true from my point of view as the person who’s been with this maybe the longest, with you, with Einstein and the Party. Do you think that humankind will get it in our lifetime? I get pretty afraid sometimes.
In fact, before I came to France, I said, something could happen between North Korea and the U.S. and I might not be able to go home. And then I started thinking about, if something did happen, then the U.S. becomes a whole other country. I know we’re not supposed to go there, but it still sometimes seems way too big for me. You know I live this way, and everything you say I find true. But I need a little bit more to understand.
Party: Well, we would say that it’s an experiment to the best of everyone’s ability. You ask, will humankind get it in your lifetime, and which part of humankind? It’s like the story of the elephant and the five blind people who are touching the different parts of the elephant. It’s already happening.
You could think of it this way: that if it weren’t happening, there already would have been a great cataclysmic event. Not to say that there can’t be, but because of the consciousness-raising through the years, because of the millions and millions of people who are participating in this like you are, it could be a lot worse. And that’s what you can’t see. That’s what we can’t measure so much. It’s a psychological perspective that can help you not have to worry so much about those kinds of questions. It tricks your mind into thinking about it in a different way that can free you up And that’s the idea: detachment.
We have taught this information and will continue to teach this information very firmly and concisely. We understand about human emotion. We understand that humans get frustrated. But it does you no good if we don’t keep a strong hand to hold you accountable for your power. We feel that your power and getting control of it is the answer anyway, whether everyone on the planet does it or not. If they did, we could effect change very quickly if everyone did Conflict REVOLUTION and looked at the world that way, asking how they could contribute to the good of the whole.
But you don’t have to wait for anybody to do this. You can do it for yourself, and that’s all you need to be concerned about.
Barbara: That was curious. (laughs) Asking a question!
Robin: I was surprised that you asked a question.
Barbara: Do you have one?
Robin: I think it was answered in the channel with the slowing down part. I think I was more going to share my experience with that lately, if they wanted to expand on it a little bit.
The question was asked in the channel, and that was, when things get overwhelming, the mind takes over and says, “We have to do this, do that.” We speed up, and that creates more chaos. It’s almost counterintuitive to slow down.
That has helped me lately to give myself the space to process the Emotion and hear the Intuition, to hear the next step. Our minds will say, “You don’t have time to slow down,” but in reality, time is an illusion. It gives us the space to step out of time and expand the present moment, to bring that deep Emotion through, to suspend the mind so that it doesn’t freak out about taking the space and the time. It creates more of an expansion.
Lately I’ve been doing this, and people around me are saying, “Aren’t you worried? You haven’t done this, you haven’t done that!” I think there’s a bigger part of me that says, “The picture’s too big. I can’t see it. I’m going to slow down. I need to process this right now, so I’ll do that today, and the next step will show itself tomorrow.” That’s why I say that the question was very much answered.
Barbara: Thanks for sharing that. I agree that in that moment when we think we’re so busy, if we step out of time, it changes the whole thing. Suddenly—yeah, we’re still busy, but things are getting done. I personally find a great relief from just following my Intuition.
Robin: It’s such an act of self-love.
Barbara: It really is.
Robin: When they talk about feeling that sense of Compassion, just to expand the state for all of that to come there, more love, more Compassion, more Intuition, more peace.
0:49:26.9 Barbara: I was listening to a young man I went to see last night [Adam Sweeney] who was trying to explain his process, which was very much like Conflict REVOLUTION, and he called passion and emotion “excitement.” Once we step out of time, take some breaths, feel self-love, even though the tasks are not something you’d want to do the rest of your life, here it is in front of you, part of your life, you can get a little more excited about it. That certainly has to add to the entire experience and a lot of how the experience is shaped, to be manifest.
Robin: That’s true. In that moment, you can say, “Huh, that’s curious. Look at what just showed up in front of me.”
Barbara: Right. But we’re sure not taught to live this way.
Robin: Yes, we are. We’re taught and we’re practicing and we’re lab rats. We’re blessed. We are.
Barbara: Right, we are.
0:50:42.2 Sharon: Robin, can I ask you a question about what you said when you were talking about slowing down?
Sharon: Are you talking about slowing down your thinking in your mind? Does that translate into slowing down your physical actions as well?
Robin: I slow everything down. I stop making choices. I stop frantically doing busy things or feeling like I need to accomplish the 10 things on the list today. I slow down my breathing. I’ll even sit in mediation maybe for an hour.
Sharon: That was another question I had. OK, all right.
Robin: Things like that, where you would think, “I don’t have time for that.” But we have to make time for that, because it’s the important stuff. The little details, not as much. They’ll come out. And the other thing that Einstein said was to pick one or two things. I’ve been doing that, too. “OK, I can’t do 10 big things, because I need to sit in meditation and process this sadness right now.” After I’m done with that, my Intuition will tell me what big things I can cross off the list. It’s been a way of operating from Compassion and love first. And then what happens is that the stuff you delayed you were supposed to delay because there was something coming. I’ll share an example.
I’m in the process of moving from an island and going to a city. It’s overwhelming. I couldn’t make a choice of where to live in the city, what to do. I was sitting in mediation crying instead.
And then all of a sudden a wonderful woman showed up in my life and I’m able to rent a room in her house. She’s organizing a workshop that I teach in her living room. I couldn’t have seen any of that had I just frantically pushed through everything. Instead I slowed down for two weekends, what would seem like accomplishing nothing, but meditating and crying, and now I’ve got this beautiful thing happening. Sometimes you can’t see what’s coming, you can’t see the big picture.
Barbara: Sharon, did you have any questions?
Sharon: No, and I’m glad you asked your question. I have a delayed soaking-in time. The questions don’t come until later. I was happy that you asked the question you did. I’ll probably have to come back and listen to it again.
Barbara: It felt new to me, the voice.
Robin: You mean the answer felt new?
Barbara: No, the voice, when they said, “We’ve reached this new place of evolution” in the beginning. Like they were super-excited that this is the first group that they’ve done in this new state.
Robin: I felt that, too.
Barbara: And the voice was very distinctive, not one I’m real familiar with. Maybe that’s the deeper, richer, fuller voice of the collective, or maybe there’s some new personality that’s stepping up to the plate.
Robin: And you said you’re in a new place, too.
Barbara: True, that too. I saw that new place when I wrote the article about Jason’s death. When I was done with it, I realized that there was no insinuation of blame, none of what they were talking about, “We have to get justice done. This is despicable.” It was about, “Here’s the law. Here’s what happened. Police officers and military people don’t have interchangeable jobs. The police are supposed to de-escalate, the military is supposed to escalate.” There are all these factors. The officer who did it, who is he? For all intents and purposes, he’s just a normal guy. I could see that evolution in my writing, the articulation of that.
Party: We will bring this channel to a close. Once again, our gratitude knows no bounds in this work that we do together, all of us.
We want to encourage you to get small with yourself, get to the moment with yourself as much as you can. Discover what those moments hold for you. Learn about who you are through those moments.
Really expand your perception to be able to separate your deep emotion from your conscious thinking. See them. Experience them as two different organs, two different energies. Deal with them accordingly. And then listen for that intuitive impulse rising from your heart, impelling you to take that next step for the good of the whole, and study yourself.
From now till the end of the year, we think you’re going to have an opportunity to see in action what we’re suggesting. There is great positive, powerful change in the air, and a lot of this is housecleaning, awareness-raising. It’s never easy for humans to have their awareness raised. (laughs) It’s usually something that happens with kicking and screaming. But all of you have a chance to be the fish that throws itself up onto the land and changes that breathing.
It’s an exciting time, and we are so honored to be in service to you. So yes, go off, watch, and be amazed.
Welcome back to our 2017 RE-Boot Series! After an event-filled summer break of music, mayhem and a fall down the stairs, we’re back, reporting from Paris for #6. Looking forward to catching up and reconnecting with you and the Party. Hope you can join us. If not, watch for the download posting.
On the night of August 26, I fell down 20 wooden stairs, hit a concrete sidewalk, continued down three more granite stairs and landed in the yard below.
As I was tumbling, I remember thinking, “This might not be good.”
When I finally stopped, I stood up, checked my neck, back and general condition, and realized I had broken my wrist. After a trip to the emergency room, surgery was scheduled for several days later to put in a metal plate.
Luckily, the fall happened on the last night of my three-week musical tour. Not only had the tour ended literally two hours earlier, but the fact that I had only broken my wrist was nothing short of miraculous.
After coming through surgery, I began the healing process, devoting my energy to the intention that I would make a rapid and full recovery. At first, I kept reliving the fall, over and over. It was traumatic. I wondered what allowed me to fall in such a way as to not damage anything but my wrist. Was it just luck that I did not break my neck, hip(s), leg(s) or other bones, or end up paralyzed, brain damaged or flat our dead?
In a reading I did for my sister last week, Einstein said this about my fall:
The greatest healing power that you have is your own self-love. There’s a new kind of layer of supernatural awareness that surrounds your bodies now. It’s about not hiding your body from your soul. Whatever it was in Barbara’s fall that allowed her body to not break, her neck to not snap—whatever those magical intentions were at this point, we are not quite articulate in how to describe the neurological connections between that Greater Barbara who was (think of it as dancing, or maybe performing surgery) instructing [her body], “Don’t hit there. Don’t hit there.” How did the energy cross-reference from her bigger self to her physical body? What was the intersection of intelligence and bodily response that allowed that to happen?
