The next in our continuing series on transcendence will be an in depth look at the energy of Emotion, its function and relationships to the other Human Dimensions, and practical ways to revolutionize your relationship and understanding of your own emotions in everyday living.
The next in our continuing series on transcendence will be an in depth look at the energy of Emotion, its function and relationships to the other Human Dimensions, and practical ways to revolutionize your relationship and understanding of your own emotions in everyday living.
BARBARA: It is April 26, 2020. Welcome to everyone who is present here right now. To those who in the future who will be listening later from whenever you are, I hope everyone is hanging in there in all this pandemanium.
I am blessedly in Lake Superior on Madeline Island. And while I, too, as Lily had said before we started, have been experiencing many deep emotions, I think we all have had those experience. I have to admit, my life is not greatly touched negatively by this right now. I recognize there are other people than me. But if I have to just talk about my personal life, I have so much wonderful fresh food and I’ve got a beautiful home and clean water. I have access to nature 24 hours a day, and I live in this great community. It’s springtime. I have a little bit of a cushion financially. So I’m not greatly affected by all this in that way.
But it’s still pushed me into getting involved in the community garden, which is also being outside and in nature and in the sun and doing all those things that are good for us. So I think more than ever I send out my prayers and my energy and my vision to those people who aren’t in the same boat. I know a while back I said something about us being in the same boat. But it’s really not. We’re all in the same storm and everybody’s in their own boat. All our boats are together but we’re having different experiences. So more than ever, I send out my prayers, I think we all do, to this beautiful world, and everybody and everything they’re going through, to really understand what it means to be truly connected to each other. I’m grateful for all of that.
I’m so grateful for Robin, who has many talents, one of which, besides womaning the technology, is that she is an astrologer. I have asked her today to speak a little bit about what’s going on in the stars and the planets during this unorthodox and unconventional time we’re going through. Robin, would you want to share that with us. Can you give us some insight into what’s going on up there?
ROBIN: Yes, Barbara, thank you, it would be my honor to. I also love the analogy we’re all on the same storm but not on the same boat. I’m going to remember that.
I have to go back a coupe of months to set the stage for the astrology. Astrologers for many, many years have been “oohing” and “aahing” about what the stars are going to look like in 2020. So for astrologers, seeing all this unfold is, “Wow, we were expecting something big, but we really didn’t know what it would look like.” In 2008, the planet Pluto, which is a very slow-moving planet, entered Capricorn right around the financial fall. Then it goes through a sign for 16 to 20 years, and it will be in Capricorn until 2024.
But what’s unique is about 2020 we have had a parade of other planets also enter Capricorn. Five of them aligned with Pluto at the exact degree on January 12, 2020. So I think of this as a progression or procession where Pluto has been slowly moving through Capricorn. Pluto is the transformer. Capricorn is a sign of structures. It rules the government. It rules societal structures, which in and off itself isn’t necessarily a bad thing. But when Pluto comes through a sign or a placement in the sky or in your particular chart, it is surely going to create transformation in the places that need it. Like Shiva.
So we really began some of this transition, this transformation, when Pluto first entered Capricorn. Then on January 12, 2020, Saturn was there. The Sun was there. And since then, Venus has come through, Mercury has come through. Mars has come through. Around March 19th, on the equinox actually, Jupiter came through. That was a very powerful day because Jupiter touched Pluto in Capricorn. What that brings is expansion and innovation and new ideas. I’m an evolutionary astrologer. I think all of you can relate to that. The idea is that there’s nothing inherently wrong; we’re all here evolving. Like our series, this time we’re evolving to transcendence.
Each [planet] is bringing its gifts with it. Jupiter is going to be going back and forth across Pluto for this entire year. Saturn went by it, but it’s going to come back and touch. Pluto went retrograde yesterday. So we’re going to be doing this very big dance all of this year. Then some of those planets are going to be moving into Aquarius. What this is doing for us is, it’s helping us learn what is essential, what needs to be transformed in our structures so that when Pluto does move into Aquarius, that’s really ushering in the Aquarian age that everybody’s been talking about for who knows how long. That’s the official start of the Aquarian age.
We want to have our values straight because Aquarius also rules artificial intelligence. We’re going to be moving into a time of significant advancement there. That’s really even going to step up quite a bit starting next year because Saturn will be going through Aquarius.
So I like to look at it as, yes, it’s going to be a very intense year, but if we take the viewpoint that we’re never given a challenge without also all the skills and gifts to move through it, I’m confident that we can look at this as an optimistic time.
So that’s the synopsis, and I’ll hand it back to you, Barbara.
BARBARA: Wow, that’s a lot of planets. I remember you telling me that they lined up in January and now here in April undergoing what we’re undergoing … wow, what a pull. And what could have done what this virus had has done so decisively and worldwide? There is so many layers of what’s going on here. Thank you, Robin, for that. I like to look up in the sky and of course I love anything to do with Aquarius, even though I know some of the trials and tribulations of Aquarius, like we all have but …
ROBIN: Let me say one thing about. You know that the highest octave of Aquarius, which we see in you, Barbara, is a humanitarianism. Aquarius rarely does things of just themselves. They often speak in “we” and they are visionaries. They’re the sign after Capricorn, which means there’s the wisdom of Capricorn already rolled all in there. So Aquarius is at the stage that says, “How do we take everything we’ve learned through all the signs before and make a difference for the human collective?” It’s a beautiful sign.
BARBARA: The virus gives it this dividing line. It’s , like “before virus” and “after virus,” someone was saying. As we’ll learn today I’m sure in the channel, the perspective that we take into the “after virus” is going to be all crucial to what what we create.
ROBIN: Exactly The transformation will happen.
BARBARA: It is.
ROBIN: And I think the more we go into it consciously and coming together in groups like these and doing our work, we can succeed.
BARBARA: We are succeeding. I’m very excited about all of it. Thank you Robin, I sure appreciate your sharing.
BARBARA: When I started channeling groups with Kim and Teresa all those many years ago, it took a couple of group channels to figure out that the Angels had their own agenda. Ever after, for the most part (with the exception of a few channels that I’ve specifically asked for) I’ve pretty much just been told: here’s the series, here’s the lessons that we want to teach, and the same was true with this week’s channel.
I looked out to my backyard and said, “So what flavor of transcendence will we be doing this week?” Without a hesitation I heard sacred. Sacred transcendence. I, of course, grabbed the dictionary and I started looking stuff up.
But just for a review, transcendence means two things: one is “to pass beyond our human limits,” and the other is “to experience ourselves above and independent of the physical world.” Our work on being transcendent is a pragmatic practice of learning to live in the world but not become a victim of it.
One meaning of the word sacred is “being dedicated or set apart for worship of a deity” — being dedicated or set apart for worship of a deity. Then worship lead me to “the reverent love and allegiance accorded a deity” as well as “the ceremony, prayers or rights by which that love is expressed.”
