On the night of August 26, I fell down 20 wooden stairs, hit a concrete sidewalk, continued down three more granite stairs and landed in the yard below.
As I was tumbling, I remember thinking, “This might not be good.”
When I finally stopped, I stood up, checked my neck, back and general condition, and realized I had broken my wrist. After a trip to the emergency room, surgery was scheduled for several days later to put in a metal plate.
Luckily, the fall happened on the last night of my three-week musical tour. Not only had the tour ended literally two hours earlier, but the fact that I had only broken my wrist was nothing short of miraculous.
After coming through surgery, I began the healing process, devoting my energy to the intention that I would make a rapid and full recovery. At first, I kept reliving the fall, over and over. It was traumatic. I wondered what allowed me to fall in such a way as to not damage anything but my wrist. Was it just luck that I did not break my neck, hip(s), leg(s) or other bones, or end up paralyzed, brain damaged or flat our dead?
In a reading I did for my sister last week, Einstein said this about my fall:
The greatest healing power that you have is your own self-love. There’s a new kind of layer of supernatural awareness that surrounds your bodies now. It’s about not hiding your body from your soul. Whatever it was in Barbara’s fall that allowed her body to not break, her neck to not snap—whatever those magical intentions were at this point, we are not quite articulate in how to describe the neurological connections between that Greater Barbara who was (think of it as dancing, or maybe performing surgery) instructing [her body], “Don’t hit there. Don’t hit there.” How did the energy cross-reference from her bigger self to her physical body? What was the intersection of intelligence and bodily response that allowed that to happen?
Our Einstein tells us that we nurture synchronicity when we allow Intuition to be in charge of making decisions. Bypassing the logic of the Intellect, Intuition will guide us to the next most advantageous step for the good of the whole. Is Einstein saying above that the system is so ingrained in how I operate that it works even in the case of falling down the stairs?
Would that explain the other events in the past several years that could have ended poorly? The hit-and-run crash that totaled my car in 2011 that I walked away from, the Wimberley Flood in 2015 that I was only blocks uphill of, the terrorist attack in Paris later that year that was right around the corner from my hotel—could my “good luck” be a greater form of self-love?
The truth it, it’s a grand experiment and we are the researchers as well as the lab rats. Einstein has given us the road map and step-by-step instructions for changing our own lives first and foremost. From that inner change comes the outer manifestation of the inner peace and self-love we create by aligning to Compassion.
I don’t know the answer. I do know I dedicate myself to living aligned to Compassion and that has changed my life. In fact, at my last doctor’s visit on October 31, he declared my healing was six weeks ahead of schedule and gave me a clean bill of health. Just in time to head to Paris, where I will be for the next month or so, living the life, working on music, singing some jazz, and immersing myself in yet another effort to live fully, richly, deeply while still in physical form.
So far, so good.
In gratitude for my good fortune and extraordinary gifts, from now until the end of the year I am happy to offer a full one-hour reading for $75.