Our Einstein tells us that we nurture synchronicity when we allow Intuition to be in charge of making decisions. Bypassing the logic of the Intellect, Intuition will guide us to the next most advantageous step for the good of the whole. Is Einstein saying above that the system is so ingrained in how I operate that it works even in the case of falling down the stairs?
Would that explain the other events in the past several years that could have ended poorly? The hit-and-run crash that totaled my car in 2011 that I walked away from, the Wimberley Flood in 2015 that I was only blocks uphill of, the terrorist attack in Paris later that year that was right around the corner from my hotel—could my “good luck” be a greater form of self-love?
The truth it, it’s a grand experiment and we are the researchers as well as the lab rats. Einstein has given us the road map and step-by-step instructions for changing our own lives first and foremost. From that inner change comes the outer manifestation of the inner peace and self-love we create by aligning to Compassion.
I don’t know the answer. I do know I dedicate myself to living aligned to Compassion and that has changed my life. In fact, at my last doctor’s visit on October 31, he declared my healing was six weeks ahead of schedule and gave me a clean bill of health. Just in time to head to Paris, where I will be for the next month or so, living the life, working on music, singing some jazz, and immersing myself in yet another effort to live fully, richly, deeply while still in physical form.
So far, so good.
In gratitude for my good fortune and extraordinary gifts, from now until the end of the year I am happy to offer a full one-hour reading for $75.
0:00:00.0 Barbara: Good morning! It is Sunday, May 21, 2017. I am Barbara With, and we are here with the Party. Partyof12.com is where you can find all things Einsteinian from beyond the grave, news from the Party of 12, and of course information about Conflict REVOLUTION, our imagined Einstein’s miraculous process for world peace one person at a time, starting with you—or me. I’ll start with me, and you can start with you.
Today we are coming from Lake Superior, on Madeline Island, on a beautiful day to be alive, as far as I’m concerned. I am excited about the show. I’m going to introduce our guest a little later, but first a recap.
This is our fifth meeting this year, and looking back on the intention of the Re-Boot series, rebooting our operating systems was the intention for all of us coming together and participating in our own way in our own lives to create the perspective of world peace, one person at a time, starting with us.
Over the past six months I have been to Standing Rock. I went to Paris and Copenhagen, to Tromsø, Norway, an island way close to the Arctic Circle. I was in Oslo. I went back to Standing Rock during the veterans’ gathering there, spent a bunch of time in Minneapolis. I went to Jamaica, then to Denver, Charleston, New Orleans, Corpus, and then back to Denver, and here I am again. I want to say thank you to the universe. I’m so grateful to be alive at this exciting time when we can change the course of defining who we are, defining our language. Our guest will help reiterate that as we redefine ourselves, we emerge as more generative, more peace-oriented beings, with peace generating from within us and spreading out into our local universes.
I’m so grateful, and I hope you are, too. I’ve been formulating a new book in my head. I know I said I maybe wasn’t going to do that, but I’m inspired by this work, especially the work we’ve been doing. I’m thinking about the stories of Conflict REVOLUTION, how it’s miraculously transformed situations, lives, perspectives. That or a romance novel. Or maybe some erotica.
I want to update on my Trigger of Trump. What triggered me about him in January was not him, per se. It wasn’t a direct mirror, but rather his opponents who wanted to call him out on his bad behavior but refused to look at that same bad behavior in their candidate. That was my sound bite, which you can clearly see revolved back to me and gave me plenty of room to learn about darker parts of myself that might be perpetuating these things. This led then into the next few months of the conflict of “Assumptions and Miscommunications,” where I perceived somebody was making assumptions about me, and so I started to revolve it and found out how many times I made assumptions.
This has gone on as the year as progressed, and what I’ve learned is: the fewer assumptions, the more synchronicity. That’s my personal testimony of my life. I can’t prove it. You know that I’m kind of a scientist and I keep track of these things, and it appears in my life that synchronicity has greatly increased, on a daily, an hourly basis. That’s exciting.
To sum up: when you’re doing Conflict REVOLUTION, you have to be prepared to go on a journey where you don’t know where you’re going. If you start out in January and think, “This will be about Trump”—a listener wrote in and said, “Yeah, I hate Trump, too.” And I thought, “No, that’s not quite it.” That’s not quite how Conflict REVOLUTION works. Which led to me and the trainers Robin and Cathy presenting “Conflict REVOLUTION 101”, which is available. You start out where you think you’re going and you end up somewhere better and much different than you could imagine. So I get synchronicity after following this lead.
Anyway, you can look up that episode, I think I’ve also linked it to the Conflict REVOLUTION page at Partyof12.com, if you want to find out the process. It’s a process. It has a lot of leeway for you to build the process to absolutely fit your own needs and worldview. That’s the idea. This isn’t about me telling you how to do it, it’s about me showing you how it works and then you making your own operating system for yourself, for how it fits for you. It’s such exciting work. I wanted to report some of that good news.
I also want to say that I’ve had a very strange experience that I want to continue to share on this particular set of airwaves, because this is why I created this set of airwaves, so I could share these things. A very old friend of mine just passed away, Lonnie Knight, an amazing musician, a man I played in bands with when I first got into music when I was 17. I met him when I was 17. When I was 18 and 19 we were in bands traveling back and forth from northern Minnesota down to Austin and back again, the trio of him and me and Fred Argir, who is also from northern Minnesota, who moved to Austin.
Lonnie had come down with esophageal cancer, but he was reporting good things about his progress. He never stopped playing. We decided we would do a tour together, the three of us, this summer, so I started booking it in August. On the 6th of May in the morning, he posted on his Facebook page, “I’ve got two hours to two days.” It threw me into a perplexed state of, “I feel uncomfortable thinking about—I can’t get to him. Do I text him goodbye?” Even calling him seemed odd, but the idea of a Facebook death was at first a little repulsive to me, I have to admit. I said, “I will not participate in such nonsense.” And then I took a breath and I started to watch his page. His beloved partner Patti was posting that they were reading posts together and sharing the love in his hospital room. He had thousands of friends, people piping up, sharing their love. And I thought, oh my gosh, what a beautiful thing! You know you have this much time. Nobody wants to die of esophageal cancer, but you know you have this much time and you get to have all this love before you launch.”
So I joined in and got to post pictures of him and me hugging in 2013 and things from the past, we got to share all of that. It was a very unusual experience, especially because you know me to be somebody who talks to dead people, so knowing that when he passes anyway as I’m working with him, and he’s saying, “Maybe I can’t make these gigs because I’ll be too tired from chemo,” and I wasn’t going to say, “And what if you’re dead?” You just don’t do that when someone is still alive.
And now here we are. He’s not really dead. I mean, he’s passed away, but now he’s having a new experience, a new relationship, with me, anyway. I’m going on with Fred to do a tribute to him, so now I’m learning all his music and it’s becoming the kind of joyful funfest that I usually have when I’m connected with people who have passed who are seeking to help be a part of the new definition we’re creating. Yes, it’s sad that we die, but on the other hand, if there’s an afterlife like Einstein has clearly explained ad infinitum for 30 years, then it’s just a new state of communication, of how we communicate.
As we teach here, in [our] Einsteinian World, a huge part of it is the non-physical, even when we’re in our bodies. Even when we’re alive right now, 90% of this is a non-physical experience in the physical world, which is a tiny bit of it. But the most important part, if you’re going to be a human being, is to get into that three-dimensional, four-dimensional world in your body and perceive the human experience and live it.
And now people like Leslie [Stewart] and Ken [Routson] and all of us here on the Einstein network devote ourselves not only to understanding the map of the non-physical but intending to use it for the benefit of the good of the whole at the root level. The commitment that we want to make decisions in our lives for the good of everyone involved in whatever that is, whether it’s family decisions or work decisions or decisions about one’s own inner life. We’re working for the good of the whole system. Otherwise, why would you put old, used, charred spark plugs in your car? You need all systems running well.
So it will be an interesting time putting this band together and having Lonnie present. And Fred, too, has reported that Lonnie has come to him and in his young, sassy way, which I can totally see Lonnie doing (laughs), telling him to “Get over it!” Being off, busy learning. Plus, I gave Lonnie Einstein et al.: Manifestation, Conflict REVOLUTION and the New Operating System a few months before he passed, and he said he was anxious to tear into it. So who knows with that story? I am grateful for all of this study in afterlife that we’ve been doing together.
In a little bit we’ll bring on our special guest today, Ken Routson. If you listened to last month’s Re-Boot, we had Ken’s spiritual partner Leslie Stewart talking about joy, a fabulous episode. If you missed it, download it, please! It’s amazing. There was some wonderful follow-up with my sister. Let’s just say, without going into too much detail, that joy did show itself in that situation we talked about.
I met Ken a long time ago. I bought his first book, Beliefology: Raise Your Consciousness to Wealth, Health & Happiness! I was flummoxed at how Einsteinian it was in its core redefining of what we believe in. I don’t think we had much communication then. But when he came to me with his book The Gifts of Autism & Alzheimer’s to work with him as a publisher’s helper, like Santa’s helper, I helped with that book, which was really interesting to me.
Before we bring Ken on, I want to share about the client I had, Dorothea, who changed my life, and her autistic son. I think he was 33 at the time, Nick. He was severely autistic; he had never spoken a word. He had the familiar Sufi-like hand movements. He was obsessed with shuffling cards and flipping through magazines. He made high, squeaky dolphin noises. But he and his mother had a telepathic communication. She felt all her life as if he talked to her in her head, so she hired me to channel him with the purpose of proving to her – or not – that she was really doing this.