Then deity led me to divinity which lead me to divine, meaning “being or having the nature of a God; of relating to, emanating from or being the expression of a God; superhuman; supremely good.” Then I found this: divine as a verb: “to know by inspiration, intuition or reflection.
So it sounds to me like the Angels are trying to tell us something about ourselves. All of this is about self love. As I told the girls back in 1994, we are God. Transcendence is about acknowledging the power of the divine within us and each other, and creating a daily ritual that reminds us of this great power of love that we have been gifted with and that no one can take away from us but us. Without self love, what do you have to give to anyone else? You cannot give what you do not have.
So sacred transcendence then in essence is a ceremony of love that we do for ourselves and the planet that helps us pass beyond our human limitations to recognize our godhood and experience ourselves above and independent of the physical world. We are in the world but we’re not victims to it.
During this extraordinary situation we’re all finding ourselves in, more than ever we need this ceremony for love every day. We need to be reminding ourselves of our own godhood. It is the perfect time to strip away as many of our habits as possible to show us a new perspective. Whether we like it or not, we are all being changed and like everything, the quality of that change will depend on the quality of our relationship to ourselves. Our relationship to the material world is filtered through our own self love or lack thereof.
Sacred transcendence becomes a simple way to make sure that we’re maintaining the highest relationship to ourselves that we possibly can have. Quite simply that means, one, feeling and breathing all of our feelings; getting those wild horses of the intellect under control; creating new definitions of who we are and what’s happening around us; and finding the time and the stillness to listen to our intuition.
Now I’ve been hearing from different sources that stress and fear diminish our immune systems. That reminded me of the opening of Diaries [of a Psychic Sorority: Talking With the Angels] where the three of us put forth this idea and I just want to read these few paragraphs:
Just for a moment, allow yourself to toy with a possibility: What if our fear is actually causing the violence in the world, not the other way around? What if by healing our own inner fear we could actually heal the entire planet?
And what if the “angels,” talking so clearly through us, could guide us with step-by-step instructions for bringing peace into the world? Not just the global peace we all pray for, but the peace that begins within each of us.
For how can we bring peace to the planet if we can’t even settle the conflicts we have win our own mind?
So this fear that is rising within all of us, it’s natural, it’s normal, and I think we should welcome it. It’s a chance for us to empty our basements, as we say in Conflict REVOLUTION. To make sure that we do not repress emotion. But if you also think about that fear as our way to heal the planet, it’s our way to feel so deeply what everyone is feeling. You know that when you’re in emotion, you don’t see a lot of visual things. When you feel really deep into mourning, you lose track of the external world. So like Lily was saying before, she has these ups and downs. If we can just roll with them, we can actually be have a great influence on the world right now.
So this is a time to feel everything: cry if you need to, rage if you have to (don’t hurt anybody, including yourself). Go pound on some nails or stomp on some sidewalks. But redefine your emotion—so keep the emotion flowing, but also keep control over the Intellect. Keep control of those thoughts
Remember, channeling any emotion into a positive, powerful sacred thought fuels that thought into reality. So you don’t just need the “good” emotions to fuel the sacred thought. If you’re stomping on sidewalks, feeling and breathing a bunch of anger and thinking, “I release repressed emotions—I’m healing myself and the planet,” you’ll experience anger and process it much differently then if you keep thinking the degenerative, depressive thoughts that you are fueling with that fear.
If you can’t stop thinking those degenerative, depressive thoughts, step into your Witness and at least watch yourself. Watch yourself thinking those things. Observing yourself is the beginning of that change.
If there’s one thing that I could tell the world—funny thing about that—right now, it would be the importance of separating the Emotion from Intellect. Treat your Emotion and Intellect as differently as you would treat your heart and your stomach. Separate them. Deal with them as independent energies in this way that we’ve been teaching you for so long. That’s how we start to make these miracles. That’s how we start to influence what happens around us. It’s also what keeps us healthy and flowing, no matter what’s going on around us.
So maybe we can take this time to settle in, start to breathe.
We will command that only the most divine light shine down upon you at this time and the greatest good be present here.
We will add our voice of gratitude and thanks to all of you who are listening at whichever time you might be. We are broadcasting today on April 26, 2020 from a place of sheer joyful potential. This joy that we are feeling where we are has to do with a completely nonlinear definition of what the post virus world is.
Our nonlinear experience has always been that way—our communication with you and through Barbara and bridging the gap between the physical and the non physical—we have always been in that nonlinear place. But now you, more than ever, are as well. All of you are being forced to live in a state where the voices of culture that we’ve talked about for ad infinitum are so intensely wrapped up in fear.
This fear—even if you intellectually get the wild horses of your intellect—out-of-control horses—if you get them into alignment, this fear exists still, still in its deep, repressed format. The intention of understanding this is the transformation. It is about the transformation of the entire human species. We’ve been saying that for so long. It sounds, even not too long ago, grandiose. But now you can see on a very tactile level what it is that we’re referring to, of the entire human species. Each and every human on the planet at this time has a relationship to this new energy.
Those of you who have been nurturing your identity with the nonphysical; those of you who have been able to invite your own death into your consciousness and understand and face your death before it ever happens and embrace it; for those of you who believe in changing from within in order to manifest what changes from without: you have a little bit of a head start on even evolved people. But so much of humanity is not anywhere near where you are.
This time that you’re in is really being dictated by the Earth. [This change] is originating in the Source, in the center of the planet. This change that’s being manifest outside yourself as a virus, this is going to be felt in every single human because it is sourced in the center of the earth. But as you hear us talk again, this is how it always is. But this change that needs to happen is a collective from every human being that’s been on the planet, every incarnation of every human being that’s been on the planet. It’s like it’s its own little atomic bomb that went off without actually destroying the surface of the planet, destroying the trees and the waters (all of that is taking place, mind you).
So in this change the important steps that you’re taking right now cannot be stressed. We cannot stress enough to every individual within earshot of our voice that now more than ever, to accommodate these perspectives in yourself are going to be your guiding light. Never before has it ever been more true that if you choose to make decisions that are not for the good of the whole, that will lead to your destruction. To your own destruction.
On a practical level, if you desperately need to rest and your Intellect is not making decisions for the good of the whole and is ignoring your intuitive impelling to please get some rest, get some rest for the good of everything that’s going on, and you keep driving yourself—that’s not for the good of the whole. That’s what creates the repressed emotion. It’s what creates the weakened immunity, the stress. In that inner world, that’s what changes your outer world, when you practice this kind of perspective. By practicing this kind of perspective, that’s what changes your outer world.
That’s why we say that the condition of what you’re going to experience in this new world is totally going to be based on the condition of your experience of your relationship to yourself. The condition of your relationship with yourself. There are many other things that you can look at during this time. You can take classes. You can enjoy live music. You can catch up on old movies you’ve wanted to see. There’s all sorts of things out there that you can or can’t do during this time. But what you do inside right now will have such a profound affect upon your life and also this growing new world that you’re making.
