For the past several weeks, I’ve been struggling. So much deep emotion, so many doubts, a lot of fear and worry. My usual processes in place, still I have been going very deep within and dealing with some resurgent energy that has challenged my sanity.
This is nothing new; it feels my entire life has been about feeling stuff so deeply, often “too deeply.” As my now ex-husband once said to me, “Why can’t you be more normal?” I’m not sure I can tell you why I will never be “more normal” but I can say I won’t be.
As is often the case, the universe sends the right inspiration at the right time. Several, in fact. One that we talk about in this session is the text I got from a new friend, who out of the blue sent me an interview with Jim Morrison. Morrison’s advice, seemingly from beyond the grave, was a perfect answer to my struggle to understand why I am who I am and do what I do.
Another I was tagged on in Facebook by a near, close friend who understands my struggles. This, too, was the perfect message that helped me box my compass back to compassion:
SOON YOU WILL RISE LIKE A PHOENIX
One of the most dangerous spiritual myths we have inherited is that healing is supposed to ‘feel good’.
No. Sometimes our discomfort actually intensifies as darkness emerges into light, as unconscious material makes its way into present awareness, as our old illusions burn up in a fever of healing.
Perhaps our discomfort is not wrong, a mistake, or a sign that we have lost our healing path. Remember, the presence of pain today may actually indicate that our healing process is intensifying, not stalling; that we are actually more awake and sensitive than ever now, less numb, less willing to turn away, more in touch with our sacred vulnerability.
There is such a tendency in our culture to avoid discomfort of any kind, distract ourselves from it, label it as ‘wrong’ or ‘negative’ or even ‘unspiritual’, meditate or medicate it away. Much of our Western medicine is geared towards the removal of symptoms, the silencing of disruption, the numbing of chaos and the journey towards some socially acceptable ‘normality’.
But sometimes, friends, we no longer have any interest in ‘returning to normal’. The ‘normal’ was the problem, not the solution. The status quo needed to shift. It was unstable and false. Our old conception of reality was keeping us trapped and we needed to break free. Sometimes a deadening and soul-destroying ‘normality’ needs to shatter into chaos and crisis; our pain and sorrow, frustration, exhaustion, fear and doubts need to be felt more fully than ever before, and the heart needs to break open more completely.
So let the winds blow, let the tempests rage, let all that is false be purified, let all that is dead remain dead, let life explode where you are! You are only being invited now to a deeper healing, friend, even though it feels like you’re getting ‘worse’, even though the heart is tender and raw, even though you cannot yet feel your tomorrows!
Soon you will rise like a phoenix!
Author ~Jeff Foster
Join us Saturday April 30, 2022 9 am central for another meeting of the Psychic Sorority.
Always free, all are welcome.
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