As you might believe or understand, it was proven quite quickly. I think maybe we had three readings. She finally said, “That’s it. I know. That’s him in my head. It’s been him in my head. Thank you very much.”
My presence with him, because he didn’t speak, most of it was non-physical communication, was completely mystic. It was the first time I’d sat in front of somebody who was in this state. I felt as if I were sitting in front of a mystic. While we were sitting by the river doing a reading, he got up and walked down into the woods, the wilder part of the Mississippi River in Minneapolis. She went running after him. He got to the river and she said, “He is so terrified of water. This is unprecedented, that he would just walk through there.” There were little creeks he had to step over.
She told me was that she was going to see her daughter play at a county fair one day. She took the car and parked with Nick on a residential street outside the foregrounds. Nick usually sat in the car and waited. But that day he got out of the car and started walking down the street with great purpose. She got out of the car and started running after him. “Where are you going?” He walked five houses down, and with great intent picked a house, walked up the sidewalk and around to the back of the house, where he went up three steps that had no back on them—and that, too, she said, was something that would just terrify him. He went into the house, which was surprisingly unlocked. She ran after him, mortified, and came into the kitchen of the house. He had gone down the hall, in a room, and shut the door. She was standing there flummoxed. “What can I say to anyone who encounters us?” In a few minutes she heard the toilet flush. He retraced his steps and got back in the car.
My experience with Dorothea is longer than that, but working with them inspired me to write the only screenplay I’ve ever written, Gravity. It’s about a theoretical Nick who can communicate telepathically and begins early, going into the dreams of Rose, who then becomes a famous author and is united with Nick and his mother and they go off on a journey to try to “cure” autism. Autism ends up curing them, as it were. That is my experience with the autism piece of it.
And one last thing, about my mother. My mother, as many of you who have been with me know, has been successfully installed in her home that she bought in 1956 and paid for all by herself, with two amazing caregivers who are now part of our family. She’s very, very happy. She’s lost all memory of anything having to do with anything in her life. She doesn’t remember giving birth, my ex-husband. She remembers her children and her grandchildren. She watches the Game Show Network all day and sleeps a lot. But I’m so very blessed that I can go and share my sadness about Lonnie’s death and see how she’s doing.
The funny thing was, on Mother’s Day, my sister Chris and I were visiting and I said, “Ah, President Donald Trump!” And she said, “Ha ha ha! That will never happen!” We had to break the news to her. She was quite shocked, but of course it doesn’t really matter to her. It never would have anyway.
But enough of me. Joining us is Ken Routson, an author, speaker, consultant, life coach, and workshop facilitator. He’s been nationally recognized for his contributions in developing day programs and residential supports for people with disabilities. Welcome, Ken! Good morning!
0:21:05.1 Ken: Good morning to you and everyone, those visible, those physical and those who are not physical!
Barbara: (laughs) Which is quite a few! You have at your side Leslie Stewart, it’s a little bit of a two-fer today, maybe?
Ken: Yes! In fact, I want to read a couple paragraphs that she wrote about her perspective about Mom, both the “old Mom” and the “new Mom.” [Ken’s mother before and after Alzheimer’s.] This is part of a chapter where she talks about her experience with Mom. I’d like to read the last two paragraphs of her wonderful, inspirational words.
Ken: “This type of shift in mood is why it is so important for care providers to learn how to nurture and redirect anxious and agitated people by establishing rapport and cultivating an interactive atmosphere of trust and unconditional love and acceptance. One of the gifts of Alzheimer’s is the short-term memory. If the person is gently redirected, they will often forget their previous experience or event and come into the moment with their new activity. Mama Fern’s Alzheimer’s taught me that life doesn’t have to be over if we receive a bad diagnosis” That’s with any diagnosis, cancer, Alzheimer’s, anything. That’s me saying that.
Ken: “My new relationship with her afforded me new adventures and splendid simplicity such as not worrying about others’ perceptions, being more spontaneous, and being more alive and full of joy for each and every moment of the day. Also seeing things as if it were the first time, experiencing the excitement you feel upon each and every new discovery and everyday experiences that you might have taken for granted before. Mama Fern would see, feel, and hear things we overlooked. In a bucket of garbage, she would discover delightful things after just picking something up, examining it, and processing it. Just like a compact holder held delight for her as she would try to tear it apart to see how it was made, the most mundane detail for us was a brilliant new discovery for her. It was such a gift, a delight, to be with her and watch her discovering something new each and every moment, sort of like a two-year-old, a three-year-old. They’re so fascinating to watch because they’re so curious. Thank you, Mama Fern, for the gifts of living in the moment, cherishing every moment, and loving life as if it were your first, last, and only.”
0:24:18.5 Barbara: Wow! So Mama Fern was your mother. Having gone through this whole thing with my mother and having to set my mother up and the stiff learning curve that any child goes through when you’re helping your mother who doesn’t have Alzheimer’s, it was stressful. What was it about your mother that started you to wonder if she was suffering from Alzheimer’s? I thought that they can’t really diagnose it as Alzheimer’s, or can they? Am I wrong on that?
Ken: It depends on which neurologist or which doctor you talk to I don’t really think that there’s any one specific MRI or anything that could do that because also, I believe that some people, like Raun Kaufman with autism, his story was depicted in a very popular television show, I think it was in 1979, called “Son-Rise.” He was severely autistic, had many behaviors. The parents took him all over the country to find a school to help him, and every school they found not only their experience with him, but the other people in that school would have worse behaviors after they attended school than before. So they sat down in their own living room. Raun liked to spin plates. They would sit down and spin plates with him; they entered his world.
Ken: Therefore they were able to forge a bond, because they valued him and accepted him unconditionally, established rapport, and he started to slowly enter our world, the world of society. He further was able to heal his autism, and that’s very controversial. But there’s science to back it up, the psychiatrist and psychologist who saw him. He was able to do it, and he’s the director of the Autism Treatment Center of America. But there are people with Alzheimer’s to whom that happens, just like with multiple sclerosis, there are some cases where it’s arrested. I believe that Alzheimer’s itself, after doing research …
0:27:19.6 Ken: To back up a little, when taking care of my mom, I saw a lot of characteristics similar to those in people with autism I’ve worked with for forty-plus years. When I started studying the science of the brain and the science of Alzheimer’s and autism, it’s personal, from all of my analysis and research, it’s only my opinion that most—not all—Alzheimer’s is due to long-term, chronic stress and constant emotional turmoil that floods the body with toxic cortisone and other toxic adrenalin types of neurotransmitters, and that and inflammation burn up the immune system, causing the body to attack itself. My mom had real severe rheumatoid arthritis, where all her fingers and toes started to cross each other and curl up. I think almost all autoimmune disease, whether it’s fibromyalgia, cancer, or whatever, is due to long-term, chronic stress and resistance.
Barbara: That makes a lot of sense to me. As I’ve looked at my mother, who has not only kept her wits about her, which is one archaic way of saying it, but has resisted the mainstream big pharma Western medicine pipeline. Granted, she had some prescription drug addiction, but she wouldn’t just jump and go to the doctor. I often wondered if the fact that my mother was so emotional—she was an adult in the ’40s, ’50s, and ’60s, when a woman was not supposed to be crying all the time, but she did anyway, and she was outspoken. And she had the attitude that life was going to take care of her, and it always did, very well. Even now we laugh that this is exactly what my mother would manifest. I don’t think she had the kind of stress that you’re talking about. Like you said, there’s not a particular MRI that you can take, but had she started forgetting things and a bunch of us had said, “Oh, you must be getting dementia, we’re going to prove you have that and define it as that,” who knows what definitions would have surrounded all that?
0:30:17.4 Ken: Another reason I think a lot of people get Alzheimer’s is that they never got the joy of life. They’ve never enjoyed life. Happiness is a choice, and some people have trouble with that. They see the world as a struggle, as misery. In many cases, Alzheimer’s is God’s or nature’s way of acting as a natural anesthetic. Before, my mom was very much a worrier. She tried to control people’s lives even when we were grown. She was very uptight. She couldn’t sit and look at clouds. After, Leslie and I would take her for rides and she would just look at clouds for 45 minutes and talk about how beautiful they are. She was so much more peaceful. Except for when people were trying to control her, like, when we would take her home or my sister took care of her or she went back to the nursing home or assisted living, she would have behaviors.
Ken: In one nursing home they took away her doll baby. That doll baby was her lifeline. She had refused to take medicine, and the LPN told the CMA to take her doll until she took her medicine—which is abuse. She hadn’t seen me. I was walking down the hall. And I had a fit. She started biting at them. Here’s a lady who never cursed in her life who was calling them names I’d never heard her say before. It was her life whenever she was uptight. But not with Leslie and me, she always was at peace with us, because we allowed her to be herself. We would take her for rides every weekend, and like I said, places she had never seen. One time we took her to a park and she was so appreciative. She said, “Oh, you took me to California!”
Ken: It was a blessing, because she was so much more relaxed when she had Alzheimer’s than she ever was before.
Barbara: Wow! Plus she could go to California!
0:32:44.0 Ken: At first I went through all the stages of loss that Elizabeth Kübler-Ross talks about, the anger, the bargaining. And at the end, I found acceptance, and once I made peace—that’s so important in any diagnosis, especially terminal diagnoses—once you make peace with it, you can see the gifts. When my mom died, I went through the loss of two mothers, the one who was very controlling, a worrier, who was very nervous and uptight, and the last mom who was so child-like, like the beautiful, inspirational passage that Leslie wrote. Life is good if we get out of our own way.