We want to stress that, more than ever, this is a time to focus on being the love, on being the one who is generous, on being the one who is working for the good of all. This time to build those things is so profound. One of the reasons is because, whether you all know it or not, you’re more susceptible because of the lack of patterns and habits, because of the lack of customs and familiarity. That has opened up this vast amount of space and unsurety and that vacuum that gets created right before creation. Right during creation.
While you’re moving through all of this, the simplicity of taking one step, one step, one step … we can’t obviously stress that enough either, in terms of the importance of self love in the sacred transcendence. This sacred transcendence is you. It’s fitting, too, and apt with the Easter season. Coming awake and then realizing this is your job. This is your calling. This is your life. These are your thoughts, these are your senses, these are your feelings. These are your actions and decisions. That’s what should be coming first and foremost: the mastery over all of those things. Because once you align in that way and you’re running the system on that intuitive power—the power of your Emotion, which is attached to Compassion, your fifth fundamental force of the universe that brings the intelligence to create the entire universe—that is within you. it’s all starting within you.
To that end, back to the virus: it’s beginning within you as well. As Barbara had said, what if fear were actually causing the catastrophes of the world instead of your fear being because of? This is an opportunity for all of you to feel that—when you have this deep abundance of deep emotion without a lot of thought behind it. You’re just feeling, feeling and breathing. By releasing this fear, you are cleaning up the non-physical conflicts and repression. You’re helping to move the entire energy into this new creation. You’re doing this for your grandchildren and their grandchildren. Because that’s the way organically and miraculously and yet, synergistically, human beings are going to push passed the point of extinction.
In throwing yourselves up on the land as fish in order to become amphibious, you are doing the same thing now—the emotion around who makes it and who is able to breathe in in transforming the physical body from breathing in with [gills] to changing that into adapting and breathing into lungs so you can walk on land. How quickly did that adaptation take place? What we’re saying to you is that the state that all of you are in, you are already—you have these new lungs to breathe in. Now it’s just a matter of your own acceptance of your power.
Part of what we hope gets stripped away from this habitual thinking and voices of culture is this idea that money is somehow a greater power than anything else in the world. We understand that money can buy a lot of things. But money can’t buy a lot of things. In the end, it’s the things that money can’t buy that you’re going to end up with, not the things that money can buy. The importance of adapting to this new understanding of life including trading and bartering also includes, with those of you with an abundance of money, being able to help those who need money for particular things. Those of you with an abundance of time and talent can give that to particular people. This idea of the money-based society can be at least within you, at least within your value—not that you don’t have to live in it, but you don’t have to be of it. You don’t have to be a victim to it, using other agencies that you have to be able to manifest those things.
These are all the powers of this new human consciousness. And you’re living and breathing it. To us, that’s far, far, far more important than fame or having a great deal of money or having huge followings of people to distract from the work that we’re doing so intently here in the laboratory. This work we hope will go on for a very long time. But we have to admit that we, too, are exceptionally grateful for having Barbara’s voice for this time. We hope for many years ahead for collaborations but she is not the only one. We hope that through our work with her we can open up channels to other people who also can hear and can be influenced by the greatest good that we are presenting here.
In that sense, our mission is also expanding in this time when humans are facing everything. When you get in deep feeling, the physical world disappears. You know that if when you’re going through the very worst of some loss or tragedy or pain or mourning, the wave of emotion comes over you. Suddenly you don’t even see the world around you. That’s where we meet, is the clarity.
In an odd way, in the center of the earth, the source—before the physical world where it’s all mathematics and consciousness in the nonphysical—we are seeing more and more people like yourselves who are aware, while they still have a body, that they are also awake in the clarity! This is very exciting for us. Perhaps for all of you, too! You’re experiencing that same kind of opening in your personal lives, where people you have loved who have passed on are very much alive and active. There’s a lot of joy going on over here! Not because we celebrate the suffering of human beings, but because we’ve seen a lot of transformation in the whole history of the planet and human beings. We’ve seen a lot of things change, through wars and death camps—we’ve seen a lot happen on the planet. This is a culmination of bringing all that together to then see what’s going to happen here now in the this new, complete, utterly virgin flowerbed, garden plot of manifestation.
We hope, as we always do, that we can inspire you to take that sacredness about life very seriously these days. Search for pushing yourself passed your little human, limited self and into your Superhuman capacity. Understand that you redefine how you describe what is real and what is not. You redefine your life to be sacred.
That’s your choice. That’s your power. We’ve tried to lead you there. We are so honored to have you listening and thinking and working and doing in this way with us. So thank you so very much.
With all of that said, we would be willing to open at this time for questions and conversations.
ROBIN: Wonderful. Thank you, Barbara. Joanne did you have a question?
JOANNE: I don’t know if it’s a question. Yes. Some time ago—quite awhile ago—in one of the channels that Einstein did, he made mention of at one point, we would all have a magic box—Tesla—Tesla energy free-for-all kind of thing, that would power everything. I am so looking forward to that. Oil was trading at -$37 a barrel the other day, which is ridiculous, but it had to do with future contracts and so on. They quickly rectified that, so the next day it was trading at $4 a barrel. Our economy in Canada is really oil-based, a lot of it anyway. The entire province of Alberta is just gasping because that’s big there. The Tar Sands are a horrible, horrible place. There’s so much oil stored on the earth that’s already been taken out of the ground. Can you speak to any of that? How we’re going to get away from the fossil fuels, the damage they do, and into clean energy?
PARTY: Yes, part of the importance of what’s happening right now is that you’re seeing it. You’re seeing it happen before your eyes. You’re experiencing what would it be like if the fossil fuel era died. This is one of those evolutionary “fish throwing yourself up onto the land” type of moments. Let’s take a look at the Tar Sands and what made the Tar Sands.
Very much like Adolf Hitler had admonished us to understand that he couldn’t have done it alone, there’s a lot of people who participated in creating this—basically raping and pillaging. It’s a cancer is what it is. So you’re seeing the earth as a cell that is being ravaged by cancer. There are certain things that make cancer happen (we won’t go into the depth of what they are) but we could go back to this cancer of our environment to say that it took a lot of people, who drove trucks and worked in the facility. There is no judgment upon any of those people. Hopefully, we don’t judge any of the people who’ve done anything only for their own good. But yes, if you make decisions for the good of the few at the expense of the many, you create a cancer.
These people may or may not have felt like they had choices, if you’re a very poor person living in Alberta, and you can make a lot of money driving something for the oil company to feed your family—again, no judgment. But ultimately—and this is what you are all facing in your own lives—ultimately, now, when the fossil fuel era is drawing to a close, that there’s casualties from that change. There’s a lot of unemployment from that closing down of that. So there’s a lot of people—so think about that channel, this is a time of building anew. There are people who are being faced with this. Everybody has the same challenge. Some of your ships are better equipped than others of your ships, it’s true.
If you’re in a ship that’s well equipped, it doesn’t do you any good not to feel worthy of it or to beat yourself up because somebody else doesn’t have as nice of a ship as you do. Maybe you made decisions along the way that planned for that. Maybe it’s just the grace of god that you happen to be in a good place. Whatever it is, there are people who won’t be. They will have to reap the rewards and the down trodden experiences of those changes. Those people in those oil fields are some of them.
Yet, as everything begins to grow back, the Earth takes care of itself. It adapts to the loss of oil. It changes and becomes something just as organic only in a different fashion as it was. It takes time to heal some of the damage, but not nearly as much time as ever thought.
As humans begins to see themselves as the human cancer to the Earth, then that changes in deeper ways. Like we were saying, if you can’t stop the wild horses of your Intellect, at least step out into your Witness and watch them run. Observing them will change them. Understanding yourselves as the potential to be the cancer, you have a choice as to how you’re going to change that. Some will be very hard choices if you’re accustomed to what had been. For some people, it won’t hardly seem much of a difference.
But all of the other technology is there.
JOANNE: Thank you. Yes, I think a lot of the technologies been suppressed by the oil companies.
JOANNE: Yeah, so yes, I’m so looking forward to that.
ROBIN: Thank you, Joanne. I also have a question but I want to see if anyone else on the call would like to ask a question.
Thank you so much for that dissertation. I really appreciated how you described the repression of fear and how fear being the Source vs what we’re experiencing. I would like to be someone that offers support for others. You had mentioned that a lot of people aren’t in the same place. I’d like to be someone that helps continue on this work and this message and support others. So I’m curious if there’s any particular way in which we can do that, knowing the state of consciousness that they’ll be coming to us with. So any advice you have on that I would welcome.
PARTY: We would say that one of the most effective ways is to get up every day and put yourself into service to God. You do a sacred transcendence morning ceremony, where you’re going to recognize your deity. You’re going to push your human self past its limitations. For you, you know that means that living in alignment to Compassion is the ultimate condition. It’s not achieving something outside yourself. It’s your own commitment to aligning your own energy to Compassion, no matter what’s going on. That’s such a different focus than “hang out a shingle.”
Then when you get up and you’re putting yourself in service—“I want to be in service, how can I help, where can I help?”—all throughout the day there’s a little voice in the head that’s going, where can you help, how can you help, without having to be afraid that you’re going to give away everything because you’re codependent. That fear doesn’t have to be there because you’re relying on Intuition and you’re asking for direction from it. How can I really be of the best service here today? What can I do to be in the best service?
That’s just a rudimental level. There’s any other number of ways to help people without any formal structure by just being that “how can I be helpful.” When you get into a situation with somebody who is maybe in need … again, it doesn’t become, “Oh here I have to take care of you,” helpful in that old way where you would just take over doing something because it was co-dependent. You’re listening. You’re feeling and you’re listening to that person and their needs. You’re so taking care of yourself that you’re not giving away stuff that you don’t have to give away in a codependent fashion.
Instead the creativity is going, so you’re thinking, “if I don’t have that resource, do I know anybody who would have that resource,” for whatever level, whether it’s spiritual guidance … if it’s food … if it’s any possible need that somebody might be having or is looking for a resource for.
Living that way is going to lead you into those sacred directions. Directions that are the result of you being reverent and devoted to your self love. Directions that are going to influence how those needs get met for that person or for yourself. As far as the practical, tactile, (we’ve said this, too, for, many years) there is never a lack of places that and people who need help and assistance. Anywhere. As long as you’re open to wanting to help them, then you will be able to find your way into service.
ROBIN: Thank you so much. Joanne did you have another question?
JOANNE: I’m watching the news every day now. Everybody seems to be banking on the discovery of a vaccine as the way to finally overcome this. I’m not one of those people. I’m totally in agreement with fear is the cause, not the effect—it’s both, but it’s the cause. That’s totally along the lines of what I feel.
When you talked about the fish throwing itself up on the—that wonderful analogy that you talk about. That is exactly what is causing this problem. It’s that same mechanism in the body that the fish had, way back then. 0:52:55.9 [inaudible] to retain water until the next wave comes. That’s what causes pneumonia. That’s the one thing that causes the fluid build up in the lungs.
So it’s interesting to watch how all this is going on and how so many resources are being applied to protective equipment. People are literally killing themselves working in the medical field. They’re all rushing to form this vaccine. They’re all cooperating at least. That’s one thing we’re seeing—everybody is cooperating and sharing information.
I am curious to see how that’s going to play out. I’m hoping they are not going to make everybody get a vaccine that I don’t believe in. Any comments?
PARTY: It’s important to understand that everyone is going to have their relationship to this virus. It’s true, there are great many people who share the same view of what to do about this virus in the short term [pro-vaccination]. But everyone sees it through their filter.
There are those who see [staying at home orders] as a total disrespect of constitutional rights, so they take action because of that. There are those who see it as God’s punishment from some biblical proportion. If they think that is true, then God has blessed them for being in there [with Him]. There’s the doctors and the nurses on the front lines who see it as the very worst, truly, of what it is, for whatever reason that it is. There’s people like Barbara who aren’t necessarily personally affected by it, and to a greater extent than most, not affected by the isolation of it.
You will have to pick your relationship to it. One of those things is, you are not alone in the number of people who will not want to be mandatorily vaccinated. No matter how much the people who see it as something that needs to have an outside vaccination for think they are right—that you are somehow endangering them by not getting your vaccination—these are the issues that culture is going to be forced to deal with.
The mandatory may be resisted consciously by many. The system has to change to accommodate that. Either it gets more tyrannical, or it gets looser. Those are part of why we’re stressing the self love and pushing yourself into being a deity, and populating the planet with those who would help to manifest the dissolution of the fear for the natural, organic manifestation of the healing of the humans on the planet. Because you’ll see. The planet will heal without the humans. We’re about healing the planet with the humans on it. This is your work at hand.
JOANNE: That’s great. I’ve often thought the planet could happily spit humanity off with no problem and that would serve us right. As another Aquarian, I always laugh when I remember the key phrase, the Aquarians are all about humanity, but not so keen on people. That makes for a lot of good revving opportunities for me.
ROBIN: Thank you, Joanne. I like to think of it as opportunity for us to be a part of the Earth as we’ve been taught so well here in this space—the energy coming through the Source, up and through us. That’s what’s so beautiful about that message.
If we bring together the answers to your question, Joanne, and my question, asking how we can be of service, allowing that to come through us, it brings another question about the fear being the root. I go down in the Source about what you said today: how the virus is created in the Source and it’s like an atomic bomb that has come up through the system being caused by the fear. Is it primarily the fear of death that has been going on for millennium that has been causing this abscess to come up through? Or is it fear of that goes beyond that?