Ken: You had mentioned about synchronicities earlier. Leslie and I are starting to see where almost every 10 minutes we talk about something, and then we turn on the television and they’re talking about it. You pick up a book, and whatever the last question you had was, the answer is there. Life is for us if we get out of our own way.
Barbara: I think there’s an uptick in it. I can’t tell if it’s because I’ve come through something or because we’re all going through it together.
Ken: I think it’s an acceleration of energy, everything. So many people are unconscious. Thanks so much for all your Einsteinian work, because as I talk about in Beliefology, we all have been so unconscious, and just now we’re opening our eyes to the beauty of the world, how life supports us at every turn if we just get out of our own way.
0:34:37.1 Barbara: I don’t want to go into any detail about my sister, but she did that. She got out of her own way and synchronicity brought a series of events that led her exactly to where she needed to go to get to that joy. The question I had asked, for those listening, was that my sister’s son was brutally murdered and of course, what a horrible, horrible thing! How do you bring joy to it?
Barbara: Let’s go to Beliefology. I looked for my copy that I’m sure you signed, but I couldn’t find it, which is fine. I’ve downsized several times since then. But I do remember very clearly writing to you and saying, “Oh, my gosh! This is so Einsteinian!” or however I said it. And then I don’t remember how I got to you again.
Ken: It came out in 1997. Because back in the ’80s, Leslie and I moved from Dayton, Ohio, to Fort Lauderdale. There were many, many people all throughout south Florida hungry for this information. The timing was great. What led me to my inspirational path was, I was born with severe learning disabilities, I had aphasia also. I could not fluently express myself until I was in the fourth grade. Ironically enough, later on, much of my career I was paid well for talking and communicating. Life is so fascinating.
0:36:42.0 Ken: I had a massive inferiority complex and an alcohol addiction. When I was 19 years old, Spirit led me to an institution. I didn’t even know what it was. In fact, I was pretty high the first time I went. It was originally a sanitarium for people with tuberculosis. I walked up and they said, “You must be here to volunteer.” There were children there I never knew existed. I ended up volunteering in there for, like, 70 hours a week. It was like I had a purpose. I let go of the things that weren’t that good influences on me. I stopped drinking. I started to pick up and read every book I could about self-help, about psychology, the power of positive thinking. Suddenly I ran into the Seth material. I’ve always been a curious person, and the Seth material put all those pieces into a cohesive, comprehensive understanding of how we create our reality.
Ken: As I traveled the country doing Seth seminars, many of my students had people, family members, people at work they couldn’t share the Seth material with. The wanted a book that would explain things like what we call love and attraction and how we create our reality. As Seth coined so famously, as Jane Roberts wrote back in the ’60s, “You create your reality, and the point of the power is in the present.” They wanted something that didn’t have all of what regular people thought was “ooga-booga.” So I came out with the book Beliefology: Raise Your Consciousness to Wealth, Health & Happiness! And talk about how your life reflects your beliefs! Change your beliefs, transform your life. Our beliefs are like magnets, just like a garage door opener. People can believe that that little gadget can open the door or the remote can control the TV, but so many people have trouble thinking that you attract everything, 100% of things in your life, according to your beliefs and emotions and ideas.
0:39:14.7 Barbara: I think people often don’t think that at least from our Einstein model here that the universe is flowing out of us, through our bodies, which is the projector and perceptor of the universe.
Ken: Like the television, the radio stations. You have all those electromagnetic data that have to have the TV, just like the computer. We are the terminals or the computers for our inner self. In your introduction, you were so right. Everything physical has a non-physical counterpart. The physical is such a small part of what Seth calls the framework to inner reality.
Barbara: I ate up those Seth books when I was very young, too. I was always impressed by the science end of it. It seemed more scientific to me than it did spiritual.
Ken: For most people, though, it’s too cerebral. Orion and Abraham simplify it. What I’ve heard of your Einstein work is good because it’s a tandem of cerebral and emotional. Just stuff like manifesting money. It’s a currency, a feeling thing. With Seth sometimes it gets too intellectual. So many people get in their way with their intellect and don’t allow those feelings, which is what attracts reality. It was 2007—
Barbara: When your book came out?
Ken: The new edition. It originally came out in 1997. It sold like hotcakes. Oprah did not yet have that Secret that got a lot of people into the law of attraction. The timing on the first edition was great. But many people wanted it, and it was out of print. That’s why in 2007 I decided to do a second edition. Before the Internet and Facebook, I had many letters from people all over the world telling me how Beliefology changed their lives, and how it was so simple. They also liked how I talked about how especially because of the paternalistic, hierarchical God, how in society we have created God in our human image instead of feeling what Father-Mother God is. In Beliefology I go into our beliefs that we’ve been taught about God. It’s very important for us to develop our own personal relationship with the God of our beliefs, the Christ-consciousness that I think is more than just for Christians.
0:42:48.6 Barbara: Yes. In our map Compassion is the fifth fundamental force of the universe. Everything overlaps there as well. So much overlapping in that system. And I can see why people—I often feel the Einstein work is too complex. I want something simpler, which is why we did ConRev 101, very basic, parboiled-down to the basic, basic stuff. It’s the theory of everything, the maps of the entire universe and how matter is manifest. It’s a lot of information. How much don’t we need to get to the average person?
Ken: It surely is. The sciences and data stuff—who wrote the wonderful, beautiful thing, speaking of politics?
Leslie: Lissa Rankin.
Ken: My favorite doctor. Everyone should read Mind Over Medicine: Scientific Proof That You Can Heal Yourself. And the doctor Peter Whitehouse, I’d like to read, if you don’t mind, his endorsement for The Gifts of Autism & Alzheimer’s.
0:44:18.8 Ken: Peter Whitehouse is an M.D., a neurologist, a cognitive scientist, an internationally recognized expert on Alzheimer’s, and this shows how he bravely and courageously takes on the pharmaceutical companies in almost every lecture, no matter what country or what book. I’m sure he’s is not a dear friend of the pharmaceutical companies. This is the endorsement he wrote for my book: “A revolution is underway, and this book is an exciting part of it. Positive human stories are a powerful response to the negative words that our unhealthy medicine and unthinking science try to label us with as our brains and our bodies age. Anecdotes, hidden powerful individual narratives, are the antidote to the poisons of pharmaceutical profits. True hope lies in community and caring, not in the hype and false hope of molecules and money.”
Barbara: Yup! That hits my sweet spot. I am so much a proponent of mind over medicine, and so far, so good. I haven’t been hit with some catastrophic thing, but every time I think, “I should go to the doctor and get some medicine,” then I respond, “No. My spirit will guide me to what I need to do to heal this.” So far, so good.
Ken: Leslie’s title is one of my favorite titles of any book, Leslie’s and the people she translates for, the collective consciousness known as Orion. As that wonderful book says, Trust & Allow the Process of Life In-Joy!
Barbara: And as I found out last month and even stated when we were talking, I was a skeptical person. There’s a part of me that resists the idea that there are times when you cannot be in joy, you just cannot. When you’ve just found out your son was stabbed 31 times on his front steps, you can’t be in joy. But yes, I have to say, after what I’ve seen happen over the past month, you can be so appreciative and excited and in the moment, like you’ve been talking about, the present moment, the miraculous moment when a mysterious force is creating this body and letting me send the universe out and bring it back to perceive it. That alone, regardless of what’s going on, is so miraculous that it changes your relationship to what’s going on. In that way you can bring change to what’s going on if it’s not joyful, or you detach from the physical world as the primary reality and go into the non-physical of eternal, unending energy.
0:47:56.9 Ken: Do you have a play you wrote about your experience with the fellow with autism, Nick?
Barbara: It’s a movie. The parts of it that are how I describe autism in the movie are based on some of my assumptions. For example, there’s a scene in the movie where Rose, who is the woman whose dreams he put himself into as they were growing up, and then they finally met—she’s walking through a forest at twilight and she’s hearing what he hears or would hear if he didn’t have his own way to filter it. Like the bugs eating the bottom of the leaves, the dew turning on the plants. She had supersonic hearing that was him showing her what it feels like to have all of this input with no filters. But it also depicts, as you said, that this is a gift. It’s not something to be cured in that sense, but from what you said about the man who went on to get a hold of himself—
Ken: Raun Kaufman.
Barbara:—it’s not a genetically—of course, I don’t believe that we can’t change genetics, even. If it’s all coming from within us—
Ken: Yes. My current research for my next book is Neuroplasticity and Epigenetics: Let’s Stop Scaring Ourselves to Death. Oh, that epigenetics! For you in the audience, Google “epigenetics” or “Joe Dispenza.” In Change the Habit of Being Yourself, he talks a lot about epigenetics. And Bruce Lipton talks about epigenetics, about how we create the genes, not the other way around, how consciousness presupposes matter. I would love for you to write a book on your experience channeling the autistic young man, expressing some of his feelings and thoughts.