PARTY: On a very rudimental level, it’s a fear of death that has accumulated for the all the time that human consciousness has evolved. Every time someone dies and then gets reborn, there’s also the fear of being reborn. There’s a fear of going from this infinite, non-physical space into a very tiny, small, cramped space that has you forgetting basically who you are, having to face what life has to throw at you, like what you’re going through right now.
That fear is not something that plants have, or soil. Even if there were a big, volcanic explosion and the Earth was disrupted, the soil wouldn’t have fear. The lava wouldn’t have fear. Fear is a human experience. It’s natural, it’s normal. It’s part of what we’ve always said: if the polar bear is chasing you to eat you, your fear is what inspires your intuition to make your feet run.
Anxiety is fear that traps itself with some thoughts to really lock up the fear into a thought process. But fear itself is natural. Every time you have died a terrible death or not wanting to die or being afraid of death, you take that back down the rabbit hole into the Source. The more you can detach from any kind of, A) judgment or B) construct around the fear, the more you just let it flow. Create your own construct of sacred affirmations of transcendence. You can [still] be feeling that fear.
When you’re really in your fear and you step into Witness to observe that you’re in your fear, then you can make a different decision about what you’re going to think. You step into that Witness of yourself being afraid. Then you see the thoughts: “doom, doom, doom,” or “I’m no good” or all that stuff. Now you’ve changed it a bit.
But then separate the two [the emotion of fear from the thoughts of why you are afraid] and put a construct that has a sacred, honoring ceremony of your love for yourself and the universe. It can be overwhelming in a profound way when you realize, wow, I have the ability to release this fear in the Source of the planet for the whole planet if I just love myself and let myself feel it. Then it transforms faster than if you’re feeling the fear and it’s attaching to the degenerative “doom doom doom,” self-degrading definition. It will hang itself up there just burning energy, making you suffer.
When you actually practice and open in this way, you can keep releasing it. If more and more people can do this, especially right now, the planet and humanity stand a chance.
ROBIN: Oh, that’s very helpful. I think it’s brought a lot of clarity to me this morning. A visual to store in the memory with it. So I greatly appreciate that. Are there any final questions?
JOANNE: I would like to echo that sentiment. That was the best, clear description ever. I’m going to re-listen to that one. I’ve recorded it, of course, being the scribe. That was great, thank you.
PARTY: Then we will close the channel with a couple of thoughts. One is, the gratitude is overwhelming on our side of what’s going on here. We knew when we started this experiment back with Kim and Teresa and Barbara and the groups, we knew we were breaking some ground back then that wasn’t going to be coming into full fruition until years later. Now that that era is over and there’s this absolutely brand new era, we are looking forward to the same kind of impact.
We want to reiterate the idea that there is absolutely nothing wrong, nothing that hasn’t been fulfilled, nothing that should have been happening that isn’t as far as listening to these voices. To practice on yourself, to become sacred transcendents is here. Recognize it, that you’re living in it.
You are the change. Really, if you doubt that, just watch and be amazed.
There are a great many things we cannot control right now. It is from this precarious unknown that new visions are about to emerge.
Join us Sunday as we continue on with our 2020 study of transcendence, focusing this month on how to inspire ourselves to take up this mindfulness about life. We’ll ask the Party for their views of this whole new world we find ourselves living in. I fully expect that, as always, they will bring hope, inspiration, compassion and humor.
Time for Q and A. All are welcome.
Inspire: to affect, guide or arouse by divine influence; to inhale; to breathe life into; to rouse latent energies, ideals or reverence
Transcend: To pass beyond a human limit; to exist above and independent of the material experience and the universe.
Transcend: To pass beyond a human limit; to exist above and independent of the material experience and the universe.
Join us for the next in our series exploring the art of transcendence. Come learn together how to live fully, richly, deeply in the world but not be of it. Find peace in your relationships, starting with yourself. All are welcome.
We will command that only the most divine light shine down upon us at this time, and that the greatest good be present here.
We are overwhelmed. We are so honored to be here with all of you today. And all that are to come. Because for as long as our mission has taken place, specifically the mission we have through Barbara and all of you and all of the many many many many many rings of influence that have been accumulated through the years. And now today, 12/29/19 is the first time that we have had an opportunity to have such a clear link from the physical to the nonphysical in the transformation of a human being.
Cathy has studied for years to get to this place and now she is here with us but had been there with you. And now we can bring forward even more clearly the idea that the different between life and death is so much more than you will ever begin to imagine in life. Even if you can imagine it, as much as you can possibly imagine of how fabulous and amazing and gigantic and life-changing this work that we’re doing right now is, it’s even more, exponentially, than you can imagine.
We hope that conveys the true awesome honor that we feel here today. When we started this project, we had many discussions about how to do this and what to do. As the Party, it was important that Einstein had not just Sigmund Freud, who was also someone he knew in the physical and now could know in the nonphysical, because we needed to craft a direction that would get us to where we are here today. What an outlandish story it seems, of finding three women who were willing to listen to our words and then use their actual live conflict as a way to learn themselves out of the old patterns. And into the new operating system.
It was important to have Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to help in understanding culture and publishing and getting the message out into print.
Everyone who has moved this along is a part of the change. Whether just an hour with us. Or you have an hour with us and then you take that hour to someone else.
The spread of what we have wanted to accomplish was not meant during this period to go wide and far. It was meant to go deep, deep within each of you, who have decided to embody the change, to be the change. To take your belief that there is a super human power only it’s not God outside you it’s you. And move it forward into Compassion. We’re here to tell you, despite what you look at your troubled world, it’s headed for a similar place as Barbara with speaking of. When, for her and Kim and Teresa were going through their experimentation through all the years and all their conflicts. Today, they are closer and deeper and richer and fuller and together. That love has grown through all of that conflict and all of that work on that conflict to be something quite amazing and has influenced the evolution of human consciousness.
All of you who have done the same things with your lives, where you uncovered the darkness and went in to resolve your conflicts on your own map, on your own level to see that then the world opens up and manifests in a way that is greater than the sum of the parts. Manifests in ways that you couldn’t have gone at directly. You cannot solve the problems of your physical world at the same levels that you see them being created. You must go deep into the root.
All of you who have even just taken stabs at it, you might be new or beginning, or maybe you’ve never heard of this idea of Conflict REVOLUTION and taking care of your own darkness and owning your own power, All of you do know that, we thank you. We thank you all of us here and all of you there, we are on a journey together that cannot fail.
One thing we want encourage everyone to do, especially after this passed year, if we’re looking at the end of the year, 2019, There’s a new relationship people have in social media. It’s a very energetic relationship. It’s symbolic of what you can do without actually having to have devises. But you can see in the past 50 years how much culture has taken you into the realization that life is very complicated. It’s interconnected in ways that you don’t quite understand how you can be on the other side of the world in a split second on social media or on the internet. And live, too! There’s a new challenges in this expansion of consciousness having to do with that. Clearly, when someone is not working for the good of the whole, working at the good of the few of the expense of the many. Or the expense of anyone. There is no reason to work at anyone’s expense. In the term of evil—working for the food of the few at the expense of the many—the more that you can detach and really say you don’t know, much like the Massage Cream Conflict. Still allow yourself to have a belief.
This is part of a challenge for those of you who don’t want to pretend that there aren’t great wars in the world, and injustices and things that do need to be stood up for. Energy that does need to be put towards bettering environment and your world right now in 2019.
To detach from the political battles, even the scientific battles, somebody’s right, somebody’s wrong. It’s a mechanism; it’s a system. It’s part of why the government in the Unites States right now is having such … well we won’t talk about that but … Because it’s right against wrong, and each side thinks they’re right and no one’s going to back down. There is a bigger force behind all of it that has been rising in this time of extreme, extreme wealth and extreme, extreme poverty.
It’s controversial not to make a judgment right now. If you’re looking at the physical world because you can’t let evil stand. But it’s very important that human’s understand as they’re moving forward what that really means. Because in one hand, you can go out and say, “That set of belief systems is evil.” Yes, putting children in jail, those kinds of things are evil. What do you do in the physical world to address those things.
In that area, we would say keep the detachment but find in your immediate world areas where you can interject yourself with this new operating system and this new way of resolving conflict and being the change. In a situation that is important to you there. So you don’t stop interacting and working for social justice you’re just doing this first.
Doing this first with yourself precipitates a kind of change that you won’t be able to predict in the physical world. You know it’s going to happen. For those of you have practitioned this for all these years, you know that when you do the process, you get the miracle. You can’t predict it and that’s the beauty of the process. Having that detachment and separating the idea that, “I don’t know the whole story but here’s what I believe. But I don’t know the whole story, so I’m not going to argue so much that I’m right.”
That’s another thing to be aware of in yourself, is when are you in that mode that you’re going to argue that you’re right. There are times when, yes, you have to stand up for somebody or something, and you are right. There’s times when it’s just. But it’s not a way of life. It’s not a personality trait that you always have to be right. That’s not what you want.
You want to find those areas and transform them yourself, where you can add just a little—when you’re in that place and you want to be right—you go into that mystery to say, you know what, I just don’t know if what I believe is fully the whole truth that I have to stand up for.
This kind of new thinking in those moments won’t always be well received because you all know the ego and how egotistical it can be. But it pushes it in the long run. It’s one more step that you manifest the new operating system. Where you manifest the new perspective, embodied it and made decisions around it.
Being able to be detached is really ultimately what gets you to transcendence. This goes back to what happened with Barbara and Catherine in her apartment at the end of her life, when even Barbara’s mother got a hold of the psychic and had her text Barbara that they were doing the right thing. This is a tribute to the work of all of you and all of us and the Party.
It happens so readily because Catherine let go of the Lens. Her ability in life to be tenacious and tough helped her in the end as she did everything in present moment to prepare her children and grandchildren. She did everything she could and by the time she got to the end of her life, the one thing that she knew was that she did that. That she prepared, to the best of her ability, and she knew that when she left, there was going to be a whole explosion in all of them, but she would be there for them when she figured out what was happening after she died. She knew she would be there for them and that ability to let go of life itself brings you into the condition of Afterlife which we’ve been teaching lately as called the Clarity.
We want to take you briefly into the Clarity. All of you imagine you’re alone, you are in the middle of a huge plane, like [the movie] The Matrix, where it was just white forever. You are on a plane. Imagine you’re sitting in a chair. Then imagine, actually, that there’s all of us in a ring sitting in chairs looking at each other in the circle. Imagine we’re all wearing beautiful white coats and suits. The chairs are white and everything is white. It’s just a plane as far as far as you can see.
Now we’re going to put a boundary on it. We’re going to sit in this Clarity, which is eternal, expansive and infinite and we have a little piece of it. We’re going to be in our Clarity. What that means is that this is a place of Afterlife. This is a place of consciousness that is learning how to be conscious in bigger and broader ways than consciousness has ever been conscious before.
In this Clarity, one thing that We the Party and you who are listening have helped us bring forth is the idea of how four-dimensional reality in the Lens is created. As we sit together in this Clarity, we’re here forever. You can come and go. There’s other things you can do. If you think about being in Afterlifge with us and there’s a ring of chairs and a circle of souls, some people come and go. Sometimes The circle pulls in and it’s fewer and there’s a bigger audience behind. It’s always ever changing, ever moving. Sometimes groups of three come up to speak in the voice of We, and sometimes you have individuals.
For the most part, this voice of Clarity, this voice of the Party, this voice of unison human consciousness that is being pushed to evolve into Compassion. That’s who we are all are today. And let us tell you: that world we’re looking down on that’s so troubled right now in 2019—and it has been—is filled over flowing with people connected in this network. Because to get to Compassion, you don’t need Conflict REVOLUTION. You don’t need this, you don’t need the Party. You need the commitment to yourself, whatever inspires you to do it. Whether it’s Christianity that inspires you to be that superhuman that’s going to be like Jesus who could change the water into wine. Or whoever, whatever—nature—inspires you to be this superhuman. Take your power into your own hands. Manipulate it for the good of the whole.
The troubled planet is in a process where they are discovering who they really are. Just like Barbara, Teresa and Kim had to discover who they really were, not who they should have been, or who Culture wanted them to be, or who they were patterning because of ancient patterns going on, but who they really were. You being here at this time is no mistake. It’s a brilliant and advantageous.
We see coming into 2020 that this movement of Compassion is going to take on more power than ever. It is being fed by its need: the need to take over. The need for Compassion. And you have what that takes. You have that answer. You are the change and we’re very excited.
You are the change not if you perfect something. Not if you never get triggered again and all your decisions are brilliant. But you are the change, especially right now where it is so complicated and so hard, you are the change of your local universe, of your part of the Lens. Your entire life. As you move into 2020 that’s your theme, that you a) have the superhuman power within you, b) it’s not that you’re perfect, it’s that you’re going to apply it as needed.
The idea isn’t to become “perfected” where you never make a mistake or you never get angry or you’re never say the wrong thing. The idea is to have a system in place that is so superconscious of what you’re doing that you start to make changes to those things. Slowly but surely, all of you have learned that you get more evolved when you do that. You still make mistakes. You still say things … Don’t look for that as a sign that you’re succeeding. Look at how many times you’re going to start over again and say, what do you really know and what do you believe?
Do you want to be right or do you want to have peace? Because those little tiny decisions are just as important as any other decision about big things. Every time you don’t have to instigate into a conflicted conversation with your sister [for example]. You just don’t care anymore to do that. She might still be riled up, but you’re not going to feed it. Every time you do those little things, it’s so important.
We’re hoping that in 2020 there is catch-up time to some of the things that we’ve been training for all of these years. We hope to help instigate the Universe pulling you few farther out into the world. If you are new and you get introduced to our information, and then you go off into the world and think, “Well, that’s really not for me,” that’s okay. The whole idea is that in the little bit of introduction of how to have a different operating system that you go off and do it. We’re not a font where you have to keep coming back and filling up your cup because you can’t live without us.