0:50:47.3 Barbara: What was most wonderful for me was, after the sessions we had and having her cry and say, “All this time it’s been him, and now I can go on,” they ended up—she was not living in a good place for them, and she was getting on in years. She ended up moving him to more of a group home setting where she was able to get some relief from her responsibilities as well. It was beautiful. Now I know I can channel living people who happen to be autistic. OK. (laughs)
Ken: It’s was like that with Alzheimer’s, too, because they’re still there. I’m looking forward to you reading, if you would like at some point, I know you’re very busy, in chapter 8 in this book, it’s “Is Anyone In There?” So many doctors and scientists think it’s parts of the brain, like the hippocampus, where your memory is, that the afterlife experience, or when you die and come back, that that is a biological sensation and repercussion. I’d be interested in having your feedback and Einstein’s feedback on that chapter because this is important. This is a part of their spiritual evolutionary growth of Alzheimer’s. In my mom, you could see her explore other realities, and then she would come back to this reality. She wouldn’t know who I was or anybody else, she’d think I was her brother, and she’d always see her father. And the next week all of a sudden she’d be very lucid.
0:53:00.0 Ken: I think Orion said Alzheimer’s is kind of like if you can imagine a DVD with all the tracks, and they just shift from track to track. We took my mom for a ride one time, she took us to the street where she had lived when she first came to Dayton, and over a three-day period she named all those people, she talked about all these people she had known in school when she lived there. She flipped back to that track on that DVD. I don’t know if it was after her death or right before, we found a scrapbook with all those people she had named, they actually existed in the late ’40s.
Ken: And this was a person who did not even recognize us. So all of that’s in there. It’s not gone. Anybody listening to this or listening to or reading the files that I’m sure we’ll share, don’t put your loved one in a nursing home unless you just can’t take care of them, and if you do, go see them! So many people in my research put loved ones in a nursing home and they never saw them again because they said, “They won’t know. I would rather remember them the way they were.” And they miss such a wonderful part of this purposeful process that’s a part of life. So many people discovered what I did, that there is life after the Alzheimer’s diagnosis, not just for the people with Alzheimer’s, but also for the loved ones and the caretakers. There’s a gift there that can also help them in their life to learn mindfulness. That’s the biggest thing that my mom taught Leslie and me: mindfulness. Being in the moment.
Barbara: It’s interesting you bring that up. That was my other experience with Alzheimer’s. It was in 1994 when I was first channeling groups and realizing that I could communicate with people who had passed on. My friend said, “My mother is deep into an Alzheimer’s coma,” whatever they call it, and whoosh! She appeared to me like a dead person. We started talking, and she said things like, “I want my blue blanket.” And my friend said, “Oh, my gosh, she wasn’t allowed to bring her favorite blue electric blanket to the nursing home.” She wanted her hot tub. Like you said, the family had stopped visiting her. She was just a vegetable. It led to a renewed interest in her family coming to see her. They eventually moved her out of that nursing home because they found out they weren’t treating her well, and they got her in a better place.
0:56:29.0 Barbara: That confirmed the idea I have about Alzheimer’s and dementia, like you have said in your book, that it’s a protection, in a way, of aging, but also it’s a way to see other realms. I don’t know about you, but I’m always exploring in the non-physical.
Ken: One of your initial questions was when we first saw signs. When she was in assisted living, Leslie would bring pictures of our vacations, and she would see animals or children that weren’t in the pictures. But then how do we know? And she’d look out the window when we’d go up our drive and she’d say, “Isn’t that a beautiful dress that little girl’s got on?” And Leslie and I started to think, “She is actually tapping into other frequencies, other probable realities that are actually there.” It’s amazing. There’s a chapter I wrote about the extraordinary gifts of autism and Alzheimer’s, about people with autism, savants, like the one guy, he’s an autistic savant like Rain Man, and he would go over Paris or New York in a helicopter, get back to his studio, and draw the skyline exactly, without missing a building or a window.
Barbara: Wow! I’ve been appearing on a radio show, “Mack Maloney’s Military X-Files.” They have all sorts of fascinating stories. We were talking about remote viewing. Psychics have a specialty, what they do naturally. For whatever reason, my psychic gifts were married to Einstein, which is great. I don’t think I could do that kind of accurate remote viewing, but that’s what he’s doing. He could go to work for the military.
Ken: Leslie wrote me a note here that I should mention about the time in the hospital when she looked out the window and she said, “Oh, there’s Russia!” and she started to name cities and places in Russia that I don’t think she knew physically in her non-Alzheimer body and brain. The human mind is amazing. We scientists and metaphysicians like ourselves haven’t scratched the surface of the mind-body-spirit connection.
Barbara: And we are just barely understanding the structure of how matter is manifest. I personally happen to think that this body of work I’ve done for Einstein is pretty complete, but even with E=mc squared, it took decades before people would recognize what Einstein had done. I was telling the story on that radio show about the time in 1983 when I was living in kind of a haunted house on Madeline Island. The owner had left and asked me not to let anybody come and party in the house. I woke up in the middle of the night to a big party. I was going to tell everyone to leave, and as I opened the door from my bedroom to go downstairs, there was no one there. This happened three times, until I just willed myself to go to sleep amidst the party.
1:00:22.4 Barbara: Then in 1994 I was married in that house. I had an abreaction the night of my wedding, of listening in the same room I had been in to the party and going back to 1983. That opens up questions about, like you’re saying, the amazing body-mind-spirit connection and also, how is it that there’s a wormhole through time where I can hear 1994?
Barbara: And I don’t know what the answer is, but that’s what I believe happened.
Ken: Seth talks about the multi-dimensional reality we all live in, how all time is simultaneous. I love stories like you just told. They’re fascinating and thought-provoking.
Barbara: I want you to talk once again about your new book.
Ken:Neuroplasticity and Epigenetics. Neuroplasticity is how we can rewire our brain and our whole neurological physical biology. Epigenetics is about how we turn on some genes and turn off some genes by our beliefs and our lifestyle. That’s why there are families where many people are very severely diabetic, but one or two aren’t, and that is because of their lifestyle, their belief system, their emotional demeanor. Attitude is everything. They turn off those propensities of genes and chromosomes that have a probability of leading to becoming diabetic and affecting your pancreas. It’s so much about your beliefs. That’s why Bruce Lipton, who wrote The Biology of Belief, talks about epigenetics. The rest of the title is Let’s Stop Scaring Ourselves to Death.
Barbara: (laughs) I love that!
Ken: Because we do such damage, including me. I picked up a lot of the worry characteristics from my mom. Orion talks about learning how to change our habitual responses, our habitual emotional responses, how to get in touch with that. And Joe Dispenza, with the wonderful title of his book, Changing The Habit of Being Yourself, because we’re habitual creatures. That is the toughest job, the essential prerequisites to being a deliberate creator, creating the life of your choice, or allowing it. It happens when you get into a partnership between your physical ego self and enhance that partnership with your inner oversoul self.
Barbara: Yup. We call it aligning to Compassion, where the whole system is operating just as it was designed to do, where Emotions are flowing, and as they flow, they bring the voice of Intuition, which is the voice of Compassion, and they hit the Intellect and they get defined in some way. That I think is the place where we start to redefine. We’ve been taught to define Emotion in such a way that people limit it and suppress it, which is part of inflammation and illness. But when we can start to marry even the worst-appearing emotions of anger or sadness to a deep, regenerative definition, this is the beautiful, passionate part of you! Let it flow! Take a breath!
Ken: Energy emotion, the energy in motion, and where the mind goes, energy flows.
Barbara: Our time is up. Thank you so much, Ken and Leslie!
Ken: Oh, absolutely! Thank you for all of your work. Your work with autism has totally fascinated me. I’ll want more. You haven’t quenched my thirst yet.
Barbara: (laughs) OK. I’ll pull out my treatment for the screenplay and send it to you. I had thought this morning that we would do a channel, but I’ll forgo that for right now. Thank you, everyone, for coming. Next month I have an open slot. I don’t know who will be with us, but hopefully it’ll be someone at least half as fascinating as Ken and Leslie have been! Thank you so much.
Ken Routson is an author, speaker, consultant, life coach, workshop facilitator and is nationally recognized for his contributions in developing day programs and residential supports for people with disabilities, as well as for his popular sensitivity-training workshops for schools and social service agencies.
While taking care of his mother with Alzheimer’s, Ken noticed in her characteristics and behaviors like people with autism. Ken was very familiar with autism, as he has worked in the field of disabilities for over 35 years. Ken asked Nancy Reder, a retired registered nurse also from Dayton, to co-author the book, The Gifts of Autism and Alzheimer’s, a compilation of insights, observations, and inspiring personal stories by and about individuals with autism and Alzheimer’s.
After accepting the loss of his “original mother,” Ken fostered a different relationship with his “new mother.” The experience of caring for a parent with Alzheimer’s took him on a fascinating adventure exploring the gifts of autism and Alzheimer’s and inspired him to write the book.
Join us for an in-depth discussion about autism, Alzheimer’s and a new way to approach these difficult conditions.
Group will end with a channel from Einstein and the Party.
Good morning. It is Sunday, April 23rd, 2017. I am Barbara With. We are here with the Party. Partyof12.com is where you can find all things Einsteinian from beyond the grave, news from the Party of 12, and of course information about Conflict REVOLUTION, our imagined Einstein’s miraculous process for world peace, one person at a time, starting with you—or me. I’ll start with me, and you can start with you.
Today we are broadcasting from Denver, Colorado. I have several things I want to talk about before we get to our special guest today, my friend Leslie Stewart, a psychic channel and author of Trust and Allow the Process of Life, In-Joy! This is a book of knowledge that she has published from her talks with Orion, her collective voice of guidance. We’ll hear how she became a channel, and then I want to access her thoughts on some ideas about joy. I named this “The Politics of Joy,” because I myself am often a skeptic. When I get in my worst conditions, I am skeptical about joy, especially in these increasingly dangerous times. I think we can shed some light on how we can move through for our highest good.
I’ll also update about last month’s show. We had some very interesting revs, and I particularly have been having a wild ride through one that I named “Miscommunications and Assumptions.” As I predicted at the time, this revolution is going to be with me for a very long time. It’s quite similar to the revolution I had in 2002, where my sound bite was, “She is a liar,” which turned into “I am a liar,” which turned into sort of a mantra. We can so easily lie to ourselves, and we can so easily believe those lies. “Miscommunications and Assumptions” has already changed my life, and I’ll share about how I am making different decisions and how it is leading to very compassionate outcomes.
Earlier this week, Debbie sent me a link to a video of some old footage of Albert Einstein. It was so wonderful to see that video. (It’s posted on Partyof12.com.) We’ll listen to it, because I want you all to hear his voice. I don’t know what year they were recorded, but I encourage you to watch that video. I don’t know why it affected me, it’s not like I haven’t been channeling Einstein all these years, and I love Einstein, but when she sent that to me, what struck me so was his voice. The message is also important, but this is his voice:
“We should strive not to use violence in fighting for our cause, but by non-participation in anything we believe is evil. We are concerned not merely with the technical problem of securing and maintaining peace, but also with the important tasks of education and enlightenment. Without such freedom, there would have been no Shakespeare, no Goethe, no Newton, no Faraday, no Pasteur, and no Lister. [Science has provided the possibility of liberation for human beings from hard labor.] When the ideas of humanity are war and conquest, those tools become as dangerous as a razor in the hands of a child of three. We must not condemn man’s inventiveness and patient conquest of the forces of nature because they are being used wrongly. The fate of humanity is entirely dependent upon its moral development.”
“The fate of humanity is entirely dependent upon its moral development.” I brought this forward today first of all because when I started channeling in 1987, the voice that came through me had a very heavy, very particular, peculiar accent. Try as I would, I could never duplicate it when I wasn’t channeling. In 1994, after hearing a woman on television speak with the same accent, I found out that she was [speaking in] Yiddish. So OK, there’s one more reveal of Einstein. But that was several years before he stepped out and identified himself, in 1998.
So hearing this voice the other day was like that old voice. Since then, all of you who have been listening to me channel will agree that the voice has changed, it’s very much a collective of different voices. My voice is sometimes stronger; it’s not quite the same. But I got nostalgic when I heard that. And more importantly, listening to his voice from the past and hearing the things he said back then gave me chills, because these ideas we are working with here with our imagined Einstein are certainly a continuation of his words in life, his mission in life. That video brought home that he’s still a visionary. The last time I had a book signing here in Denver, a young woman, perhaps 20, came up, and said, “I love Albert Einstein!” He is enduring through the ages. Yesterday someone said, “I heard that video on Facebook.” So he’s getting around on his own, and I’m happy, because there’s so much that we can bring forward to help with the fate of humanity and its moral development.
Before I get into talking about “Miscommunications and Assumptions,” I want to let you know that I have been sneaking off and being on the radio. I found a blog that allowed me to apply, so to speak, to be a guest on radio shows. It was quite an extensive application. They sent it out to the nine categories that I picked, and I immediately began to get invitations to be on radio shows. I have done three or four; some have aired, some have not. I’ll get my website up to date. The one that is the most curious that I want us as our little group to follow specifically is Mack Maloney’s Military X-Files. It’s not just Mack Maloney but also his two co-hosts Juan-Juan and Commander Cobra. They broadcast on military networks online. They just picked up the Inception Radio Network in the UK that reaches about half a million people—a big reach.
These guys are hilarious. Mack is a published author, with many futuristic science fiction-fantasy books about saving the world. He also has a book entitled UFOs During Wartime, which I downloaded and have been reading. I’m fascinated by the research that has been done on sightings of UFOs during wartime and why they come at wartime. (I’ll post links.) I’ve been binge-listening to get up to date, because they’ve asked me to be a regular guest on the show. I’ve been on twice so far. One of the things they’ve been talking about is that Juan-Juan and Commander Cobra apparently have some conflict, and they need some help. So I’m looking forward to seeing what can be done when I next am on the show about exploring their conflict. I secretly think their conflict is quite dramatic, for the radio, but it’s interesting to have a triad of men.
And they talk like girls. They do. Now, they’re all men, and they’re military guys, so they don’t want their identities to be revealed because they are still in the military. I am in a small quandary about ending up—I know it’s no accident that I ended up here, but here we are with the war makers. They’re lovely, wonderful people. But they are the ones who pull the triggers. So that will be an interesting conversation for the future as we move forward.
I want to give you an update about “Miscommunications and Assumptions.” If you remember, I had had a conflict—and it doesn’t even matter what all the details are—where my sound bite was, “She is not communicating well, and she is making assumptions.” So of course I revolved that around to “I make assumptions,” and I immediately set to work to see where I make assumptions. It was a daunting observation because the world is based on assumptions. Once I started watching myself, I learned two very important things: I make assumptions all of the time, and mostly they’re wrong.
I had my conflict and got my revolution and started watching in Charleston, and then I went to New Orleans to meet one of my dearest friends, an integrity activist. She’s just lovely. I know she sometimes gets a little dramatic, so I thought, “I’ll go to New Orleans, I’ll get my own room.” We met the first night, and it was wonderful. We hadn’t seen each other in several years. We went on the ghost tour. She’s a ghost tour operator. We planned our next day. Her boyfriend had to go in the hospital and get some day surgery, but after that she was going to take me to a graveyard.
I texted her in the morning, and I never heard back. She never returned any of my texts. I had decided that, well, you never know. My mind started to say, “Maybe she’s codependent. Maybe she’s avoiding me”—all assumptions. I decided that this was important enough to be some kind of demonstration that I was not going to make assumptions. I had a beautiful day. I had to get up early the next day to go to the airport. And I never heard from her. She never answered any of my texts.
I got to Corpus, and I thought, “I’ll try her on Facebook.” She told me she had called me and texted me several times and was so sorry we couldn’t connect. This began a very intense observation process of me not making assumptions, because clearly there were no calls on my phone.
I opened myself up to the universe and said, “Show me what’s really going on. I’m not going to assume one thing.” And as I went about my day, in a typical ConRev fashion, where we ask to universe to show us, I started to get images. One was of her and me standing in the street in New Orleans and me showing her a text I had texted to her last summer when her phone was stolen that said, “Do you know whose phone you stole? We’re a bunch of witches! We’re going to cast spells!”
In the discovery process, it came to me: did I block her? Her phone had been stolen, and I had just written that text. Sure enough, I had had her blocked since August! That was a huge hit on my part of all the assumptions I had made for six months about my friend who never calls me back, who never texts me, does she not like me any more? The next part was that I was having trouble getting hold of my friend in Charleston with whom I’d had the conflict with the original sound bite about assumptions. I had called her, left a message, I wanted to highlight her on the show, and I never heard back from her. She finally emailed me and said, “My friend never got her reading link.” I said, “I’ve been calling her.” I gave her the number I called, and there was her voice, but it was a different number. It was confusing.
I assumed—I assumed!—that I had been hacked. I scrubbed my phone, and when I restored it, there were six months of messages from my friend in New Orleans. Six months! Text, messages! Every month, October, November, December. I was at Standing Rock. She was calling. I never returned her calls. What must she have assumed?
The moral of the story is to really pay attention to the assumptions we make. When we go into thinking, “I’m not going to have any assumptions, I’m just going to let the universe show me what the answer is before I confirm it,” you know when the truth is there. There was the truth. I had blocked her for months! A very powerful rev that will be with me forever. Now I say, “I’m pretty sure that—” “Oh! Am I making an assumption?” And it’s really changing my life. It’s changing how I respond to people. You know how you get when you assume that someone doesn’t like you, you get a little edgy? It’s reducing all of that and making my relationships and working through other conflicts I have much easier. It’s so much easier to get to the outcome that’s for the good of all.
So be careful what you assume!
To introduce Leslie, I want to tell you one more story.
I heard it on This American Life, called “In Defense of Ignorance.” If you know This American Life, you know that they take a topic and expand upon it in three or four acts with different substories. The substory was that the reporter, Lulu Wang, of Chinese descent, had found out that her 80-year-old grandmother, who lives in China, was diagnosed with stage four lung cancer. Apparently she only had three months to live. Lulu’s great-aunt, who lived below her grandmother and took care of her, made the decision not to tell Grandma the diagnosis. Lula was very upset with this. She felt like this was deception and that people should know and should be told so that they could get their affairs in order. But the great-aunt was very clear. “We are not telling her.” No one in the family was allowed to tell her.
They decided to hold a party for the whole huge extended family, to come to China and see Grandma Neenee for the last time. Neeneee’s first-born son had just gotten married in Japan. He had been planning to come to China in a year and have a big party to celebrate his marriage, so he moved that up a year. That was the excuse that they were giving for keeping this from Neenee. And not just keeping it, but the whole family’s coming, and they have to pretend that she doesn’t have only three months to live and that this is really a happy party to celebrate her son’s marriage.
Lulu flies over to the party. (You can listen to the whole episode.( It’s truly fascinating how the family dealt with having to be at this party pretending to be happy looking at Mom or Grandma and knowing she was going to pass away in just a few months.