We happen to like to come together because there’s not a lot of people in the physical world in the Lens for you right now who can have these conversations this deep with you. That’s why we want to keep having them with you. But you—all of you—are charged with going out into your worlds and having the same conversations in everyday language. You don’t have to teach someone Conflict REVOLUTION. You demonstrate it. You work it in your life, however it works for you. That’s the whole idea, it’s meant to be very human specific. You will do things at your time. Intuition will tell you. Only you will know what to think, how to feel. That’s your business. That’s your full domain. How exciting to know that!
No, it’s not always exciting to go into the dark side. In the biggest picture, as Cathy Kline will tell you, it’s very exciting. She wished she would have gone deeper. She wished she could have gone deeper when she was there. But for whatever reason, she did it as she did it. She’s learning as she learns. Never be afraid to go deeper. If it means feeling and breathing, then it’s like mining out the abscesses, all those patterns that are packed in the emotions that never got to move through the body.
Think about when you reincarnate (if you’re there with us) and you go through a life and you have these abscesses that are still in that string when your body dies. It’s a wonder that anybody can figure anything out energetically these days, it’s so very complicated.
We’re so excited about this coming year and how much growth is going show up. You’re going to find more and more people are more attuned to wanting to be the change, to wanting to know how to do that. You’re going to find more and more situations individually where you can put that intention forward. More than you know, because you make so many decisions in a day. You have so many interactions, it’d be hard for your human mind to get up with all of them. There’s always more places.
What that gets you to—and we’re saying this as an experiment, of course—what we hope it gets you to is where you with the bodies are so aware of us here in the Clarity and the part of you that’s in the Clarity, it’s one system. It’s no longer separated by if you have a body or not. There’s a structure and framework that’s we’ve given you that’s psychologically and psychically, energetically to see where you are when the body is gone and there is no more Lens. The Human Intention isn’t focused on that particular string to bring into physical life. This is no small potato thing.
It’s going on in your everyday world. In that physical world where most people don’t think about death or these things. It’s like you’re secret agents. If you think about being a secret agent for the good of the whole, a secret agent doesn’t reveal all that depth of what’s really going on, what they really know. They’re not really transparent. They’re not doing it to manipulate but to influence. To influence the outcome without letting you know that they’re a secret agent. Often times, you won’t have to have that talk with that neighbor or sit down and tell your son this. You can express it to yourself in your understanding to get to know who it is that you are. What you want from a situation and then let it go and go back to present moment where you will commit to be in that transcendent moment where you’re right there listening, listening for your intuition, listening for what your thoughts are, your Intellect, always moving that emotion through your breath. This expansion that you’re in is going to take a profound step next year.
Before we open for questions and conversation, we would love to talk a little bit about 2020 in terms of being a year of balance. Balance is coming to you whether you want it or not.
As you move into next year, keep this in mind: when you find yourself stressed or struggling, think about if the energies were trying help you manifest a life of balance. Now, if you were getting your PhD and doing your thesis , that is not a life of balance, necessarily. But there are ways to approach the imbalanced life with balance. The universe is going to be conspiring to help you build a strong balance into the system.
For some of you, that may not be an issue. For some of you who are maybe too balanced every now and again, it will throw you off balance, to get you into the process of getting back into balance. For most people, the balancing act doesn’t take place out there in the world. It takes place inside you. What is your relationship going to be to what is the truth, and what you believe, and if you’re going to be right or if you’re going to make peace.
We can say right now it’s going to help you to commit and intend to want to make peace. To commit and intend to stray away from behavior that engages in needing to be right. Even if, and maybe mostly more important, try to stray away from those behaviors when you really are right. You even really have the proof of it. Because if you’re in a position where you want to be right and you actually have the proof, and you take that proof and you put it out there, “Here’s the proof!” Well, okay.
Now you’re right.
But what did it do to the peace?
On the other hand, if you’re committed to the peace and you find out you’re right, it may not even matter anymore. You might be working with somebody whose—if you were to prove that you were right, that you could clearly see that person was going in the wrong direction—there are other ways to influence people.
But when you look at the world and it’s so crazy and everybody’s so pitted against each other and you get wrapped up!
And nobody’s faulting you! This is the journey. This is the important piece/peace of everyday life for you. being on the planet, being in the Lens, having these human experiences and choosing to pull your superpower into the intention to commit Compassion at every turn. And that’s going to be the force that leads the rest of the change forward. Not what’s going on on the planet. That’s not going to lead the change forward. This is leading the change forward.
If there’s nothing that we leave you with today other than embrace this gift to be able to be this conscious during this time in this era. We hope to inspire you continue to watch and be amazed.
Losing someone you love is never easy. People often ask me if, since I can talk to dead people, I still feel sad at the passing of a friend or family member, knowing they’re still alive somewhere and that I can talk to them.
Yes, of course I still go through grief. But Einstein has been teaching us how to live in the non-physical (the same state as Afterlife) while also in our bodies and to consciously prepare for death. Because I have learned to develop living relationships with my dead friends in Afterlife, perhaps my mourning doesn’t last as long as most.
It is with equal sadness and excitement today that I honor the passing of my dear friend and Conflict REVOLUTION coach Mary Catherine Kline. She left the physical on October 7, 2019 after a long dance with cancer. She is sorely missed by many.
We first met in 2008 at a group channel I was conducting in Ohio. She coincidentally sat directly to my right. Ever after when people asked her how we met, she would say that she got to sit at the “right hand of Barbara the channel almighty.” Ha ha.
Several months later, she called to invite me to play music at a spiritual retreat she was planning. After saying no three times, which she would not take for an answer, I finally gave in and flew to Florida for Sand, Sea, and Spirit. She did a presentation that was so passionate and articulate, I asked her to teach and train Conflict REVOLUTION. With a resounding yes, yes, and yes, she went on to get certified and integrate Con REV into her own healing practices and daily life.
Cathy was a master at perseverance and maintaining a positive, powerful attitude. She never shirked the difficult work of Conflict REVOLUTION. Nor did she ever back away from me when I was in need, instead happily becoming my cheerleader, coach and biggest fan.
Vivacious, with an infectious laugh that often rang out loudly at her own jokes, Cathy was generous to a fault and willing to help just about anyone. We never hesitated to call in times of need and were there for each other through thick and thin.
The Massage Cream Conflict
Cathy’s passion for Con REV was fully revealed in a conflict we went through that we dubbed The Massage Cream Conflict. She had just organized and promoted a very successful Conflict REVOLUTION workshop in Columbus. As we were divvying up the proceeds, I asked if I could buy some of her massage cream. She said she had to order it, but would bring it when she came to Corpus Christi to finish her classroom certification training. So I left her the money from my pile of cash—or so I thought.