The long and the short of it was, the Chinese have a belief called “chongxi,” meaning “to rinse out joy,” the belief that you can wash away pain and suffering with joy. During the course of this trip, Lulu discovers that Neenee had had a mastectomy and had been wearing a prosthetic breast, and she never told anybody, because she didn’t want to burden them with the worry. That was the whole idea behind the lie they were telling her: that they weren’t going to burden her, especially if she was sick, with the worry. If it was to happen, it would. To give away the end of the story, Neenee’s still alive, three years later. Apparently at her last checkup, she got the same diagnosis, and her sister, Lulu’s great-aunt, decided to tell her that had she lost the findings, but they were the same as last time.
I’m glad we have a doctor in the audience, because my philosophy has always been that if you don’t tell me that I’m sick and then define what will happen, I have a better chance of manifesting a different outcome. Hearing this story was enlightening. It was all about the idea of “chongxi,” that joy can wash away misfortune.
This is probably a good time to introduce my friend Leslie Stewart, who is in Ohio today. We’ll talk about her book, which I had the honor of helping her with. Good morning, Leslie! Welcome to our show!
Leslie: Good morning, Barbara, how are you?
Barbara: I’m excellent.
Leslie: I love the story you just spoke of. In many ways, that’s how I’ve lived my life, through what some people would say is ignoring diagnosis, ignoring the outcome of something that could be tragic. I reframe it, put it in my framework where I believe that what is best for myself is looking at things in a positive manner. If someone gives me a diagnosis of something, I process it and I let it go through me, and then I say, “But this doesn’t have to own me.” I’m putting ownership and responsibility on myself as to how I see myself processing all of it.
Barbara: That is so insightful. I have to say that when I was working on your book with you, I was getting a little frustrated because I’ve been working on conflict, and it’s almost the opposite, where when you have to go into a conflict you don’t want to be ignorant of certain things. But from what I see in your writing and from listening to your channeling from the website and reading your Facebook posts, you are always very positive. Orion always seems to be in joy. I’m so enamored of that.
0:22:38.1 Leslie: Yes. Orion teaches that above and beyond all else, always be true to yourself. If you’re being true to yourself, no matter what that is, whatever is true for you, make that your M.O. If I’m being true to myself and being positive is being true to myself, then so be it. If you’re one who is involved with other things outside of self, whether it be politics, medicine, whatever it is, being true to yourself in that realm of your experience is what’s important. And it doesn’t matter to me or to anyone else how you deal with it as long as you feel that it is coming from your heart space, from who you believe to be you. That is the message that Orion’s always giving out. Be true to yourself. However you come into that, own it and be it.
Barbara: That would answer the next question I had! (laughs) You must be psychic! Lately, I would say since we’ve been doing this Re-boot, I have experienced more real joy than I’ve had maybe ever. There are some days when I am so happy, it’s like I’m ADHD with happiness. It’s not because of an external circumstance, because there certainly still are all the external circumstances that are threatening the world that Einstein is concerned about. But like you said, it comes because I am being true to myself. I didn’t frame it that way, but it was about being so darn happy because I am true to myself. I live a life in which I strive to be. It changes your relationship to everything, good or bad, that’s happening outside of you.
Leslie: It really does. Oftentimes I can find myself getting caught up in what’s happening on the outside. Then I have to bring myself back into that space and ask, “What do I want here? I am reacting to something outside of myself. How will I deal with this?” I can either get into being wrapped up and caught up in all of that negativity outside of myself, or I can bring myself back into that space where I believe I can find the truth within me, the truth of reconnection, however I want to reconnect, to that which gives me joy.
0:26:17.8 Leslie: Oftentimes I’ll find myself reconnecting with nature, because nature always brings me back into a space of joy, whether it be taking a beautiful walk and enjoying the beautiful blooms and the trees and the flowers, listening to water lap up against a shore—whatever it is that can bring me back into that place where I can find peace and joy. That’s where I go. Then I cannot allow all of the stuff going on outside of myself to interfere with that joyful place. Sometimes it does take practice to get there.
Barbara: How would you define “joy”?
Leslie: Being at peace with wherever you are and whatever gets you that joy, whatever gives you happiness, whatever gives you that peace or tranquility. It’s an individual thing. Everyone has their own concept and belief about what joy is. For me, it’s a place where I find complete and utter elation, ecstasy, bliss. That’s what it is for me.
Barbara: Do you ever experience what I would metaphorically call “survivor’s guilt”? Not you personally as much as the question I have about being joyful. In the activist community, in which I was very, very engaged for several years, we had a saying. We were running ourselves ragged, making ourselves sick, trying to fight the rise of fascism within our government. It was exhausting and depleting and depressing. None of us got much sleep. The saying was, “Sleep is for those with rights.” I am still a bit conflicted. I have not found a place completely where I can say, “Oh, yes, I’m so happy to be finding my bliss,” as I know that other people are suffering.
0:28:58.9 Leslie: I understand what you’re talking about, because I am very empathetic as well as far as what’s going on in the world, all the things that most people call injustices. But the more that you find that you’re pushing against something, the more you’re saying, “This is not right, I have to fight,” it’ll just make it bigger and bigger rather than stepping away from it and saying, “It’s going to work out. It really is going to unfold.” Those who are interested in the fight, in bringing justice to the forefront, and I do applaud those who are doing what they believe is being true to themselves, for myself, I find that if I’m pushing against something, it puts you into a place where you’re not feeling very good about you or anything around you or what’s going on in the world. It all seems to unfair.
Leslie: How do I, a person living here on the planet who sees all this going on, accept that I don’t have to be a part of that which is fighting, but I can be the one who is being peace, living peace, trusting that if I live and breathe and know in my heart of hearts that if I feel that peace is the answer, if joy is the answer, if being happy, being full of all of those things that I know are at the core of each and every person on the planet, that if I can see that every person really is wanting to be in touch with that place of joy, with that place of peace, however they can come to terms with that and feel it and know that it is truly at the core of their being, that how ever they want to participate with life, it is their choice?
0:31:35.3 Leslie: For me, when I find myself getting caught up in any sort of politics or anything that I believe is an injustice, it depletes my energy and makes me feel alone and lost and angry. Those are things that I don’t want to allow into my being because I want to feel alive and happy. If I’m doing that, if I’m being true to myself, I have to reframe those things that I feel are injustices and know that in each individual at the core of the self, there is indeed that place of peace. So I have to say to myself, “To be peaceful I must live peace. To be joyful, I must live joy.” And so on.
Barbara: So you’re saying that it’s almost our duty—again metaphorically—if we want to influence the rest of the world, saying, the bombing in Syria, which was heartbreaking, and bombing anywhere breaks my heart, even though I have high metaphysical ideals, it’s hard for me to think, “Those people are choosing to have their children killed by chemical weapons.” But like you said, the bigger challenge of what my belief system is on a bigger scale means that it’s almost my duty to be that peace, to hold that peaceful space, to not buy into as horrible as I’m sure that experience is so that they can maybe have a chance that supports them spiritually or energetically much more than if I get into the fray and I’m judging. It doesn’t mean I can’t feel their pain or have empathy for them, but it’s much more powerful if we can stay in our peace and in our joy and hold that space and make our energetic space that way. That makes sense to me.
0:34:07.1 Barbara: I have a question I’m asking for my sister who isn’t here and didn’t ask me to ask it, but I wonder about—she lost her only son and only child to a brutal murder. I have been with her helping and we’ve been talking to him from beyond the grave and she’s been rebuilding her life. That was in 2012, so it’s been five years. Through that time she has questioned, “How do you find joy and happiness and meaning in life when something so terribly tragic takes place?”
Leslie: Indeed. And she through you she already knows that he is with her and he is now being more at peace than what he was when he was living on the earth plane. He is now more being peace and enjoying peace. There was a part of him that had a lot of confusion with life. He was a happy-go-lucky guy, but there was still some confusion as to how he wanted to participate in changing the world, changing his own reality. To change his reality, he did change it in a drastic way, and it brought a lot of attention to his being. In bringing that attention to who he is and who he continues to be now is much different than where he was before. Now he is a pioneer in a way of how he brought about lots of change within the whole family dynamic, people talking more, having open conversation about people being murdered, about the crimes.
0:36:31.8 Leslie: It brought a lot of attention also in a positive way where people can see that even through his experience of bring that attention and that spotlight on how he lived his life, it is indeed changing people along his path, even still, even now. There is lots more openness and communication than there was before. He is bringing lots of wonderful things to the forefront through that experience.
Barbara: It’s very, very true. Our entire family dynamic changed greatly to be much more loving and compassionate—not that we still don’t, we four sisters, have our squabbles. She has changed and is still changing. Again, it seems to get back to, it challenges our belief system of life, which is maybe why she was telling me a while back that she’s searching for the meaning of life. I kept thinking, isn’t it what we make it? Isn’t it what—we get to decide what our life means, so that’s very true. I’m excited about moving forward with hopefully more healing.
Barbara: In your book, you cover a lot of different topics. Tell us how you came to be a psychic channel.
Leslie: I remember at a very early age having very extreme dreams. Oftentimes I would wake up and wonder, “Who were the people in that dream? Why was it so intense? How does it affect who I am right now?” That started me on this search of reincarnation and Ruth Montgomery and Edgar Cayce. It snowballed from there. It opened up many doors and many things that felt that they were true to me. As I was doing my self-discovery work, I was sitting in a beautiful little hotel in Cocoa Beach, Florida, near the Cape, and Ken, my spiritual partner, and I were reading Ask and It Is Given by Esther Hicks. She translates for Abraham. Ken asked me, “What would you like to do? What is it you see yourself doing?” I said, “I really would enjoy getting this message out to more people, by allowing myself to translate for a collective consciousness.”
Leslie: Being near the Cape, I launched my own rocket of desire that day, in 2005. I started meditating and journaling more frequently. I got automatic writing, and in that writing, as we all know, we need labels for things, so I asked them, “Who am I speaking to?” They said to me, “We are Orion.” I really didn’t know anything about Orion except that it was a beautiful constellation and I always enjoyed looking at the constellations as a young child. They said they were Orion. Over time, I felt such peace. When they’re with me, as they are right now, they are always giving me love and peace. Whenever anyone has any sort of reading or a session with Orion, when they walk away, they always say, “They exude love and peace.” That, I think, is a part of who Leslie is, and Leslie and Orion are interconnected, of course, as everyone is interconnected with their soul selves.
0:41:33.5 Leslie: Everyone has the potential to connect and have that intuitive ability. It’s just a matter of paying attention, listening to your inner guidance, that intuition that is always with you. A lot of times we just poo-poo it. We say, “I’m not sure why I’m thinking this or why I should do this, but what the hell? I’m just going to do it.” I go with it. That’s paying attention. Oftentimes you’ll find yourself synchronized with things that you are thinking about and want an answer to, and suddenly it seemingly just appears, but it’s you being guided by your own intuition. I think everyone has that potential and the ability to do that.
Barbara: Do you find your channeling to be more seamless consciousness than trance channel? I feel like they’ve been talking through you all morning.
Leslie: They have, yes.
Barbara: (laughs) Not to call them out on their shenanigans, but there they are. As you were describing them, I’m seeing a circle of souls gathered around, and I literally saw stars in a circle, as if the heavens had come down to create this circle with stars and that love emanating from it. It’s a very peaceful, loving, supportive energy that you bring.
0:43:33.9 Barbara: Because you’ve been channeling in giving us these answers, could we ask Orion—the question I’d like to ask is, of course, global. You may have answered it. When Einstein was on his deathbed, he and Bertrand Russell were working on their last manifesto. It was all about a plea for nations to find new ways to resolve their conflicts other than fighting. I believe this work of mine, of ours, has sprung from that. As I look at days going by and North Korea threatening with thermonuclear war and crazy Donald Trump—and believe me, I don’t blame him, because this is a system of war that has been ingrained probably since this civilization has come forward—as we look forward, can they give us some advice about how to approach these very real possibilities?
Leslie: It is a difficult situation for most people to get a handle on how we can deal with all of the warmongering that is going on throughout the planet. How do I as an individual become more inner-directed and stay in a place where I believe that I live in a safe universe? If I’m believing that I’m living in a safe universe, that in my reality, in my realm of understanding of my reality, how do I express and live in a place where I can continue to live in peace and joy and harmony? That again comes down to living it, being it, trusting that as I live my life with those beliefs, if I can live the life of peace and harmony and continue with spreading that to each individual at a time, whether it be just being in a store, smiling at someone, having a short conversation with someone, that person then goes to another person, they’re in a better place, feeling a little bit better about themselves, feeling a little kick in their heart, feeling that, “Life isn’t so bad. Life isn’t horrible.” That continues to snowball like the ripples in a pond. As you throw a stone into the pond, the ripples continue to grow and expand. So do love, joy, happiness. It has to start with each individual.
0:47:01.2 Leslie: If I’m going to live my life that way, I must believe that me being here on the planet at this time must mean something. If that means something to me, what do I want it to mean to me? What we want to share with everyone is that it starts with the individual. As it starts with the individual, it continues to grow and expand. It influences the world as a whole. The more of you who are with this teaching, with this belief that I as a human being on the planet right now, living my life, how do I want to live it? How do I want to express myself as this being right now?
Leslie: Being here, right now, all of you listening in as well, how do you want to express yourselves? How do you want to live your life? In fear? In a place where you’re allowing outside circumstances to interfere with your peace of mind? You can do that, if that gets you what makes you feel good. But we believe that there are more of you out there who want to see the world as coming together as a world that believes in diversity, that believes that there is indeed a powerful place where we can all join our hands and circle around and know that as we continue to grow and expand with our love and the acceptance of all, it does indeed conquer those things that feel like they are invading our peace.
Leslie: So rather than pushing and fighting, we see that it’s our expression and our wanting for all of you to be the best that you can be and to allow yourselves to continue with expressing and enjoying one another and enjoying each and every individual as an individual and knowing that in that individuality there are differences, and that is what makes the world go around. It’s all of everyone being an individual and allowing them to have their individuality and to not fight and to not argue, but to be understanding and really wanting to understand how other individuals see their lives, and to allow them to live it the way they want to. It doesn’t mean it has to interfere with the well-being of yourself.
0:50:23.1 Barbara: As you were talking, Orion, much like my nephew’s murder, I would not wish that kind of suffering on any human. I would not wish the suffering of North Korea dropping an atomic bomb on anyone. However, because it did happen, because he was murdered, as you so accurately described, love came from it. We could be—and I don’t speak for my sister, but anyone in that situation could be very resentful for the rest of one’s life for having your child taken from you. Is it possible that that’s similar to the macrocosm of all of these terrifying threats and possibilities that are pushing us more into understanding how important it is to love one another?
Leslie: Yes, indeed. That is why it is happening right now on the planet: for everyone to get that there are differences and there are many things that are going on outside of yourself that seem to be troubling and disturbing. But it doesn’t have to interfere with my own well-being. How do I continue with loving and living life when all of this destruction and war and hatred go on outside of myself? That is, again, bringing yourself back into, “What do I want? How do I want to see my reality? What is my pool looking like, my ripples of my life? How are they spreading out? What do I see those ripples? Where do I see those ripples going?” As you see the ripples of your life spreading forward, how do you want that to be? Love, self-acceptance, nurturing of self. There are so many people who are in need of nurturing, of self-nurturing, self-love, and nurturing each other. It is something that has been missing from quite some time in many people’s lives. Now more than ever, it’s important for you all to be more understanding and more nurturing and loving.
0:53:22.5 Barbara: Yes. I’m getting inspired by this conversation, because having been through deep activism and giving up my life for this resistance of a cause and then stepping back into this new service, for me, not that my channeling or my work is new, but I realized that what we’re doing, you and I and all of us who are practicing Conflict REVOLUTION and Cassandra bringing these ideas into her practice as a doctor and Debbie bringing them to the children, that these ripples you’re talking about extend very far. I thank you for those answers, because it reaffirms and says in a new way to me that we can only do so much in a day. I don’t mean to limit our energy, but it’s true. I can’t stop what happens in North Korea by going directly at it. I couldn’t stop what was happening in the Wisconsin legislature by going directly at it. Once I backed off and started to do all those things that you were talking about—self-nurturing, self-love, detaching from the struggle—then things started to manifest differently, in individuals coming together, not institutions.
Barbara: So while we couldn’t, for example, stop the mining bill, we could inspire thousands and thousands of people who live in our area to start to stand up and voice and make a difference and stand up for the water. It was quite a learning experience. I’m very grateful for you coming this morning and sharing your talents and your gifts and this information. I’m jazzed now to get out in the day! I’m going to go to the grocery store and be nice to people! (laughs) It sounds so silly, but it’s so fulfilling, to be kind and gentle.
Leslie: And thank you so much. It’s been a pleasure to be with you. We look forward to meeting up with you in the grocery store today.
Barbara: (laughs) And I’m excited, because I’ve asked your spiritual partner Ken to come on next month and talk about the blessings of autism and Alzheimer’s, the gifts, his book, and explore how your work and mine interface with people who are dealing with these kinds of amazing conditions in their physical bodies. But before we go, hold on, I see Debbie has a question.
Debbie: I don’t have a question, I just wanted to reiterate how inspirational and freeing you’ve been. Thank you for sharing your message so beautifully of being peace, being what we want to see outside of ourselves. That’s a huge message for us to have in our hearts. I want to thank you. And thank you, Barbara, you, too, are always an inspiration.
Barbara: Oh, thank you, Debbie, you, too! Debbie has worked very hard on Conflict REVOLUTION and was in fact a coach to me through some of my hardest times. I’m always grateful to see you here. Everyone else, thank you so much. We will be posting this on the website within the week and sharing it with you. So please have a nice day. And all you’ll have to do is watch and be amazed. Namaste.
Join us as we welcome author and psychic Leslie Stewart, who channels the collective known as Orion. We will be talking about her book, Trust and Allow the Process of Life, In-Joy and exploring the nature of joy, free will, and how to get out of the way and trust the flow.
Orion is a non-physical collective consciousness that speaks through Leslie. Instead of focusing on predictions, Orion instructs us on how we can create the life of our choice. Although Orion can provide us with future probabilities, they also give us insight on how our current beliefs and feelings have attracted past events.
And more importantly, Orion provides us with tools and inspiration that enable clients to transform their consciousness. By assisting us in understanding the law of attraction, they help us to raise our vibration—thus allowing us to attract more favorable events and experiences into our lives. Their tutelage can help to enhance our awareness and growth, and assist us in understanding the multidimensional beings that we are and reclaiming our authentic power.