She arrived in Corpus at the same time as Holly, my other dear friend and Con REV trainee from Portland. As they were unpacking, Cathy brought out the massage cream and told me I owed her $25. Wait! I was sure I had paid her out of my Ohio cash before I left.
She, on the other hand, distinctly remembered that I would pay for it in Texas. Trouble was, neither of us kept a record of the agreement, and we each had an entirely different memory of what took place.
I knew she wasn’t trying to rip me off, and she knew that of me. In all our other business dealings, we had meticulously signed contracts, but nothing in writing for this transaction.
After going back and forth each trying to prove ourselves right, we decided to Rev the conflict together—see how long it would take us to revolve and resolve it. Holly would be the “peace” in the middle. What a perfect spontaneous exercise for the teacher training: an active conflict between us. We named it the Massage Cream Conflict.
I quickly got to my root. The truth was, there was no record, period. Dang. I couldn’t prove that I was right, and neither could she. With no proof, we had to admit that we just didn’t know. Commit to the mystery. End of story.
As soon as I accepted that we’d never know the truth, I stopped arguing my position. My focus turned to creating a solution for the good of all. I didn’t want Cathy to pay for the cream twice, nor did I. So what was a fair resolution to this mystery?
Cathy, however, continued to argue that she was right. I kept responding with what I knew for sure—that we had no proof—and she’d reluctantly agree, but come back with more evidence she’d thought of to prove she was right. Each time she did, I’d reiterate, “We have no proof of what really happened, so let’s figure out what to do.” That was my story and I stuck to it.
Cathy eventually had her AHA moment that inspired her to stop defending her position. As soon as she did, we found our resolution: Holly had offered to buy the creme, but since we didn’t know who paid for it, we didn’t know who should get the money. So both we agreed to gift it to her as a way to resolve the conflict.
After, in her typical big-hearted way, Cathy offered me a free massage, just in case I was the one taking the loss. Not to be out-generous-ed, I gave her several CDs from my channeling series, just in case it was her loss.
What a beautiful outcome for the good of all, considering what could have happened.
The Massage Cream Conflict was a powerful lesson in “Do you want to be right, or do you want to make peace?” Had we not had examined this conflict, I would was sworn I was right and continued to perpetuate my need to prove it. Once I stopped fighting and refocused on finding a creative solution for the good of all, I changed the energy of the conflict, thereby influencing the outcome. For me, this is exactly what becoming the change looks like.
In the past several years, Cathy experienced some profound losses. Her precious 10-year-old granddaughter was diagnosed with brain cancer. Shortly after that, she, too, was diagnosed with cancer. Later, she discovered one of her friends after they committed suicide by hanging.
Cathy weighed the decision about treatment heavily. Having lost many family members to cancer, she knew what happened with chemotherapy. Plus she knew if she were to undergo chemo while her granddaughter was also going through it, she wouldn’t have the energy to be there for her, and that meant more to her than her own life. So she underwent an operation, but passed on the chemo and radiation in order to be fully present with her granddaughter as she went through her ordeal.
Due to conflicts with the family, Cathy was not able to see her for the last six months of her life. That broke her heart, for so many reasons. Shortly after her granddaughter passed, she found her friend, hanging in a barn. She started to get sicker and eventually found out her cancer had spread to her liver. That was when she started on chemo, which she did off and on for the next few years.
Last Spring I got a message from her. She was in the hospital being treated for the ravaged mess she had become. Nothing was helping. She had finally reached the end of her rope, weeping and sobbing and in massive pain, as sick as she’d ever been.
I offered to come to Ohio. If we couldn’t manage her condition, I assured her I would be there to help her take the next steps towards the end of life.
When I arrived in Columbus, we went to the doctor, who suggested more chemo. She refused to put herself through that again and asked for other options. His only other suggestion was hospice.
She decided to take her healing into her own hands. At first, she made a valiant effort. She got her medical marijuana card, and I started cleaning out her pantry and preparing to cook her healing foods. But after only one day, she was exhausted and came to the conclusion that she was ready to prepare to die.
In that surreal moment, sitting in her living room looking at each other silently, sadly, both of us at a loss, something shifted. Later, my friend Lily would call it “transcendence.” Whatever it was, as soon as she released the struggle to live and took steps to prepare to die, the universe seemed to leap into action and support her.
It began when she was telling me about her family. When she mentioned her younger brother, immediately the phone rang, and it was him. Since she talked to him only a few times a year, this was unusual.
We began to discuss how to connect with hospice. At that moment, the phone rang and it was the nurse from the doctors office, the one we needed to speak to about that.
In another truly eerie moment, out of the blue I received a text from Amy, a psychic who had given me a reading with my mother after she died. I had not heard from her in almost a year. That day at Cathy’s, she texted to say she was getting a message from my mom to tell me that we were doing all the right things and that we had a lot of support from the other side. Amy had no idea where I was or what was going on! In essence, I got a text from my mother from Afterlife assuring me that we were on the right track.
People would call as soon as we mentioned their name. Cathy’s apartment filled with the comings and goings of visitors, friends and family as they all came to love her.
I flew back and forth to Columbus three times. We shared so much during those weeks. One night was just her raging and weeping for hours. Other days we laughed so hard our sides ached. She was meticulous in tending to the details of the end of her life: making sure her three kids and three grandkids were prepared, giving away her possessions to people she loved, closing out accounts, making plans for her care.
The hospice team was incredible, bringing her back to life with their loving care and precise medications. Seeing her released from the misery of trying to be healed, to being made to feel comfortable and out of pain was like night and day.
Cathy had one last reading from me. Her last question is very telling of what her attitude was in life:
When I left for the last time in July, she was doing so well she even drove me to the airport. But after, she slowly started to fade, sleeping more and more, losing mental clarity, eventually switching over to morphine in the end.
I was not with her when she passed peacefully with family and friends at her side. But spending time with her at the end of her life was one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received. When I was with her, the synchronicity was breathtaking and the love of friends and family profound and inspiring. When I was away from her, I longed to be in her living room, in that state of transcendence. It was hard to care about the regular events of life as I experienced her impending death—death that will come for us all someday.
I’ve seen her in Afterlife, as vibrant and tenacious as she was in the physical, her trademark laugh ringing through the ethers. She’s riding along with me on my gravitational wave, in her joyful state, reunited with friends and family and especially with her beloved granddaughter.
It’s only been recently, however, that she has been showing up in readings, with specific messages about her experiences. And just like in life, she has a lot to say!
Cathy attended most every one of our call-in group channeling sessions since I started doing them in 2009. This next session is the first one since her passing. Even though she’s not here physically, we talked about this very day in the last weeks of her life. She is indeed at the table with the Party. I am excited to see what she has to say.
Cathy Kline, I love you so much and miss you like crazy. I’m looking forward to this new relationship from Afterlife. I hope you continue to teach me from there, like how you taught me in life to commit to the mystery, gracefully face death, and live and die in peace and dignity.
Save me a seat.
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